How kids being forced to say HApi BIrd-day to their xiao gu!

Main characters : QiSen, YangYang, TingTing -my nephews and niece(obviously their real name doesn't write like this, but i prefer call them like this..all doubles!)

Here is how i spend my birthday (on my birthday ok!) The solution to split myself among family,love,fren is spend one day before with frens, spend my birthday with my family and spend the day after my birthday with Jason. (oops, he is last !:P)

I personally love this simple video very much, yesterday night I watched this video for 5 to 6 times before go to bed...keep repeating and i do MISS THEM A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!

So, here you go, hope you enjoy the video!

I like kids because when you see them , all stress are gone!:)

decision making again!!!

After I sent out the reject email to north division (2nd time) to make sure they have received my message, I logged in to my university email ....

and, i found out that the lecturer sent me email saying that he manage to transfer me to east division and there is no tie ins which means it is only one year training.

when i already got offer from another company then you tell me this now. I would be really pleased to hear this great news if i have no other choices . But, i got one now.

I am quite lost in making this decision. The offer letter is already with me i got the place i wanted, i love- Cambridge. And, I will be staying with two close friends if i go there, that would be so nice!

The new offer might send me to A or B ( I have never been to these two places before). It's still full of uncertainties, i got no ideas where would i end up. But this company is good.

Not much differences between training scheme i suppose; i know that tutor is the most important person in 52weeks of your life but at the end everything still depend on yourself.

Any comments on how should i make a better choice? your comment is much appreciated. haha

why?why?why?

why things always didn't happen as i wish or as i planned?

why I always like that , didn't follow the plan. So SAD :(

I finally got it!!!!!! :D

Today's weather: very cold a!!!!

I used the fastest speed i can to reach home and as usual the first thing i have to do is off the alarm. But, this time there is one A4 size envelope that attracts my attention, I am wondering..will it be .....

After i grab the envelope from the floor, my first glance ---lloyds...omg why is it from bank..
but after my nerves go through all the synapses....zzz...zzzzziiiii....I think i saw the word PHARMACY!

I faster ran upstairs to open the envelope! Yes, is something i have been waiting long for! Finally....deng ni deng dao wo xin dong.....

So, after have a quick read on what is it in this document. i decided to put it aside and do what i suppose to do next .

Then, I send an email to the company who offered me a place for training. Yes, I have sent it out now. I wonder what they going to say. Please ...........let me go !

I know I have been unethical to accept both offers, but, to get a better choice and put myself in secure position, i have no choice. I am sorry...:(

Hopefully they are kind to me. Have to start praying from now...

Paediatric Pharmacy

Last week we had this lecture about Paediatric pharmacy, this reminds me of having asthma medicines as my friend when i was a kid (i am still a kid now!yippie!)

In this topic, we have to do some essential and further readings in order to prepare answer for seminar on monday. I read about the method they suggested parents to use in order to "tam" kids take their medication which is normally taste owful...Some suggestions are like this:
1. Mix with jam
2.Mix with yoghurt esp for those capsules that you don't wish to break the modified release formulation as you don't have to chew yoghurt rite?

The question i want to ask here is why my parents never taught to feed me this way?
I remember there is once i spit out the syrup right after they fed me, and my dad gets angry and lock me up at the back of the house. I sat outside till late evening, when my neighbour saw me then she bring me back home again. How sad leave me outside alone...


And, i read something about antibiotic is not useful in asthma....!!!!
So why my doctor always gave me antibiotic and that is like 1cm long ...I can't swallow it! So, whenever my dad asks me to take medication, I will start eating those medicines that i think i can swallow and wait until my dad go to front....then ...I will faster throw the antibiotic caplet to the toilet bowl and flush it away!!!When my dad comes back again and ask me whether i have taken my medicines...I will say "YES" happily.....and surprisingly even without antibiotic i am still living in this world ..typing words..so I can prove that antibiotic doesn't work for asthma.

Asthma is a nightmare for my childhood. But, i have to pay the responsibility for it. Turn the time back to 19years ago.....

There is one little girl who always curi-curi make orange juice from concentrate (with ice*) when there is nobody at home. And, she keep repeating this great job almost every afternoon but she doesn't know asthma is walking nearer and nearer towards her...BIngo!!!Finally she got asthma because she always drink orange juice with ice!!!!! so obviously the little gal is me la!!!

