Right or wrong?

Who has the right to judge what is right or wrong ? The honorable Judges? You ? Me?

Yes, i think we are allow to judge since there is existence of this word called "JUDGE" and there is one occupation known as JUDGE. But, remember, not everyone can judge, even the honorable Judges, they are not born to judge or talented to judge, they have to go through thousand of lectures, seek the examples from people 's past experiences and experience by themselves through n times of trials and errors. Sometimes, they might make wrong judgement or decision on those innocent victims. As we all know, no humans are perfect.

And, are you allow to judge? or me? No, unless you really know the things in depth and make sure that you are neutral , no bias. If you are just some random people who only know one side story then shut your mouth. If you are concern about the things VERY MUCH, just use your eyes and ears but not mouth. Like a chinese saying " add salt add vinegar", do not judge from surface, this just make people think that you're a shallow person. Please be more kindhearted and keep your harsh words with yourself if you know that your words wouldn't help this thing gets any better.

That's it, I just hate people judge things and give stupid conclusion easily. I just cannot stand that kind of behaviour! If you are one of those kind of people, please i beg you to throw away that unwanted behaviour, unless you do not hope to have a peaceful world.

Thanks a lot for your kindness for not judging people or things easily, very much appreciated , our society needs you urgently.

Rojak

Because there are too much of "rojak(unrelated stuff)" that i want to blog about. So, Please lend me your eyes for this rojak blog.

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Yes, my exam is over and i have also passed my exam! I mean the dispensing and law exams that i mentioned in my previous blog. Okla, i didn't really jump for 3 days 3 nights, but i did get a bit exhausted. You know what i have "pecah record" !!!i was awake for 21.5 hours yesterday! Crazy~~tak siuman!

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Today went Wollaton Park with my friends, that is really a nice place to go. I feel like i wasn't in Nottingham at all..And, we had games and sing song session which obviously is very FUN wei!!!But, i do not have any pics with me, if you feel interested to know more, why not try facebook?hehe..

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Relationship between guys and women
Who can tell me the definition of love? Nobody can give me a definite answer isn't it? And, do not thought that i might know it since i asked the question. I don't know either. But, i do know how big is the influence of LOVE. :)

People used to mention that Love is blind. I believe so now,because i have seen this from people around me. I am really impressed and admired with the love that you're willing to pour, i am happy to see people know how to show their love to someone they love, but i do feel sad that you can't get back what you expected/ hope from he/she.

Please allow me to make a wish here :I hope that people can get in love with someone that they like and progress to the love stage, and i hope that people know how to manage the problems in love carefully and wisely by not hurting or minimise the degree of hurt to the lowest. If you do not have the good feeling towards him/her, please take the step to clarify to him /her, imagine if this happen to you, would you hope to know the answer earlier? I think they will be much more appreciated if you are willing to tell them earlier. This action might cause some kinds of sadness in the beginning, but I am so sure that they can understand when they finally found their true love. You will hear "thank you " from them eventually.

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Relationship between friends

Sometimes relationship between friends of same sex can be as difficult as relationship between friends of opposite sex. Do not hold the bag of 10kg rice and trying to figure out why is it so heavy, why don't you just put it down? To be continued..

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Eelin going back tomorrow!!!:(..But, i am really really happy for you to get summer placement! Although i am a bit blurred when you told me about this, in fact now still blur, but i am really happy for you!!! *jumping*

Exam Exam Exam!!!

Yeah, I have done three papers!!! ONE more to go !!!! Yes, is ONE... and on the day itself 19-05-2008 I will get to know whether i pass or fail Dispensing and Law exam!Is actually two different papers, if you fail then you will get email from school, i don't want to get heart attack in front of computer a!!!!

People please spend some of your time to pray for me!haha..i really hope that i do not have to repeat it. But , the probability is quite high,:(.

