Shall i ?

Shall i accept the two years contract and go back to Malaysia afterward?

or shall i go back to Msia straight after my degree? Because even if i have two years working experience in UK i still need to do the four years training..and start from zero..which ways should i go..?

If lloyds offer me place in Cambridge i will definitely go..but they put me on hold....

I even dreamed about this in my recent dream.haiz...

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Can a couple with different religion successful in their love? I think i can. But, my family can't.

freedom

I have all the right to make my decision since i am capable of doing so. And, I have been allowed to do so for a long time.

Nobody ever doubt my decision.

So, why at this time you guys want to interrupt. I won't be happy if i didn't get wishes from you guys. I am regret for sharing with you guys. If i knew, i won't have talk about it.

Please give me my freedom. I am nearly 22 now, give me my right to make decision.

Offer letter

I got the offer letter today. It was quite an official way of giving out the offer letter. My team manager rang me up and ask me to go to the store manager 's office. When i reach there, she call my mentor in as well as a witness. The moment when she told me that i got the offer to come back to 0570 Hull prospect centre, i guess i didn't show a very excited face, maybe because i got hint from few people about it already. Or maybe i am not too looking forward for being tie down two years in Hull.

I still find no reason why they have the right to tie me down for two years here. If you were to say because company will lose a lot of money if i just go away after i qualified. Then, show me that you really want me to stay. I can't see the reason why i have to sign a two years contract when i only got the same salary as other area pre-reg student!!If Hull really need people urgently at least they should pay us higher or any incentives rite? No. You didn't pay for my tuition fees in University and why do i have to pay you back? ANd, who came out the idea that if i were to leave the company i have to pay 5000pounds? I just can't accept this term here. Why other students in other areas get their freedom but i haven't got one, aren't the money spend on pre-reg student are the same all over the UK?HENG HENG!!!

ANother thing is I cannot understand why Malaysian government set a rule that we must work with government for three years before we get recognised as pharmacist in Malaysia. Same thing that annoys me is that YOU PAY NOTHING FOR MY PHARMACY DEGREE, WHY DO I HAVE TO WORK FOR YOU FOR A LOW PAY JOB?WHY??

I wanted to go back Malaysia because all the important people in my life are there. But, i just can't accept the low pay truth and the stupid rule.

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Between, today i got a call from BPSA to the store that i m working at the moment. I just don't know how they get to know I am working in Boots and in Hull? And, why do they suddenly call me up just to ask me when would i expecting myself get qualified as pharmacist? Why? WHy? I still answer whatever they asked, until the moment we end the conversation, i still have no ideas how they found out i am there, no ideas why they made that call. ~WEIRD~

SUN

Where do i belong to? I belong to nowhere.

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I don't know how and what is best way for two people to get together?


I don't understand you. Why do you put your display pic with another gal(s) but never put ours. Even i told you i mind, you didn't change it , so what is the point of telling all these?


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I just came back from a long walk, using looking for cafe to print something as excuse, i actually just wanted to get out from this house. I remember when i was sad, i used to ride motorbike or drive my car slowly ,keep going and without knowing where is my destination but just keep moving. That's how i release myself when i am sad, but in Uk i haven't got any motorbike or car, so i went for a long walk. (although i was a bit worry about the safety, I saw five police cars going to same direction, driving 100km/h in housing area.)



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Just now was the second time i nearly bang by a car, because i keep thinking about something when i cross the road and didn't realise car is coming.(Luckily...)

Picture taken on the way to cambridge by shiang.

Look at the pic clearly. Have you realise that bottom part of the cloud is always darker compare to the top part of clouds? I just think that all the clouds in the sky are just like human's life. As you get nearer to Sun , you will become brighter and happier, however, sometimes due to the effect of wind which might blow you off to another area, you might become the bottom part of the cloud and become darker, you might even get darker and darker, heavier and heavier and fall off become drops. A tiny drop, nobody will realise you have gone. This is a process, even you know that you will go back to the bright part one day, but you still have to go through same process from time to time. When Sun come out again, you will get back to the bright part and happy again.

