I am a degassed balloon now..

There are lots of things which i always hide inside my heart, i never let you know until two days ago.Firstly, i have to say sorry about that, because i hide it from you. Secondly, really thank you for being honest to me.At least i feel much more better after all..But, i don't know how are you now...Cuz i have not been talking to you for two days liao..i say i m not going to contact you, i said it i mean it.

Actually there's nothing much i want, u know, the only thing from last time until now, i am just a normal girl who wanted attention. This question have been raised up so many times. You said i cant tolerate you..i think we must be using different degree of tolerance. I know you are trying hard, me too.

I am sorry if any of my words hurt you before..
I know it's part of my fault also, cuz i know you;re such a busy person since be4, but why am i still wanna complain about it, i think i just need some words from you..which you dunno..nvm ..

Let me make a wish here, if there 's angel in this blog, i hope dark clouds will go away soon and i can see rainbow again!!!=)..if there's no more rainbow, i will still accept it with smile!!Cuz i am yan mei xiang, i can take whatever things!!!! I know i can!!

NB i actually think that bearbear can hear what i said, haha, becuz when i told bearbear" bearbear, can u pls pls let me know ,no matter a call or a msg, i want to know he is safe." not long after that, msg ring liao!!my brilliant bearbear!!haha...i love it a lot!!from inside out..

Heart of Greed

Just got some thoughts after i have watched this Hong Kong series..named HEART OF GREED.

This is a really nice series,i will definitely recommend everyone to watch it(i know it's not a new series, but if you haven't watch yet, faster do so)

This story is about a very rich family, they used to lived in harmony and happy life.But, after the big mom passed away, the junior mom starts to do a lot of things because she 's aiming to get the 0.3billions which is half of the husband 's assets. She ruined the happy family and she can even disown her biological child just because of money. However, she's under influence of the other guy who 's aiming of her money because he has got a greed heart.Luckily, at the end , she manage to differentiate who's really treat her as family and who 's doing all good just because of her money.A good ending!!!And, "Quite OK also get together with Sheung zhoi tsam!!yeepee!!!

This series had earned a lot of my tears..because it always remind me of my family, a very happy and big family. I will always remind myself, appreciate my family..they're whole lovely bunch who always support me, if i am tired or hurt , i can always go back and be a little girl of them. I got seven most lovely little creatures from God, they 're my niece and nephews.Although they're naughty and always want me to play the "teacher and student" game with them, although i get annoyed by them when i have to study, although they always fight for something, but i still always love them the most..."xiao gu really love you all and whole family!!"

In this series also, the Sheung zhoi tsam angry at her bf for two years because he got an affairs with her best friend SHui MAKMAK. Throughout the two years after they have broken up, they actually still love each other a lot, but Sheung always don't dare to say the word" i forgive you".However, unfortunately, at the end when she made up her mind to forgive her bf , the bf had an accident and they can no longer get together . So, she keep blaming herself and regrets that she should have forgive him earlier.

I just want to say, if someone ever make us angry until the extent that you can't forgive him/her,try not to put your principle at front to limit yourself when you actually feel like saying"i have forgive you", because you'll never know whether there's always a chance for you to say that.

Still the same thing---cherish whatever we have now,don't take everything as granted.

Secret

Today,hmm,an hour ago i have been told a secret by my good fren.
ok, it's the biggest secret i supposed, but , i promised not to tell so i wont tell.I'll keep my words.

Today's topic is secret, i think lots of us will tend to ask this question before we tell someone "SECRET"
"I got a secret to tell you, but you must promise not to tell others ok?"
"because the urge to know is so strong..so faster say okok, no problem..!!!"

But, how many people really do keep the secret?
Just a turn , maybe your secret is no longer a secret ...

But, we need to know the "weight" of that secret...think before you say..
People trusted you so they tell you about their secret, don't ruin yours trustworthiness

So,guys remember to keep the secret when you've promised someone before.

Sometimes, the third party might want to know about the secret, but because you've promised so you don't wanna tell, it's ok..
I suppose the third party will/should understand that you're just keeping your trustworthiness..being a fren or FBI..haha

How much time you have?

Yeah, how much of time you have?Maybe i should ask have you spend your time wisely?
I tend to forgot that i should spend my time wisely, when i still have lots of time before certain dateline(example), I will just doing nothing and maybe always left it till last minute and make myself tiring ..
Recently there's email from sports manager from NMS(Nottingham Malaysian Society) said who is interested in playing listed sports pls email them. Of course i emailed him because i wanted to play volleyball.Who knows he said he cant find player to become the captain. Unless i am willing to be the captain, he is more than happy to elect me.I start thinking a lot , wan or not?
Why not ? because i really wanna play, if i graduate liao, i dun have this kind of chance or time to play volleyball...But, third yr is pretty busy , the following three weeks i still have lots lab to do ..is near to the end of semester, i need to prepare for exam ..
BUT i dun think i m capable of being a captain.. i am just a normal player.I am not skilful.
I dunno how, but my ex-teammate told me, appreciate the chance because she 's working now, dun even have the chance to play now.
At the end, i replied the email, told him what i can do and cannot ..if really just need one "
captain" then maybe i will consider.
But, this incident make me start thinking , am i good in time management ? if i really join this game, can i cope with my studies?
I just realised that actually things can be done , it just depend on you, you want or don't want?when you know that you're run out of time, you will start plan your time, and use it wisely and no longer waste any single seconds. HUman can work well under pressure/stress...
When we 're holding something precious, we can't see how precious it is ..we can only know how precious it is when it's going to leave us..
So, we should appreciate everything we have now..