I will pray for everyone!!! :)

Earthquake in SiChuan

12 May, 2008 when everyone of us were busying with our Law relating to Pharmacy paper, a disaster happened in SiChuan, China. According to the msn news, at 1976 there was a earthquake disaster which cause about 200,000 people died (if i didn't remember the figure wrongly). I never know that earthquake can actually happen in China also, and i was shocked when i look at the figure of past 32 years record. Below are few pictures i have received from my friend. I cannot describe my feelings by words, I can't do much for them , but just pray for them. I hope that one day in the future, i can utilise what i have learned and help people get away from misery of life.

I sincerely pray that everything can get better and under control soon. I really feel so sorry about this.

Don't worry, Be happy!

Thought of write a blog in chinese, but it's so troublesome, don't know why it doesn't show up in the space!*angry

Just finish a 30 credits paper 4 hours ago. I have thrown a big stone away from me. Exam period have been really stressful for me,I couldn't sleep well, and i think that i am over-stress, because i am actually tired but i am still very "awake"!!!sigh~~

Actualy whenever some kind of thoughts come up in my mind, i really feel like writing it down and share to others. But, i couldn't do it because i was studying or walking somewhere.

Last week i was reading notes of Quality in medicine design, i read something about drug development of cancer drug, in order to be one of the test subject , you need to have cancer with "not amenable to establish forms of therapy". Hehe~~look at this.

In our life are full of things that are set with certain requirement in order to proceed to next stage. For example, in order to study a course in university, you need to meet their requirement. In order to become a pharmacist you need spend 4 years in studies and undergo one year of training. Of course, we are very happy that we meet the requirement and get to do what we want. But, imagine this, will you be happy to meet the requirement and be one of the test subject for cancer drug development?? Since when cancer became one of the "must" fulfill requirement in order to proceed ? ANybody striving hard to meet this requirement?

I guess the answer is NO. It is not hard at all, approximately 1 in 3 will get cancer and 1 in 4 will die of cancer. Look around you, everybody actually carry a risk of getting cancer, is depend on how well you manage yourself , your lifestyle. Do not assume or think that you will be totally excluded from risk of cancer when you didn't eat any artificial food at all. And, do not stupidly think that natural food will keep you stay longer until 100years old. Because 99% of ingested pesticide are of natural origin. Haha..sorry if i sound too harsh and scary, but these are truth.

Life is full of uncertainty. When you always exercise so much of restriction on your diet, limit yourself from eating /doing something nice/fun, but who knows one day, God might play a joke with you, unexpected things such as accident might just happen on you. So,since life is full of so much of uncertainty, why do we still need to restrict ourselves from doing what we like to do? People!!!Just enjoy your life. Whenever you think that you are really unlucky, look around you, someone might have to depend on wheelchair for movement, and you still have healthy legs to bring you any place you like, so why should you still in low mood ?

SO,Be happy and don't worry.:) cheers!!!

Nightmares

I will try to explain why do i say" my not very sweet dream" in my previous post.

Heng~~It's because about three days ago, i dreamed that i got very bad results for my DGT!!!
Do you know how is my transcript look like?
Normally we will have certain module title follow by our marks rite? But, mine is all medicines name.....I can still read "Bendroflumethiazide" from my dream! Why i dream this kind of thing? And, that morning i have my alarm set at 6am, but because i always cant differentiate between dream and reality, so i thought that was real, and i was so sad and angry and dont want to get out from bed !!:P haha..how funny and stupid it is !Luckily, i know that i might not able to wake up, so the second alarm wake me up at 7.30am!haha...

Another nightmare 2,
I feel so sad and hopeless when i have to pass through all the obstacles to go the exam hall (i can still remember i have to rush there using a skateboard but in reality i dont even know how to skate ok!) but ended up with very bad results for law exam! Yes, I had this weird dream this morning which make me wake up with tears ...I really feel very sad in the dream..and when i open my eyes, the first thing i saw is my fizzymoon bearbear. It was in a position that i can see it laughing at me...hahaha...pharmfellows please don't mistaken me as having hallucination!haha...

Why do i always dreamed myself with a bad results?!I hope this is not a sign of anything. I heard someone say before, normally what you dreamed will be the opposite from the reality. I believe so at this moment.

Hope everything can go smoothly.

Rainbow is waiting for me...