Life just fill with ups and downs.

I hope my life, my love, my family and everything on the earth can always stay near to the SUn and stay as bright as the top part of cloud. Do not get affected by wind and become the darker part.

I want to stay on the bright part, please don't come to my life become the bad wind. Love needs Sun. I need Sun. Jason and I need Sun.

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I am waiting !!!

I am waiting for ...

my stupid project to finish,
impress my tutor that i am capable and responsible,
my tutor write a good recommendation letter to head office,
my tutor to go holiday!!!!
9/8 to come so my placement will be finished, i can go back to Nottingham do final shopping! and pack my things and go back to hot country!

a really nice holiday!!!
JJ to love me as before
a really good birthday celebration (which i wonder how to split myself among family,love, frens)


I can't wait ...
to wear whatever i want!! short skirt,hot pant!!!
to drive wherever i want to go!
to see my family
to see my frens
to see JJ too
to play with my nephews and cute tingting!!!!
to bring them to pasar malam..hehe..then we can buy buy buy munmun
to eat those food i used to eat
to visit those store, mamak, places i used to go
TO SING K
to eat nice food!!!!without considering the currency exchange!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


wahaha..i gonna crazy here...:p can someone answer me, should i bring my dearest bearbear back to msia also? hehe..i just cant wait, when i think of all that my mouth just cant close properly!!!!:p

The only thing i dun feel like doing is go back and discuss the problem. I don't want to know the final decision!:(...heng

I am HUMAN

I am now working in Hull, a small city in a way that you can easily meet a stranger for twice in a month. When i was in the bus, i saw the customer walking on the street with the same shirt on. Another time, when i was serving another customer, i heard familiar voice, it's Jayne, a ACT who i met in hospital. How small it is till i can easily met the hospital pharmacist on the street while waiting for the jobcentre plus to open their BIG door at nine o'clock sharp. I actually wanted to say HI to her, but she was singing, not good to disturb her, i know she is enjoy singing,"ar...a!!!ar...a!"hehe..never tot that she likes to sing too, she used to be quite picky on how we stick the label in hospital.

Something happened on me recently that i sleep with my wet eyes and couldn't remember when was it i have fallen asleep. I was daydreaming when the condition allowed me to do so. I actually don't feel like talking and just want to be alone, but i have to hide the feeling for 9 hours. Because i am working in pharmacy, i have to greet customer, give them good customer service, talk to them with big smile on. Even though my heart actually numb at the moment.

This is life, no matter how big things happen on this little of me, but the earth still turning, life have to move on. I have to move on too. I am HUMAN.

Story of Sunflower and Tulip

Finally a bomb exploded between S and T, they have to clean the exploded bomb up.

T got so hurt and he thought of letting "species" be their reason to end their special relationship. He feels so disappointed and feels stupid as well , because he thought that his love that he is willing to give to S can overcome their "species" problem. How silly he is, he even tot that for S, he will be more important than "species". But, as he clean up the exploded bomb, he knows the answer is NO, "species" is more important than love, power of love doesn't apply to him and S.

T knew "species" would be their problem one day, but he rather choose to ignore that and try his best to take care of Sunflower.

to be continued..

Conversation between sunflower and tulip

Sunflower (S) , Tulip (T)

S: I cant't bring you with me, because we're different species.
T: *keep quiet, but a bit hurt
*because T really hope that he can together with S, how he wishes that species wouldn't be their problems.

Things happened around me.

Things happened around me, but not directly affect me.