I think you might feel weird "huh, drink orange juice also can get asthma one meh?" Yeah, that is true for my case. And, whenever i got asthma my parents will know i must have curi-curi drink some cold drinks or eat ice cream. It never miss once before, everytime i curi makan ice cream i sure get asthma at night!!!!!!Haih.....I can't lie down and sleep properly. The only thing i can do is sit on the bed until i fall asleep, if not once i lie down i will hear the orchestra from my lung!It's so loud.

Ok, tell you some even more weird examples. My nephews seem to have asthma attack too...but they more cham,,their asthma attack is illicited by chocolate, Vitagen...

Moral of the story are....
Never leave your child at home
Never let your child drink too much of cold drinks
:P

上課'生'涯

今天是星期一
教授講課太好聽
我想他會催眠術

排課排到滿滿的
但是不知大家有沒聽進去

開學就是這樣
一個字 累

Journey to taipei I

One of the most meaningful things I have made in my summer holiday is----I manage to bring my parents to taipei, Taiwan. ( Oh, this doesn't mean I didn't spend the rest of my summer holiday wisely ok!) SO, how did we spend our 5 days 4 nights trip in Taipei le?

First day-

I don't know why china airlines like to fly from 2 something in the afternoon and it takes 5 hours to reach there, since your fingers are enough to count this simple maths, it's about 7 something that we reached Taipei. So, nothing much, check in-dinner-walk around in Ximending-sleep.

Second day-

first destination--->Chiang Kai Sek Memorial Hall ( where my dad enjoyed the most) Aiyo~~they start gasping!Ask you all exercise don't want. Now see~~I move faster than you guys!@! I still young ma:P
After you gone through the long stairs successfully!( not really long actually) You will see "copper" version of Chiang Kai Sek.It's quite a huge one!

An overview of Chiang Kai Sek Memorial Hall. But don't think you can see it la!

Chiang Kai Sek and His wife (Song Mei Ling??I am not sure:P)

There is display for public to see how was Chiang Kai Sek's office look like with "WAX" version of him sitting there. It looks quite real actually. (If you know Hokkien, my parents keep saying "jin shxiang o!)

Okla, enough for Chiang Kai Sei Memorial hall because i lazy upload pic la!

---After that, we took 45mins of MRT to TamShui. There are a lot of attractions, but guess where is the only place i went ..Long Shan Shi. There are two Long Shan Shi(temple) in Taipei, however this is not the most famous temple that i went. If you want to go to the most famous Long Shan shi you can take MRT and get down from Long Shan Station.

Due to tireness that everyone can't avoid, we go back to MRT station and take another 40mins to JianTan Station.

Have you heard of Shilin Night Market before?JianTan Station is the station we need to get off to go to the food court where you get to taste all famous foods in Taiwan. In fact, I don't find the food there are really nice but i think 'they' are all interesting because "their" names are really funny. For example, da chang bao xiao chang (direct translate: Big sausage wrap small sausage) . Oh wait, go back to the topic, SHilin night market is located opposite of shilin food court, you just need to cross the road. ( I were so exciting about going to this night market, who knows after finish eating, my dad and bro give me very big reaction! HUH??? Need to walk somemore? Go back Hotel la!!!.....under this kind of situation, i can only follow them back hotel with my yi yi bu she de mood...hmm...i didn't get to go...)

Third Day-

Today everyone learnt our lessons, we rented a car upon request of my family members. And, of course there is driver to drive us around, we paid 4000 taiwan dollar which equal to RM400 for renting the car and hire the driver for 8 hours.

1st destination-Jiu fen. There is a story about the origin of its name-Jiu fen (9 portions). This Jiu fen is located on mountain and there were 9 family staying there.But whenever the residents on this mountain going down to get their groceries, they need to spend one day to come back and forth. SO, they have this idea that they take turn to get things for every family, since there are 9 famillies there, so everytime they need to get 9 portions for everything they buy. SO after long while when they send down their representative, people will shout "jiu fen lai le, jiu fen lai le" (9 portions come d!).....That's what tour guide told me.

This is old street of Jiufen. Although is OLD but is full of people, you can find lots of interesting stuff here.
Look at the chinese words on your left hand side. ( Peanut roll with ice-cream) I know it sounds normal and simple but it tastes really good! Look at the brown thing with rectangular shape, that is where uncle get the peanut powder from.

Here is how the " Peanut roll with ice-cream" looks like. I know it still doesn't look any attractive, but after i finish one, I really feel like eating second roll.

to be continued but don't have to stay tune. :P

U-N-F-A-I-R

A Mad is a Mail can send whatever mails he wants without being charged any cents. Everyone knows he sent countless and useless email. And, the truth is he is safe and he can be exempted from paying money.