A famous saying: "To see the rainbow, you need to take the rain"

"Ants on the hot pot"

Hoo...pls give me some oxygen ..i just cant breathe smoothly..

My daily routine is visit the most knowledgeable place-library after my "not very sweet dream"...stay there till evening...after cooking and had my dinner...if there is 20% of battery left over then i should be able to carry on doing some studies..if not, maybe i am recharging myself again at around 9 -10.

Yes, i m not a last minute person. So, when i know that next monday onwards my spring exam going to commence soon. I am just cant sit still..anxious...nervous...tension...just like the ants on the hot pot ..----jumping around!!!!

I hope i can just eat the DGT book. I really hope that i am knowledgeable and competent up to the standard of a Master student. But...why i always realise that it's too late ONLY when i run out of time.

Yan leng...i hope that stress can go away from you.Be calm ( telling myself this too)

And, Pharmnotts people...good luck in coming exam...All the best to all of you!

Gambatei yo!!!

I lost my card!!!

Yes, i couldn't find it again!!!sigh~~~why i always simply put things until i cant find them...i just remember when i leave library, i kept it inside my pocket..after that i dun remember what happen liao...

i get so annoyed because i couldn't find it , i cannot go to library...then i received a letter from lloyds tsb (bank) saying that they going to charge me 20 pounds for overdraft. I get so furious and feel like why everything bad happen at the same time.

But, rachel gan , is just a card, if it is lost, just get a new one from security office. Don't get frustrated so easily, imagine some people even lost their loves one and couldn't find them back even after several years...Or probably they couldn't see each other anymore.

And, another great news is after i made a call to lloyds tsb and told that about this charges, i said that i m a student, and just came back from oversea, 20 pounds is a lot to me, and bla bla give a lot of excuses that i can think of ...and FINALLY very kind of this lady who decided not to charge me !!!Hooray!!! ...

Then, this bank thing sorted liao....when will my card suddenly pop up in front of me le...card faster la....

and at the same time, i received a text from health centre saying that my blood result is out and my doctor wants me to make an appointment with him..haih..must be....high cholesterol again la..:P tao yan!

Exams in two weeks..but i am still not motivated...i havent even start studying law...slap me pls...of course i m kidding..

okla..should go back to revision world.

Some Updates about myself :P

Yes, and sorry for abandon my blog for long. Yeejie, are you still visiting my blog ? (i bet you must be scolding me"say will update often but never do ")haha

Well people, now and again i have to step into a world that is everyday only book,sleep,food, revision war again!! This time will be still the same, four papers but the law exam is using computer and is an open book exam. So as the DGT exam..we can use the miracle BNF (however it wouldn't be a miracle in ICU as they always use the "unlicensed" way/method to treat patient in ICU. And, another two papers are crazy "toxicology" (Can i make a new saying that study toxicology is toxic to our brain cells?:P) and quality in medicines design ( one essay which counts for 100marks, whua!!!isn't this crazy???i guess someone who suggest pharmacy students to have this paper must be lazy to make simple maths calculation, so make it easy, one essay 100marks)..

I always hope that i can do WELL, and i told myself that must be really hardworking in this semester to compensate the lousy marks i have had from last semester. But, human always know what's wrong and we normally do not change even after n times. sigh~~of course i can't do well again but at least i will try my best, when i recall the feelings after my molecular pharmacology exam, i swear to myself , i will never wan to have this feeling anymore!!!!I JUST HATE THAT!!!

yup..some updates about myself:

1. Just came back from australia last two weeks ago, have visited jason and jiejie while able to meet some of my family members during jiejie's convocation! This is a VERY WONDERFUL trip!!!I am glad that i can spend my easter holidays in AUStralia, and it's still one of my favourite country!