Today is 20 of June 2008, turn the time back to one yr ago, today I'm supposed to prepare myself leaving everything back in malaysia and head to UK , a strange place with people speaking lauguages which is not my first language. I remembered there are so much of reluctant feelings to leave in my little heart, but i know i have to since i have made a decision to enter the University of Nottingham and knew that this is a 2+2 programme. I have to go away from a place where i have been brought up, away from my comfort zone, learn to be independent, hopefully beat down the phobia which deep in my heart due to my poor English.

Not long after i left Malaysia, i get to know that my friend who is also my friend's brother had passed away in an accident.

I get to know that the gang of friends which we called us as "Big eyes Gals" have no longer keep in touch as often as last time because everybody have their own business to busy with.

My friend's grandpa has cancer and he has passed away recently. I have visited to her house quite often so i can still remember his face deeply in my mind,but he will no longer be there when i pay a visit to their house this August.

Apart from all bad news...I do have some good news too.

My fourth sis-in-law gave birth on Oct and brought a healthy, handsome boy to my family. He looks exactly like my another nephew(his brother). But, i am not with him throughout his baby 's days, probably he wouldn't know who am i when i go back.

Following that, my best friend-Dion had gave birth a baby boy too.:)

My best friend-Kim Fong going to get married in this September, so as Tenpin,someone who has being my friend since kindergarden. Another good friend, Mei Chee married in May.

Things have been changing a lot since i came to UK, people have been through all kinds of happiness, sadness, but how about me? Am i still the old ones, no changes?

I believe there are some changes that they can notice from me, and i also notice that i am no longer as crazy as last time, no longer as talkative as last time. Maybe i should say no longer givng people a first impression of being a cheerful gal.hehe..only to stranger gua. for someone i knew for long time, i think i will be still the same for them , the crazy Gan May Shiang.

But, one thing i know that has no change is i will not bother how non-related people think about me. Yesterday, the dispenser in my store said to me with the serious-and-no-smile-or-maybe-angry-tones-and-eyes after i called her name and inform her that there is customer waiting while she was talking to other colleagues. After the customer hand over the prescription to her, she then turn back and say to me that"May, next time you can always go to the front desk and bring in the prescription and do the following , i mean it 's not like..." she talks to me while she is doing something with the computer, but suddenly she turn back and say the last word "difficult". Of course i know it's not difficult, just that in my previous store I am not allowed to go to front desk unless I have been told by pharmacist. So, i would never think of go to front desk without being told to do so. I didn't reply her but just keep quiet. Whatever you want to say.

Whatever..

First Day in Hull and East Yorkshire Hospital

Oh..I should be feeling so great that i got the opportunity to work in hospital !But, where is the great feeling gone to? At the end of the day , what i get is sore feet, aching limbs..this reminds of my last summer placement again. :(

I had a short talk and introduction by pre-reg Amy about the environment and workplace in pharmacy. But, guess what they are too kind , i have been introduced the same thing for like three times by three different people. I could stop it, but i think it just not so good say" actually someone told me about this before"

Again, i couldn't find the drug. But, one thing i have to admit is that the way they arrange the medicines are better a lot than BxxTs (BTs). When i worked in BTs last time, it's so hard for new people to come in and look for the drug. But , in this hospital, every drugs has been placed at a designated area with label on its shelf. And, this information can be found on your label after you printed them off. It's just so easy to find them , for me. But, i still cant find certain drugs.

They have also differentiate the urgency of the medicine and the source of prescription by using different colours of tray. For example, Red means the medicine is needed urgently. If it's yellow, means it's from community or prison.

The medicines that are dispensed have their way to go to, so if it's for inpatient use, then easier, you dun have to label a plastic bag. and you also don't have to put all warning labels in because nurse will give the medicine. But it depends, sometimes if it's one-stop-dispensing, then every single labels need to be done.

And, in hospital, you can't simply print the label, if there is anything wrong you must amend it without charge, because as you print the label the computer will record it and charge the patient, because doctor has their own budget on the drugs, tat's what they told me. So, if you simply print the label , the innocent doctor will have their "credits " gone without no reason.

