Sunday, July 27, 2008

SUN

Where do i belong to? I belong to nowhere.

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I don't know how and what is best way for two people to get together?


I don't understand you. Why do you put your display pic with another gal(s) but never put ours. Even i told you i mind, you didn't change it , so what is the point of telling all these?


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I just came back from a long walk, using looking for cafe to print something as excuse, i actually just wanted to get out from this house. I remember when i was sad, i used to ride motorbike or drive my car slowly ,keep going and without knowing where is my destination but just keep moving. That's how i release myself when i am sad, but in Uk i haven't got any motorbike or car, so i went for a long walk. (although i was a bit worry about the safety, I saw five police cars going to same direction, driving 100km/h in housing area.)



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Just now was the second time i nearly bang by a car, because i keep thinking about something when i cross the road and didn't realise car is coming.(Luckily...)



Picture taken on the way to cambridge by shiang.

Look at the pic clearly. Have you realise that bottom part of the cloud is always darker compare to the top part of clouds? I just think that all the clouds in the sky are just like human's life. As you get nearer to Sun , you will become brighter and happier, however, sometimes due to the effect of wind which might blow you off to another area, you might become the bottom part of the cloud and become darker, you might even get darker and darker, heavier and heavier and fall off become drops. A tiny drop, nobody will realise you have gone. This is a process, even you know that you will go back to the bright part one day, but you still have to go through same process from time to time. When Sun come out again, you will get back to the bright part and happy again.

Life just fill with ups and downs.

I hope my life, my love, my family and everything on the earth can always stay near to the SUn and stay as bright as the top part of cloud. Do not get affected by wind and become the darker part.

I want to stay on the bright part, please don't come to my life become the bad wind. Love needs Sun. I need Sun. Jason and I need Sun.

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Sunday, July 06, 2008

I am waiting !!!

I am waiting for ...

my stupid project to finish,
impress my tutor that i am capable and responsible,
my tutor write a good recommendation letter to head office,
my tutor to go holiday!!!!
9/8 to come so my placement will be finished, i can go back to Nottingham do final shopping! and pack my things and go back to hot country!

a really nice holiday!!!
JJ to love me as before
a really good birthday celebration (which i wonder how to split myself among family,love, frens)


I can't wait ...
to wear whatever i want!! short skirt,hot pant!!!
to drive wherever i want to go!
to see my family
to see my frens
to see JJ too
to play with my nephews and cute tingting!!!!
to bring them to pasar malam..hehe..then we can buy buy buy munmun
to eat those food i used to eat
to visit those store, mamak, places i used to go
TO SING K
to eat nice food!!!!without considering the currency exchange!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


wahaha..i gonna crazy here...:p can someone answer me, should i bring my dearest bearbear back to msia also? hehe..i just cant wait, when i think of all that my mouth just cant close properly!!!!:p

The only thing i dun feel like doing is go back and discuss the problem. I don't want to know the final decision!:(...heng