But, when someone else also did the same thing as A Mad is a Mail , send email out to others but she got charge for the email she sent.

TIAN LI HE ZAI...mei yan kan!!!

Pa-ss A-way

My eldest uncle's wife pass away. I went for the funeral and I saw someone i knew lying down quietly there. Some kind of weird feeling came up and I chose to hide at the bottom.

When I walk toward the house where they held the funeral. I feel weird because the last time when I walk along the same path, I know I am going to say congrates to my relative because someone in their family is getting marry. But, now I am going there for funeral, this is totally different.

Still, there are lots of people there, but with a different purpose in each visit.

I just want to say..life is full of uncertainty, appreciate what you having now
Ren Sheng Wu Chang Ah....

I will be a tour guide in less than 48 hours!

Yeah, I will be a tour guide for five people in less than 48 hours. Go where? Go Taipei lo, a place I just been once before, don't know where my gut come from to volunteer myself as the tour guide.

I am a bit worry, what if they are tired or bored, what if they don't like the food, what if ...this and that..I am always like that worry too much . But, i seriously didn't plan much, mostly go to those destinations where MRT will go.

Aiyoyo....

I pray for good weather and everything goes well. And, also pray that we won't get lost.

po bi po bi a!!!!!haha

Shall i ?

Shall i accept the two years contract and go back to Malaysia afterward?

or shall i go back to Msia straight after my degree? Because even if i have two years working experience in UK i still need to do the four years training..and start from zero..which ways should i go..?

If lloyds offer me place in Cambridge i will definitely go..but they put me on hold....

I even dreamed about this in my recent dream.haiz...

******
Can a couple with different religion successful in their love? I think i can. But, my family can't.

freedom

I have all the right to make my decision since i am capable of doing so. And, I have been allowed to do so for a long time.

Nobody ever doubt my decision.

So, why at this time you guys want to interrupt. I won't be happy if i didn't get wishes from you guys. I am regret for sharing with you guys. If i knew, i won't have talk about it.

Please give me my freedom. I am nearly 22 now, give me my right to make decision.

Offer letter

I got the offer letter today. It was quite an official way of giving out the offer letter. My team manager rang me up and ask me to go to the store manager 's office. When i reach there, she call my mentor in as well as a witness. The moment when she told me that i got the offer to come back to 0570 Hull prospect centre, i guess i didn't show a very excited face, maybe because i got hint from few people about it already. Or maybe i am not too looking forward for being tie down two years in Hull.

I still find no reason why they have the right to tie me down for two years here. If you were to say because company will lose a lot of money if i just go away after i qualified. Then, show me that you really want me to stay. I can't see the reason why i have to sign a two years contract when i only got the same salary as other area pre-reg student!!If Hull really need people urgently at least they should pay us higher or any incentives rite? No. You didn't pay for my tuition fees in University and why do i have to pay you back? ANd, who came out the idea that if i were to leave the company i have to pay 5000pounds? I just can't accept this term here. Why other students in other areas get their freedom but i haven't got one, aren't the money spend on pre-reg student are the same all over the UK?HENG HENG!!!

ANother thing is I cannot understand why Malaysian government set a rule that we must work with government for three years before we get recognised as pharmacist in Malaysia. Same thing that annoys me is that YOU PAY NOTHING FOR MY PHARMACY DEGREE, WHY DO I HAVE TO WORK FOR YOU FOR A LOW PAY JOB?WHY??

I wanted to go back Malaysia because all the important people in my life are there. But, i just can't accept the low pay truth and the stupid rule.

***
Between, today i got a call from BPSA to the store that i m working at the moment. I just don't know how they get to know I am working in Boots and in Hull? And, why do they suddenly call me up just to ask me when would i expecting myself get qualified as pharmacist? Why? WHy? I still answer whatever they asked, until the moment we end the conversation, i still have no ideas how they found out i am there, no ideas why they made that call. ~WEIRD~

SUN

Where do i belong to? I belong to nowhere.

****
I don't know how and what is best way for two people to get together?


I don't understand you. Why do you put your display pic with another gal(s) but never put ours. Even i told you i mind, you didn't change it , so what is the point of telling all these?