Okla..tat's it for today. Tmw going to TPN. I have been told spend an hour in pharmacy to read the Parenteral Nutrition chapter..it's good for yawning exercise anyway.:)

Hope tomorrow will brighter than yesterday. and also hope that my feet doesn't torture me anymore, or less.

Hull

I am in Hull now since yesterday,a three hours of train journey.
My "landlord" is very kind, he picked me up from train station and fetch me to Boots store.

The first thing i saw on my left hand side after came out from the train station is a Big shopping centre -St.Stephens, you can find those normal England's shops as you would find in other places just that the shops here are much bigger and newer!

As far as i know now, Hull has three shopping centre, which is the St.Stephens, Prospect Centre and Princess Quay Centre. There is a few cafes along the "Monument Bridge" right beside the Princess Quay Centre. Walk pass Princess Quay Centre, go along the path, you will go to "Old Market Town" which reminds me of the street in Nottingham where superdrug located.Am i hinting that Nottingham is old? I think Hull is better than Nottingham in term of their transport services. I say this because you can find train, bus and coaches in Hull Paragon Interchange, and the St.Stephens is just right beside the Hull Paragon Interchange.

Another great news is my volunteer work place-Hull and East Yorkshire Hospital is located about 3 mins walk from the Hull Paragon Interchange, and so as the Boots store that i am going to work in 1 week time.All shopping centres are walking distance away from each other. I said good news because it's easier for me to HUNT when summer sales come!

I went to the Boots store in Prospect Centre to get them stamp on my Uk visa and verify it. Sadly there is no pharmacist there, only those locum, the pharmacist has left( i mean there is no pharmacist in the store) I wonder why? But by the time i start working there will be a pharmacist !The healthcare team manager sounds nice, her name is Clare, but i will hold my comments first, as they always nice but you don't know what are they thinking actually. This is what i learnt from Cardiff Store, the manager will never happy to see us free. Between, this store is much smaller than Cardiff one, it reminds me of Boots store in Cardiff, because it is in a shopping centre too.

Now is about my new accommodation, first impression, I love the house because it's a modern house compared with what i have in Nottingham. But, soon after i settled my things and return to this house again, i realised that the toilet and kitchen are A BIT dirty, guy's house , i can't expect much, can I? But his sister is staying here too. And, the sister has rabbit as her pet--called Chocolate!haha..I actually found the conversation between the sister and brother amusing,

S:"Choc looks moody."
Me:"why?"
S:"because he(choc) has been alone at home, he feels lonely"
"That's why i on the TV"
B:"Does he watch TV?"
S:"Yes!"
Me:*Laughing*

They asked me whether i like animals, i said yes but i also say that i scare of dogs, what a contraversy answer!

And, i have no pillows and blanket here, ytd night i thought i can survive without blanket since it's summer now, but, still i have to squeeze into the duvet cover that i brought from Nott in the middle of the night. I didn't get good sleep actually, i can hear them talking.

I have to wash the toilet later , even though i feel tired now after carrying five bags of tesco things and Primark Pillows!Because i just cannot stand it anymore, i scare of stepping into the toilet, thank God that jason likes clean environment.

Haih, i guess biscuits and hot chocolate will be my dinner later. A lot of hard work to do here, but, I will never afraid of them. I am strong!!! Agree??

I MISS all of you!!

I miss everyone of you

every single seconds

I didn't forget where i came from

where I am always flooded with LOVE

and here you see me GAN MAY SHIANG



Within my own little world

I can proudly announce that:

" I am the luckiest girl in the world"

I am happy with who I am

I am grateful that I was borned and brought up in a lovely family

A very simple family with parents and seven siblings



I love my parents

They never throw lots of toys to us just to make themselves free

In fact, i only have one set of masak-masak before

They love me, i believe so in a way that we know



I love my brothers

No other brothers will ever better than mine, for me

My brothers are best!

