I hope you enjoy your life! :)

Mood: Good :)

I was quite stress few days ago, because i was worrying too much. But today after jason shared something to me, he remind me of something i used to forget in my life, and i feel better afterward. Thank you dear!

When you are unhappy about things happen in your life, stop for a while, look around at people in this world and compare to yourself, do you still feel unhappy about your life?~zhi zu chang le~

I just want to share a song from Jay Chou with all of you--Dao Xiang (Fragrant Rice)
I just love the lyrics a lot! If you cannot understand the meaning, just paste it into translator, but one thing for sure, i know you will like the song!

So, please enjoy!

我變了嗎?

天空今天穿上了一系列灰色的衣裳.

讓我不自然想問到底什么時候了?

什么時候開始我們之間多了一樣東西?

一樣我們都希望它不存在的東西--距離

曾幾何時我向大家說過,我們一定會跟以前一樣的

但事實告訴我說我錯了, 而我也認同了

朋友說: 你變了!

我說: 我說我曉得, 也感覺到

朋友說: 不是你的錯, 是你不得不去英國

我再問: 我真的變了嗎?

朋友2說: 你變了嗎? 如果有,應該也是變得不可愛了!

變, 我高興嗎?

很肯定的答案, 一點都不

我知道我變了

不再亂笑

不再大膽

不再果斷

不再開朗

不再說冷笑話(少了)

但我成熟了

因為時間的不同

因為各忙各的

因為環境因素

我們之間多了一道牆

我們還能像周哥說的回到過去嗎?

我有選擇嗎? 我也不想這樣的

如果我能做小叮當的時光機回去

我希望這一切的變化從沒發生過

只因我在乎我們的友情…

I can feel...

I can feel millions of pain receptors around my teeth and gum sending their messages to my brain now....telling me that I AM IN PAIN!!!!

I have not been wearing retainer regularly for three weeks. After i give some pressure and force to the retainer so that it could sit nicely into its position as i wish...My tears drops...it's so painful...

Just want to write this down

Very happy
Another long hour
4 hours...
~4 hours again
Nobody knows what i am talking about
Only I know :)

Malaysian Game!!!

Today 8/11/2008 is Nottingham Malaysian Game.



I personally think that Malaysian should come for this game, you can see malaysian everywhere. You just feel like you're in Malaysia with same kind of people who you used to see while in Malaysia. Since when i so patriotic? It might be a place where you will randomly meet someone you know and"eh...how are you?" haha..



Surprisingly, this year lesser people visit NMS games compare to last year despite the fact that the number of teams registered for games have increased.



Okla, I was there since 11.30am and my only concern is about the volleyball match. Nottingham team didn't manage to secure their championship. Sheffield is the Champion of volleyball this year :). The score was actually very close ---25:23. I hope nobody sees how i cheer/scream for the team using English, Mandarin, Cantonese...haha..



Second sports that will attract my attention is Basketball. Don't ask me why? I just like to watch basketball match even though i do not like (because my stamina is not good enough to play!!) and do not know how to play. IMPERIAL COLLEGE manage to secure their championship!!!!WOOHOOO.....I actually can't remember the scores, but i know it was very close also. They always shout IC IC, after that only i know it's actually stands for IMPERIAL COLLEGE. I actually sat among those IC reserve players and hence i cheer for IC instead of NOTTINGHAM!!!Hahaha...betrayer!!! Oops..i forgot to say that it was IMPERIAL vs. NOTTINGHAM in final!!



Conclusion : Nottingham Malaysian Game is good!!!And, i am seriously tired and cacat now. Look at this!!!This is what i get at the end of the day after volleyball game and i know this is unavoidable! This makes me walk like orang cacat when i go up and down staircase!!!But, still i enjoyed and appreciate the chance given to play volleyball in my last year!Yahooooo!!!I love volleyball!!

Long time no see VOLLEYBALL! :)

Don't doubt yourself on what you are looking at now. It 's my hand. If you look more clearly , you can find that there are a lot of small red dots on my hand. Actually on both of my hands, you know where is the other hand gone to? The other hand obviously is holding camera and taking picture la! (oh....rachel..why you so cold???)haha....

This is what I get after one hour practice with new people who i never played with before. If you didn't play volleyball regularly, this is what you will get ...swollen..pain....redness. I actually got one bruise on my right knee with 5 cm diameter and just beside it is another red patch.

I wonder how many blood vessels had sacrificed themselves in this practice?Must be lots...