2.I am a bit fat now. Fat trying to accumulate around my tummy and arms. wahaha...i will never give "fat" a micro chance to stay there.although it is now, but won't be long ok?:P

3. And i always ask this question : why does acne like to stay IN my face? yup, is IN. They "hide" underneath my skin and doesn't want to come out. wei..why like that~~~:(

4.I cried once in australia after i read a comment from a HK girl. I just know her when i was in australia, and very kind of her to spend her precious sleep time till 5am in the morning and read my toxicology assignment. She commented that my work is poorly done and there are lots of grammar mistakes. Of course, i cried not because of angry at her honest comment, i just angry at myself. There are lots of time when i spend more time than others in doing certain assignment, but i don't get a good mark for what i have done. And, i cried because my grammar is still so bad, probably someone in primary school would be better than me. I cried because i have been struggling so much, i have to do double the work that people usually do. The saddest thing is i tried so hard and seldom get back what i aim for. I just feel a bit tired sometimes...:(

5. But, after this wonderful holiday, i told myself that LIFE IS NOT ALL ABOUT STUDYING. You should relax. Is that really that important to get good results but at the same time you do not enjoy at all?? There are obviously other more important things waiting for me to do.

6. Meet disaster in certain area doesn't mean that i am useless. I AM NOT USELESS. I can be very good in other things. At least i believe so....

7. I am happy to know a lot of new friends through jason and jiejie. Jason's friends are really funny!!I like! They are nice too. Some of them know that he seldom bring me out ( because he has to attend classes), then they will offer to bring me or ask me to join them for some activities! such as badminton game!

8. Really thanks so much to jiejie, yongsim, melissa for using some of your brain cells for me. I really truly appreciate that ! Muacks!!:)

9. Thanks to Jason for giving me a wonderful memories when i was in Melbourne. After this trip,we get to know each other better! yapi!:)

10. I have got my Hull accommodation settled with 50 pounds per week and yes everything is included!!! i can use internet, their cookware!Thanks eilyn !!huge hug for you!:)

11. Sorry guys, i know i didn't follow the sequence of events/things happening around me. Because this is me, what is pop up in my mind i would just say/type it out. I am using "diamond brand" filter!!!cold~~

Okla..when the mood of writing down something is here, then you would see some new blogs coming up. Be patient.

I will try to upload more pics if i can.

chinese new year

Yeah,..what i normally do during chinese new year back in msia??!!! i will dress up espcially nicely and go to everyone's house...sometimes really visit sometimes i stuck there for gambling...really dun spend much time at home..ok..i shouldn't be like this..haha..but comparing to now?have to attend class somemore..here is obviously not as happening as in msia..dunno why?where are all chinese gone to?once a year only wo...also so quiet one...haih..

ppl have been complaining that my blog is full with words without any pics..so boring..hey.. i like la..and i am lazy to wait, upload one pic by one pic just to post up what's happening in my life..sorry la..i m just too lazy...

I just write when i feel like writing something down..

A lot of things have been occured since i come to uk..
and i start to learn that...(or maybe i should have learn it earlier,:( )
1.Do not simply trust people
2. Do not assume people to have think the same way as stupid of you do..
3. Learn how to listen to others but make your own decision at the end
4. Do not hope that someone will change after a certain period, becuz they have already been shaped into certain kind..
5. Get away from something that your instinct tell you that you shouldn't get involved...
6. Be more hardworking , no last minute work!!!
7. enjoy every moment
8. At the same time, do everything seriously ,dun chincaichincai...
9. Learn things yourself instead of to wait for the answer...
10. I need to always remember all listed from 1-9...

When we are stucked in a small box, maybe we should take the chance to move out and look for different things, and we will know that there're actually bigger box available; stuck in a small box isn't a bad thing than stuck in a big box afterall~~~

~~See things from different point of view, do not limit yourself to small area and end up miss out certain more meaningful things.

I am a degassed balloon now..

There are lots of things which i always hide inside my heart, i never let you know until two days ago.Firstly, i have to say sorry about that, because i hide it from you. Secondly, really thank you for being honest to me.At least i feel much more better after all..But, i don't know how are you now...Cuz i have not been talking to you for two days liao..i say i m not going to contact you, i said it i mean it.

Actually there's nothing much i want, u know, the only thing from last time until now, i am just a normal girl who wanted attention. This question have been raised up so many times. You said i cant tolerate you..i think we must be using different degree of tolerance. I know you are trying hard, me too.