I have learnt a lot from them

I want to be as strong as them

even though for them i am always a little girl



I love my sister, everybody knows this truth

I said to everyone, no other girls will ever prettier than my sister

A beautiful girl doesn't mean that her heart is beautiful too

but, i can guarantee that hers beautiful



I am the luckiest person in this world

because i have all of you

I am not afraid with all kind of challenges

because i have all of you

I am who I am today

because of all of you



The love that all of you given to me

I cannot describe them just in words

The love is just so amazing and beautiful

I can never pay them back or buy them easily

because those are parents love and siblings love



Papa Mama, Thanks for brought me to this world

Letting me know that there is LOVE in this world



Gege(s) and jiejie, Thanks for being my sibling(s) in my life

I would never forget our childhood memories

where we know that we are connected

I know you all love me as I am your little youngest meimei..

Yan meimei a.k.a as Yan chouzhou



"wo de jia ting zhen ke ai...

fu qin mu qin dou jian kang

xiong di jie mei hen he qi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O6Xel7jy7nk

Birmingham

Don't know why , Birmingham is famous of this bull...shall find out from Wikipedia.
Another indoor bull made of lots of candies. And, liling said "African child got no food to eat, these people use candies to make a bull..."

Can you see the lorry in front is moving the house?

Process of making Krispy creme.For your information, Krispy creme 's price in England is almost the same as the price in Australia. You can find it in Melbourne but not Perth.

3 scoops of MORELLI'S GELATO (MANGO, BANANA, COFFEE) cost GBP 4.50.

On 21 May 2008 we headed to Birmingham by Nicole's car, everything goes smoothly on the way to Birmingham. But, it 's opposite when we head back to Nottingham from Birmingham. Because this time Nicole didn't print out the google map as she did in the morning , according to her, we should be able to reach Nottingham by heading towards opposite direction "theorectically". But, at the end we can prove that this theory is wrong, because we left Birmingham at 10 something night but reach home at nearly 2am the next day. We lost our way after stopped by a police car. Policeman said that Nicole has been stay on the middle lane for more than 2miles, she should always stay on left lane...OMG ! like this also can.......Thanks to the police to telling us the correct direction which makes us LOST our way..Thanks to them..i can see signboard showing LONDON ,WALES...Nightmare.

At the end we have to go back to Birmingham , start the journey all over again. Nicole had to pump petrol to make sure the car does not run out of petrol if we happen to lost our way again. The petrol station is where i can tell people confidently that Birmingham really flooded with Ah CHA (means indians). They were quite scary people. Liling can be another witness.

My advice is never stay out late in England. Bad experience.

Right or wrong?

Who has the right to judge what is right or wrong ? The honorable Judges? You ? Me?

Yes, i think we are allow to judge since there is existence of this word called "JUDGE" and there is one occupation known as JUDGE. But, remember, not everyone can judge, even the honorable Judges, they are not born to judge or talented to judge, they have to go through thousand of lectures, seek the examples from people 's past experiences and experience by themselves through n times of trials and errors. Sometimes, they might make wrong judgement or decision on those innocent victims. As we all know, no humans are perfect.

And, are you allow to judge? or me? No, unless you really know the things in depth and make sure that you are neutral , no bias. If you are just some random people who only know one side story then shut your mouth. If you are concern about the things VERY MUCH, just use your eyes and ears but not mouth. Like a chinese saying " add salt add vinegar", do not judge from surface, this just make people think that you're a shallow person. Please be more kindhearted and keep your harsh words with yourself if you know that your words wouldn't help this thing gets any better.

That's it, I just hate people judge things and give stupid conclusion easily. I just cannot stand that kind of behaviour! If you are one of those kind of people, please i beg you to throw away that unwanted behaviour, unless you do not hope to have a peaceful world.

Thanks a lot for your kindness for not judging people or things easily, very much appreciated , our society needs you urgently.