****


I just came back from a long walk, using looking for cafe to print something as excuse, i actually just wanted to get out from this house. I remember when i was sad, i used to ride motorbike or drive my car slowly ,keep going and without knowing where is my destination but just keep moving. That's how i release myself when i am sad, but in Uk i haven't got any motorbike or car, so i went for a long walk. (although i was a bit worry about the safety, I saw five police cars going to same direction, driving 100km/h in housing area.)



****

Just now was the second time i nearly bang by a car, because i keep thinking about something when i cross the road and didn't realise car is coming.(Luckily...)

Picture taken on the way to cambridge by shiang.

Look at the pic clearly. Have you realise that bottom part of the cloud is always darker compare to the top part of clouds? I just think that all the clouds in the sky are just like human's life. As you get nearer to Sun , you will become brighter and happier, however, sometimes due to the effect of wind which might blow you off to another area, you might become the bottom part of the cloud and become darker, you might even get darker and darker, heavier and heavier and fall off become drops. A tiny drop, nobody will realise you have gone. This is a process, even you know that you will go back to the bright part one day, but you still have to go through same process from time to time. When Sun come out again, you will get back to the bright part and happy again.

Life just fill with ups and downs.

I hope my life, my love, my family and everything on the earth can always stay near to the SUn and stay as bright as the top part of cloud. Do not get affected by wind and become the darker part.

I want to stay on the bright part, please don't come to my life become the bad wind. Love needs Sun. I need Sun. Jason and I need Sun.

********

I am waiting !!!

I am waiting for ...

my stupid project to finish,
impress my tutor that i am capable and responsible,
my tutor write a good recommendation letter to head office,
my tutor to go holiday!!!!
9/8 to come so my placement will be finished, i can go back to Nottingham do final shopping! and pack my things and go back to hot country!

a really nice holiday!!!
JJ to love me as before
a really good birthday celebration (which i wonder how to split myself among family,love, frens)


I can't wait ...
to wear whatever i want!! short skirt,hot pant!!!
to drive wherever i want to go!
to see my family
to see my frens
to see JJ too
to play with my nephews and cute tingting!!!!
to bring them to pasar malam..hehe..then we can buy buy buy munmun
to eat those food i used to eat
to visit those store, mamak, places i used to go
TO SING K
to eat nice food!!!!without considering the currency exchange!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


wahaha..i gonna crazy here...:p can someone answer me, should i bring my dearest bearbear back to msia also? hehe..i just cant wait, when i think of all that my mouth just cant close properly!!!!:p

The only thing i dun feel like doing is go back and discuss the problem. I don't want to know the final decision!:(...heng

I am HUMAN

I am now working in Hull, a small city in a way that you can easily meet a stranger for twice in a month. When i was in the bus, i saw the customer walking on the street with the same shirt on. Another time, when i was serving another customer, i heard familiar voice, it's Jayne, a ACT who i met in hospital. How small it is till i can easily met the hospital pharmacist on the street while waiting for the jobcentre plus to open their BIG door at nine o'clock sharp. I actually wanted to say HI to her, but she was singing, not good to disturb her, i know she is enjoy singing,"ar...a!!!ar...a!"hehe..never tot that she likes to sing too, she used to be quite picky on how we stick the label in hospital.

Something happened on me recently that i sleep with my wet eyes and couldn't remember when was it i have fallen asleep. I was daydreaming when the condition allowed me to do so. I actually don't feel like talking and just want to be alone, but i have to hide the feeling for 9 hours. Because i am working in pharmacy, i have to greet customer, give them good customer service, talk to them with big smile on. Even though my heart actually numb at the moment.

This is life, no matter how big things happen on this little of me, but the earth still turning, life have to move on. I have to move on too. I am HUMAN.

Story of Sunflower and Tulip

Finally a bomb exploded between S and T, they have to clean the exploded bomb up.

T got so hurt and he thought of letting "species" be their reason to end their special relationship. He feels so disappointed and feels stupid as well , because he thought that his love that he is willing to give to S can overcome their "species" problem. How silly he is, he even tot that for S, he will be more important than "species". But, as he clean up the exploded bomb, he knows the answer is NO, "species" is more important than love, power of love doesn't apply to him and S.

T knew "species" would be their problem one day, but he rather choose to ignore that and try his best to take care of Sunflower.

to be continued..

Conversation between sunflower and tulip

Sunflower (S) , Tulip (T)

S: I cant't bring you with me, because we're different species.
T: *keep quiet, but a bit hurt
*because T really hope that he can together with S, how he wishes that species wouldn't be their problems.