My last volleyball training were form5 ..which is 2003..now is 2008 already....imagine it has been five years ago since my last training. I am no longer the girl who can play well for volleyball, i have to admit this. :(

I just wonder how am i going to play for Malaysian Game with pain on my hands, bruise and blister on my palm. And, most important things i DON'T have tacit understanding with other players....which is actually an important part of volleyball team...TEAMWORK is very important!!!

Good luck tomorrow..!Might be my last play before graduate.....:)

A morning call from Tsb pharmacy....

"qin peng qi you ni ting wo shuo..........................."

I got a call from Tsb pharmacy at 8.45am, following my email to reject their offer.

Firstly, she asked me the reason of rejecting them. I said i have offer from another company which suits my condition better. She then ask me which company is that, why i prefer that company? I didn't want to say because that company is better and i prefer to work for them. so i just simply say that because better salary and benefits those kind of things which obviously isn't my main concern. If i know more harsh things are coming, i wouldn't have answer like that.

She was nice at the beginning. She said that if i am concern about these, we can further discuss the terms and conditions. Again, I stress that i still won't take the offer.

Here is where the transformation occurs....
She starts shooting me...

1. She said i have been unprofessional because they actually sent me two offer letters since September but I took long time to reply their offer.
This isn't true because Tsb Pharmacy actually made an offer to me recently. I was on hold since August .

2. After i clarify this thing with her, she said there is actually two offer letters but first offer letter was lost on its way. After a second check, she found out my offer was made on 10/10/2008.

3.Then she starts change the topic, she said offer was made on 10/10/2008, why do i take so long time to reply?
I said i only receive offer letter from them after two weeks, which is on 28/10/2008.I receive offer from another company after i received offer letter from them. I took about two weeks to reply them because i need time to make my decision. But i found out it's only 8 days but not two weeks.
SHE SAID TWO WEEKS IS TOO LONG TO MAKE A DECISION. I replied her that i think i have the right to make decision in two weeks. Even for first round candidates, RPSGB also mention must give them time until 1st week of OCT, how come i can't have the TWO WEEKS?

4. She change topic again this time. She said because of me they have turned down other candidates. I explain to her that i was told by her manager that the place i have offered to already have enough students and my offer was a special arrangement. So, I have considered that no other candidates are waiting for my post.

For whatever she says, it 's just not right, can she please check everything before she actually make a call to people first thing in the morning and ruin ppl's mood.

I did apologise to her about reject the offer. But, throughout the conversation i heard at least four times " I have to report to your university about this, this is unprofessional"...At the end, I starts get angry and be more firm about my stand. I know I am wrong but i haven't sign anything, I already try my best to reply you asap. Why do you keep threatening me?I am just a student, lose me will lose your whole company is it ????(obviously i din say this to her la)

The last things she said to me is still the same threatening words. And , me ? "OKAY FINE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH."

I know i know i have made a lot of mistakes in my pre-reg offers. I learnt my lessons. Can you please have some mercy on students being pressured on making decision? Company can miss their words reject or accept as long as they like. But students? Drag n drag your time, put you in on-hold list for ages,BUT when they need an answer, you must give response straight a way!!!!We as student has no right for more than 2 weeks to make a decision.

Anyway, for everyone who concerns about my problems. I am okay now. I have talked to people in SCHool of Pharmacy and my tutor. They say there is nothing Tsb pharmacy can do to me. They will support me but i need to write an email to them to explain what is happening, so that when complaint letter comes in, they can response straight a way.


Lesson :
Do not agree on anything that you think you are not satisfy with it .
Do not verbally accept anything even though there is no formal documents signed as proof.
Be really firm for those who threatens you!
Make a quick decision!


I know this kind of things not only happen on me. I mean pressure from company. But puisan I am not going to write to RPSGB because i don't want get into any troubles anymore.

Conclusion:
This morning call ruins my whole day :(

I really have learnt the lesson, I will make sure from now on nobody will describe me as unprofessional anymore.
I am really sorry for all inconveniences caused.Sincerely....

I hate retainer!!

Suddenly tonight i got a strong intense to tell everyone that i hate wearing retainer..!!!!

I hate to wear it or sometimes even chose to forget about it .Very purposely* But when i know is not right to do this and start wearing retainer again...what i get is - PAIN.

According to dentist, i have to wear it for life-long. Probably i can only get rid of it when i have to start wearing another thing - denture. T..T