Rojak

Because there are too much of "rojak(unrelated stuff)" that i want to blog about. So, Please lend me your eyes for this rojak blog.

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Yes, my exam is over and i have also passed my exam! I mean the dispensing and law exams that i mentioned in my previous blog. Okla, i didn't really jump for 3 days 3 nights, but i did get a bit exhausted. You know what i have "pecah record" !!!i was awake for 21.5 hours yesterday! Crazy~~tak siuman!

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Today went Wollaton Park with my friends, that is really a nice place to go. I feel like i wasn't in Nottingham at all..And, we had games and sing song session which obviously is very FUN wei!!!But, i do not have any pics with me, if you feel interested to know more, why not try facebook?hehe..

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Relationship between guys and women
Who can tell me the definition of love? Nobody can give me a definite answer isn't it? And, do not thought that i might know it since i asked the question. I don't know either. But, i do know how big is the influence of LOVE. :)

People used to mention that Love is blind. I believe so now,because i have seen this from people around me. I am really impressed and admired with the love that you're willing to pour, i am happy to see people know how to show their love to someone they love, but i do feel sad that you can't get back what you expected/ hope from he/she.

Please allow me to make a wish here :I hope that people can get in love with someone that they like and progress to the love stage, and i hope that people know how to manage the problems in love carefully and wisely by not hurting or minimise the degree of hurt to the lowest. If you do not have the good feeling towards him/her, please take the step to clarify to him /her, imagine if this happen to you, would you hope to know the answer earlier? I think they will be much more appreciated if you are willing to tell them earlier. This action might cause some kinds of sadness in the beginning, but I am so sure that they can understand when they finally found their true love. You will hear "thank you " from them eventually.

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Relationship between friends

Sometimes relationship between friends of same sex can be as difficult as relationship between friends of opposite sex. Do not hold the bag of 10kg rice and trying to figure out why is it so heavy, why don't you just put it down? To be continued..

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Eelin going back tomorrow!!!:(..But, i am really really happy for you to get summer placement! Although i am a bit blurred when you told me about this, in fact now still blur, but i am really happy for you!!! *jumping*

Exam Exam Exam!!!

Yeah, I have done three papers!!! ONE more to go !!!! Yes, is ONE... and on the day itself 19-05-2008 I will get to know whether i pass or fail Dispensing and Law exam!Is actually two different papers, if you fail then you will get email from school, i don't want to get heart attack in front of computer a!!!!

People please spend some of your time to pray for me!haha..i really hope that i do not have to repeat it. But , the probability is quite high,:(.

I will pray for everyone!!! :)

Earthquake in SiChuan

12 May, 2008 when everyone of us were busying with our Law relating to Pharmacy paper, a disaster happened in SiChuan, China. According to the msn news, at 1976 there was a earthquake disaster which cause about 200,000 people died (if i didn't remember the figure wrongly). I never know that earthquake can actually happen in China also, and i was shocked when i look at the figure of past 32 years record. Below are few pictures i have received from my friend. I cannot describe my feelings by words, I can't do much for them , but just pray for them. I hope that one day in the future, i can utilise what i have learned and help people get away from misery of life.

I sincerely pray that everything can get better and under control soon. I really feel so sorry about this.

Don't worry, Be happy!

Thought of write a blog in chinese, but it's so troublesome, don't know why it doesn't show up in the space!*angry

Just finish a 30 credits paper 4 hours ago. I have thrown a big stone away from me. Exam period have been really stressful for me,I couldn't sleep well, and i think that i am over-stress, because i am actually tired but i am still very "awake"!!!sigh~~

Actualy whenever some kind of thoughts come up in my mind, i really feel like writing it down and share to others. But, i couldn't do it because i was studying or walking somewhere.

Last week i was reading notes of Quality in medicine design, i read something about drug development of cancer drug, in order to be one of the test subject , you need to have cancer with "not amenable to establish forms of therapy". Hehe~~look at this.