I am sorry if any of my words hurt you before..
I know it's part of my fault also, cuz i know you;re such a busy person since be4, but why am i still wanna complain about it, i think i just need some words from you..which you dunno..nvm ..

Let me make a wish here, if there 's angel in this blog, i hope dark clouds will go away soon and i can see rainbow again!!!=)..if there's no more rainbow, i will still accept it with smile!!Cuz i am yan mei xiang, i can take whatever things!!!! I know i can!!

NB i actually think that bearbear can hear what i said, haha, becuz when i told bearbear" bearbear, can u pls pls let me know ,no matter a call or a msg, i want to know he is safe." not long after that, msg ring liao!!my brilliant bearbear!!haha...i love it a lot!!from inside out..

Heart of Greed

Just got some thoughts after i have watched this Hong Kong series..named HEART OF GREED.

This is a really nice series,i will definitely recommend everyone to watch it(i know it's not a new series, but if you haven't watch yet, faster do so)

This story is about a very rich family, they used to lived in harmony and happy life.But, after the big mom passed away, the junior mom starts to do a lot of things because she 's aiming to get the 0.3billions which is half of the husband 's assets. She ruined the happy family and she can even disown her biological child just because of money. However, she's under influence of the other guy who 's aiming of her money because he has got a greed heart.Luckily, at the end , she manage to differentiate who's really treat her as family and who 's doing all good just because of her money.A good ending!!!And, "Quite OK also get together with Sheung zhoi tsam!!yeepee!!!

This series had earned a lot of my tears..because it always remind me of my family, a very happy and big family. I will always remind myself, appreciate my family..they're whole lovely bunch who always support me, if i am tired or hurt , i can always go back and be a little girl of them. I got seven most lovely little creatures from God, they 're my niece and nephews.Although they're naughty and always want me to play the "teacher and student" game with them, although i get annoyed by them when i have to study, although they always fight for something, but i still always love them the most..."xiao gu really love you all and whole family!!"

In this series also, the Sheung zhoi tsam angry at her bf for two years because he got an affairs with her best friend SHui MAKMAK. Throughout the two years after they have broken up, they actually still love each other a lot, but Sheung always don't dare to say the word" i forgive you".However, unfortunately, at the end when she made up her mind to forgive her bf , the bf had an accident and they can no longer get together . So, she keep blaming herself and regrets that she should have forgive him earlier.

I just want to say, if someone ever make us angry until the extent that you can't forgive him/her,try not to put your principle at front to limit yourself when you actually feel like saying"i have forgive you", because you'll never know whether there's always a chance for you to say that.

Still the same thing---cherish whatever we have now,don't take everything as granted.

Secret

Today,hmm,an hour ago i have been told a secret by my good fren.
ok, it's the biggest secret i supposed, but , i promised not to tell so i wont tell.I'll keep my words.

Today's topic is secret, i think lots of us will tend to ask this question before we tell someone "SECRET"
"I got a secret to tell you, but you must promise not to tell others ok?"
"because the urge to know is so strong..so faster say okok, no problem..!!!"

But, how many people really do keep the secret?
Just a turn , maybe your secret is no longer a secret ...

But, we need to know the "weight" of that secret...think before you say..
People trusted you so they tell you about their secret, don't ruin yours trustworthiness

So,guys remember to keep the secret when you've promised someone before.

Sometimes, the third party might want to know about the secret, but because you've promised so you don't wanna tell, it's ok..
I suppose the third party will/should understand that you're just keeping your trustworthiness..being a fren or FBI..haha

How much time you have?

