Saturday, September 09, 2006

A copy from my sister's blog

Author:pohgeok(my sister)
You will never know how close my sister and I are. This is one of the illustrations that how this mutual support works.. I am very lucky to have her as my sister, believe it or not, I also learn from my younger sister. She has a lot of good concepts that are simple and true. We are similar in that we don't have a lot of complicated concepts. Sometimes, when she was trying to cheer me up, I thought.. hmm... she sounds so much similar to me (when I was in full positive energy). She is my mirror or shadow. Or maybe I am hers. = )
She went through similar life experience as mine. We both were frightened by the English when we went to college. We both were sad that our English were very poor. I think we both agree that we are improving. We are glad that we grow up so much. From small little girls, who play sands (but not dolls; oh... we actually have two teddy bears called bei bei and su su.. hahaha).. to now.. learning how to help people.. pacing ourselves.. learning and progressing.. to be a psychologist and a pharmacist. It is so interesting right? She is always performing better than I, academically. I envy her so much. = ) She is really clever but always thought herself as not so bright child. You are really good! I always use you as an example of working hard towards the goal.. I remembered how you went through the A level with dunno how many times of reading .. over and over again..RESPECT. = ) Because I can't.. I can't really read books for so many times.. I will really get bored! haha.. u are great! U make me believe that , when there is a will, there is a way!

I have to say that story again. Why would I have you as my sister? My parents are lucky enough. They thought that I will get bored because I was the only daughter in the family, after five brothers. So, they decided to give it another try. Then they really got "you", another daughter again. Exactly what they were hoping for! I got so jealous when I was really young. I had full attention originally without you. You were weak since young, so you always slept with parents on the bed but I slept on the floor. We sometimes argued and fought but in the end cried together. BEcause both of us were hurt. You lor.. has asthma, pity girl, I am even pitier because I have to wash the school shoes for you. You know lar.. I was very lazy last time. haha.. But I know that no matter how .. I feel really fortunate to have you as my sister despite those... haha.. remember how I was protecting you by fighting with li kwang? haha.. remember how i was crying when mum was hitting you? haha.. I am glad that mama and papa have brought you to our family.. to be a guan jia po for our family.. ^_^ haha ... JIE JIE.. TUO YING XING YAN JING!!!!!!!!!.... that was the sound that I miss the most. haha.. (cuz I always 'accidentally' fell asleep without taking out contact lens, then she would be there, using her best speaker sound to disturb me like a very annoying alarm.. really annoying that type.. haha). Sometimes I would even threw temper tantrum at her, cuz ... dun challenge me when I was in my dream.. haha.. btw. I already taken out my contact lens now. I brushed my teeth too! I am a very good girl now.. without you by my side to remind me...... = )

I dunno when.. but I started to learn to live on my own. I am more independent now than I was years ago. I think I have to be strong so that I have the ability to help others and be other people's support when they need me. I have to have a clear mind to put other people's worries, yet will not feel burdened with the worries. I will need a unlimited space in my mind, theoretically. I am learning. At the same time, I know that.. no matter how sad I am, how rejected I feel, how terrific the situation is.. my home, my sister is always there for me. To Reflect Back How Cheerful I Should Be. To Remind Me How Much I Am Blessed To Have So Much Support N Love FroM Many People.

yet. I know I am the only one to walk my own path. No one can help me with my own journey. They are supporters.. I am still the only one to decide my future and my way. That's my WAY. ^_^
Here are what i wrote to my sister in my another blog in friendster:
ya,cheer up!!everyone should do this ..who else still in down mood?believe me ...forget the past ..move on ..no matter wat the things o people had make u cry, make u sad ..nono..forget it..they doesn't mean to do so..tat 's human will do.although human always did the great job , they created the computer which is very powerful..but they will still do wrong ..no ones is perfect..they may hurt u, but they are not purposely one, even they do purposely do somethings ..forget it.learn to forgive ppl then u will feel happier..
jiejie..dun be sad ok?u know i am fail in counsel ppl one..i can feel tat i am bad in it,bt i will try my best ..no matter how ppl think , be strong...learn from"shan cai"(a main female character in a taiwan show named "meteor garden") hehe...not easily being defended by ppl.."wo men yao yi qi zou xia qu":)...u always telling me tat i m not alone..maybe u wont know how touch am i when i hear this from u...so i want u to feel it now..jiejie,u are not alone..i am always with u even if we are far apart..u got whole bunch of frens , lovely family members to support u ..u are not alone..!!aiya...the pantai havent reply me ..o not i can decide whether can find u o not..my results coming out this thursday o...:Pcham le..hehe..last but not least..u are a great sister!!!my very very great sister !!!no one can replace u !!if it is not u , today wont have a gal named may shiang!!she is strong becuz she got a good sister who always support her ,always cheer her up whenever she is in down mood..teach her a lot of things ..jiejie for her is not just a sister..she is more than a sister...time will past ,ppl will grow older but this fact will not change..jiejie....jia you!! you can do it!!
I was so touched when i read what she wrote.The conclusion is , i am always glad to have her as my sister and have other family members around me to support each other.The world is so wonderful, don't you agree me?(For those bad characters, yeap, you all were just small character to make my life stories more interesting and challenging.Anyway,thanks!!But, i still cannot understand why so many people like to purposely do something to make others hurt.Hope those people can notice what had they did and change their bad habits.)