In our life are full of things that are set with certain requirement in order to proceed to next stage. For example, in order to study a course in university, you need to meet their requirement. In order to become a pharmacist you need spend 4 years in studies and undergo one year of training. Of course, we are very happy that we meet the requirement and get to do what we want. But, imagine this, will you be happy to meet the requirement and be one of the test subject for cancer drug development?? Since when cancer became one of the "must" fulfill requirement in order to proceed ? ANybody striving hard to meet this requirement?

I guess the answer is NO. It is not hard at all, approximately 1 in 3 will get cancer and 1 in 4 will die of cancer. Look around you, everybody actually carry a risk of getting cancer, is depend on how well you manage yourself , your lifestyle. Do not assume or think that you will be totally excluded from risk of cancer when you didn't eat any artificial food at all. And, do not stupidly think that natural food will keep you stay longer until 100years old. Because 99% of ingested pesticide are of natural origin. Haha..sorry if i sound too harsh and scary, but these are truth.

Life is full of uncertainty. When you always exercise so much of restriction on your diet, limit yourself from eating /doing something nice/fun, but who knows one day, God might play a joke with you, unexpected things such as accident might just happen on you. So,since life is full of so much of uncertainty, why do we still need to restrict ourselves from doing what we like to do? People!!!Just enjoy your life. Whenever you think that you are really unlucky, look around you, someone might have to depend on wheelchair for movement, and you still have healthy legs to bring you any place you like, so why should you still in low mood ?

SO,Be happy and don't worry.:) cheers!!!

Nightmares

I will try to explain why do i say" my not very sweet dream" in my previous post.

Heng~~It's because about three days ago, i dreamed that i got very bad results for my DGT!!!
Do you know how is my transcript look like?
Normally we will have certain module title follow by our marks rite? But, mine is all medicines name.....I can still read "Bendroflumethiazide" from my dream! Why i dream this kind of thing? And, that morning i have my alarm set at 6am, but because i always cant differentiate between dream and reality, so i thought that was real, and i was so sad and angry and dont want to get out from bed !!:P haha..how funny and stupid it is !Luckily, i know that i might not able to wake up, so the second alarm wake me up at 7.30am!haha...

Another nightmare 2,
I feel so sad and hopeless when i have to pass through all the obstacles to go the exam hall (i can still remember i have to rush there using a skateboard but in reality i dont even know how to skate ok!) but ended up with very bad results for law exam! Yes, I had this weird dream this morning which make me wake up with tears ...I really feel very sad in the dream..and when i open my eyes, the first thing i saw is my fizzymoon bearbear. It was in a position that i can see it laughing at me...hahaha...pharmfellows please don't mistaken me as having hallucination!haha...

Why do i always dreamed myself with a bad results?!I hope this is not a sign of anything. I heard someone say before, normally what you dreamed will be the opposite from the reality. I believe so at this moment.

Hope everything can go smoothly.

Rainbow is waiting for me...

A famous saying: "To see the rainbow, you need to take the rain"

"Ants on the hot pot"

Hoo...pls give me some oxygen ..i just cant breathe smoothly..

My daily routine is visit the most knowledgeable place-library after my "not very sweet dream"...stay there till evening...after cooking and had my dinner...if there is 20% of battery left over then i should be able to carry on doing some studies..if not, maybe i am recharging myself again at around 9 -10.

Yes, i m not a last minute person. So, when i know that next monday onwards my spring exam going to commence soon. I am just cant sit still..anxious...nervous...tension...just like the ants on the hot pot ..----jumping around!!!!

I hope i can just eat the DGT book. I really hope that i am knowledgeable and competent up to the standard of a Master student. But...why i always realise that it's too late ONLY when i run out of time.

Yan leng...i hope that stress can go away from you.Be calm ( telling myself this too)

And, Pharmnotts people...good luck in coming exam...All the best to all of you!

Gambatei yo!!!