Yeah, how much of time you have?Maybe i should ask have you spend your time wisely?
I tend to forgot that i should spend my time wisely, when i still have lots of time before certain dateline(example), I will just doing nothing and maybe always left it till last minute and make myself tiring ..
Recently there's email from sports manager from NMS(Nottingham Malaysian Society) said who is interested in playing listed sports pls email them. Of course i emailed him because i wanted to play volleyball.Who knows he said he cant find player to become the captain. Unless i am willing to be the captain, he is more than happy to elect me.I start thinking a lot , wan or not?
Why not ? because i really wanna play, if i graduate liao, i dun have this kind of chance or time to play volleyball...But, third yr is pretty busy , the following three weeks i still have lots lab to do ..is near to the end of semester, i need to prepare for exam ..
BUT i dun think i m capable of being a captain.. i am just a normal player.I am not skilful.
I dunno how, but my ex-teammate told me, appreciate the chance because she 's working now, dun even have the chance to play now.
At the end, i replied the email, told him what i can do and cannot ..if really just need one "
captain" then maybe i will consider.
But, this incident make me start thinking , am i good in time management ? if i really join this game, can i cope with my studies?
I just realised that actually things can be done , it just depend on you, you want or don't want?when you know that you're run out of time, you will start plan your time, and use it wisely and no longer waste any single seconds. HUman can work well under pressure/stress...
When we 're holding something precious, we can't see how precious it is ..we can only know how precious it is when it's going to leave us..
So, we should appreciate everything we have now..

Satisfaction

when i was a kid, 10cent used to be very valuble for me, because during that time i can use 10cent to buy 5candy or small pack mamee
If that is 20cent..whua..then i will be more excited because i can use that to buy red bean ice stick..so i always imagine.."hey, jiejie, if i got Rm1 then i can buy how many ice cream..if i got RM10 then i can get what what what..."then jiejie will laugh...
But, as i grow up,this amount of money doesn't make me as excited as i was a kid..maybe now the amount that consider as "whua!!!a lot " is hundred,thousand,million...billion..x infinity...never come to an end where human will say.."ok , stop giving me that much of money, i have enough!!" we always asking for more and more and becoming not easily satisfied with what we have and we had before..this is human..
This thought come up in my mind when i first open my eyes and lying on bed in the morning and know that i was thinking..it means i had woke up..just find it funny, the first thing in my mind in the early morning is this.
"Be satisfied with what you have now,and life will be happier =>"

我还是我

其实也没什么只是看到一些小弟弟跟小妹妹混在一起。。

很久以前的我也是那样，在别人的眼里我是奇怪的吧？！虽然是第一班但却跟人家眼中的ahbeng ah sing 参在一块，曾听别人说我三八，别人说我变了。。就因为我没照着别人认为对得起方式走。因为在他们的眼里好就得跟好的，坏的就该跟坏的！可是我比谁都清楚我并不坏，我知道什么是该与不该。我总是抱着管别人怎么想的，过着我行我素的我。我还是原来的我，但我不否认人言的确是可畏的！

最讨厌一些不是很懂来龙去脉的人在别人背后乱加盐加醋什么都乱加！！
只是我觉得长大了的我真的变了。。
我在乎以前我不在乎的事
我在意别人的眼光
我不再对打扮自己有很大的兴趣，可能很久以前做了很多现在懒了倦了，但我会改的
我不再我行我素，我必须三思而行，我开始顾及别人的感受所以开始犹豫不决，变成自己受伤
我不再随便笑

虽然有些是好的改变，但不变的是我还是一样的叛逆，还是喜欢自己讲自己笑。。哈哈

我知道我的文章很没有规则，但这就是我。。神经质的颜美湘。。
不喜欢规则，因为规则是人订的，那就能改啊！！！
生平最讨厌别人别人用自己的尺去量别人！！如果每个人都一样那还有什么特别呢？
好啦，随便讲几句也爽，因为我终于可以写华语啦！！！

About cardiff

I am sorry for ot updating my blog often, i think my "reader" all gone now!!haha..i think this time must be the longest time that i havent sign in to my blog.

Well , for those ppl who're still sleeping now. yes, shiang a.k.a rachel a.k.a may haha...is now in cardiff, wales. This city has got their own language which is wales language( very obvious rite?)haha..let's start the story by turning the time back to 4 weeks ago when i first came to CARDIFF.