Things happened around me.

Things happened around me, but not directly affect me.

Today is 20 of June 2008, turn the time back to one yr ago, today I'm supposed to prepare myself leaving everything back in malaysia and head to UK , a strange place with people speaking lauguages which is not my first language. I remembered there are so much of reluctant feelings to leave in my little heart, but i know i have to since i have made a decision to enter the University of Nottingham and knew that this is a 2+2 programme. I have to go away from a place where i have been brought up, away from my comfort zone, learn to be independent, hopefully beat down the phobia which deep in my heart due to my poor English.

Not long after i left Malaysia, i get to know that my friend who is also my friend's brother had passed away in an accident.

I get to know that the gang of friends which we called us as "Big eyes Gals" have no longer keep in touch as often as last time because everybody have their own business to busy with.

My friend's grandpa has cancer and he has passed away recently. I have visited to her house quite often so i can still remember his face deeply in my mind,but he will no longer be there when i pay a visit to their house this August.

Apart from all bad news...I do have some good news too.

My fourth sis-in-law gave birth on Oct and brought a healthy, handsome boy to my family. He looks exactly like my another nephew(his brother). But, i am not with him throughout his baby 's days, probably he wouldn't know who am i when i go back.

Following that, my best friend-Dion had gave birth a baby boy too.:)

My best friend-Kim Fong going to get married in this September, so as Tenpin,someone who has being my friend since kindergarden. Another good friend, Mei Chee married in May.

Things have been changing a lot since i came to UK, people have been through all kinds of happiness, sadness, but how about me? Am i still the old ones, no changes?

I believe there are some changes that they can notice from me, and i also notice that i am no longer as crazy as last time, no longer as talkative as last time. Maybe i should say no longer givng people a first impression of being a cheerful gal.hehe..only to stranger gua. for someone i knew for long time, i think i will be still the same for them , the crazy Gan May Shiang.

But, one thing i know that has no change is i will not bother how non-related people think about me. Yesterday, the dispenser in my store said to me with the serious-and-no-smile-or-maybe-angry-tones-and-eyes after i called her name and inform her that there is customer waiting while she was talking to other colleagues. After the customer hand over the prescription to her, she then turn back and say to me that"May, next time you can always go to the front desk and bring in the prescription and do the following , i mean it 's not like..." she talks to me while she is doing something with the computer, but suddenly she turn back and say the last word "difficult". Of course i know it's not difficult, just that in my previous store I am not allowed to go to front desk unless I have been told by pharmacist. So, i would never think of go to front desk without being told to do so. I didn't reply her but just keep quiet. Whatever you want to say.

Whatever..

First Day in Hull and East Yorkshire Hospital

Oh..I should be feeling so great that i got the opportunity to work in hospital !But, where is the great feeling gone to? At the end of the day , what i get is sore feet, aching limbs..this reminds of my last summer placement again. :(

I had a short talk and introduction by pre-reg Amy about the environment and workplace in pharmacy. But, guess what they are too kind , i have been introduced the same thing for like three times by three different people. I could stop it, but i think it just not so good say" actually someone told me about this before"

Again, i couldn't find the drug. But, one thing i have to admit is that the way they arrange the medicines are better a lot than BxxTs (BTs). When i worked in BTs last time, it's so hard for new people to come in and look for the drug. But , in this hospital, every drugs has been placed at a designated area with label on its shelf. And, this information can be found on your label after you printed them off. It's just so easy to find them , for me. But, i still cant find certain drugs.

They have also differentiate the urgency of the medicine and the source of prescription by using different colours of tray. For example, Red means the medicine is needed urgently. If it's yellow, means it's from community or prison.

The medicines that are dispensed have their way to go to, so if it's for inpatient use, then easier, you dun have to label a plastic bag. and you also don't have to put all warning labels in because nurse will give the medicine. But it depends, sometimes if it's one-stop-dispensing, then every single labels need to be done.

And, in hospital, you can't simply print the label, if there is anything wrong you must amend it without charge, because as you print the label the computer will record it and charge the patient, because doctor has their own budget on the drugs, tat's what they told me. So, if you simply print the label , the innocent doctor will have their "credits " gone without no reason.

Okla..tat's it for today. Tmw going to TPN. I have been told spend an hour in pharmacy to read the Parenteral Nutrition chapter..it's good for yawning exercise anyway.:)

Hope tomorrow will brighter than yesterday. and also hope that my feet doesn't torture me anymore, or less.