Well, not really have good impression towards ppl in Cardiff ( in London also) when we( me and Eelin ) just reached the Heathrow Airport, all the officer might have been in badmood all the day, they don't greet ppl as i thought they supposed to be. While we waiting for the bus to go to Cardiff, i went to buy 586ml of milk for my breakfast, i gave the gal 50pound, she straight away say " I don't have change" after i said i have no other small notes, she then said" can you put the milk back" WTH isn't that her job...hey come on la.. i m customer okay?IS there anything wrong with 50 pounds, not money meh?( i know it's a bit too big note for them , but i still dun think she should ask me to put the milk back !!)....That's fine when we reached Cardiff, of course new ppl dunno their way, dunno must ask ppl , but some of the ppl here seems like scare of us asking them questionslike that, they know taht we want to ask question , but they dun even offer help and just walk away!!!Hey, i wonder did i ever bring Snake with me??!! The ppl here used to look at us at one kind, okay not all, some of them who i met be4!!!

okla..besides talking about the ppl here, let 's look at the weather here....EXcuse me, i thought this season suppose to be summer ?where is my lovely sun,i must be forgot to bring the sun from msia. It's raining everyday, wet everywhere even flooded in somewhere, it's damn cold esp there's wind blowing towards you, it's HORRIBLE Weather!! the weather forecast used to say, " next month which is July will e hotter, i think the forecaster needs to be fire !!i don't see any improvement at all!!

Let's talk about their city's cleaniness, You can see rubbish around, sometimes is quie hard to find a BIN here. Everyday when i walk across the QUeen st towards BOOTS, i will walk pass a lot of cars which is owned by Cleaning Company, they provide the service to clean the carpet, glass, foor...bla bla bla..

The people here have their own language which is quite funny!!
1--> How are you?= oki toki
2-->police=heddlu
3-->Cardiff=Caerdyff(maybe spell wrongly)
4-->follow= dilywch
5-->byebye=she mai

haha..shops here used to close at 5o 'clock but there is time they open till late which is like 8 oclock and it's normally a thursday!!But not friday.

I have no ideas what i can talk about this cardiff..but seriously all bad impression becoming better now i mean as in the people here. I feel better and can adapt to them and understand that not everyone is like that...
"When you have got one basket of beans, i am sure there are some which is bad and of course there 's good one"
ya..i will talk about my placement later in my next post..where i have to repeat the same thing everytime when they buy PAINKILLER!!
" I am sure you aware not to exceed the stated dose.Do not take with other paracetamol-containing products at the same time" " Thank you" " Bye bye, Have a nice day"( although sometimes they might replied it wouldn't be a nice day is raining all the days)

---Edited by rachel at 9.55am 21/7/2007

男人結婚，是家裡多了一個人；女人結婚，是換了一個家！>>這篇文章寫得好棒喔！可惜男生永遠不懂！>>女孩子的心情，要離開備受呵護的家到另一個陌生的環境去過生活，許多的不適應需要>男孩子去體諒，給已經結婚及即將結婚的夫妻，要互相體諒對方，畢竟老婆老公是要陪>你一起走下半輩子的。可不是老媽跟兒子喔！ >**********************************************************
>> 覺得老婆很詭異，是這一年半的事！按理說 30出頭的年齡，離更年期還有一大段距離，>可是我親愛的老婆卻在短短的一年半間，從婚前那個天真可愛、無憂無慮的小天使，逐>漸墮入紅塵。

>>很難想像每晚躺在我身邊，盡說一些吹毛求疵、雞毛蒜皮、無聊小事的，竟然是同一個>人。我開始後悔，人家說女人都是很擅於偽裝的。>>婚前看鬼片絕對會緊緊抱住你的手臂，眨著無邪的大眼睛，嬌滴滴的望著你：「人家好>怕 ~~ 」這時候你的心頭一震，心底不停吶喊：「寶貝，為了妳，我命都可以不要！」>你傻傻立誓，要去保護身邊這個小女孩，曾幾何時她已經可以在豬肉攤子面前，毫不畏>懼、絕不羞慚的為那一塊兩毛錢跟老闆吵得面紅耳赤、口沫橫飛。我真的後悔!

>>婚前死黨都羨慕我，身邊的女人可愛貼心、大方得體，帶著她出門總讓我沾沾自喜，不 >只一次在午夜夢迴時，偷偷跟上帝感謝，賜給我這麼一個完美無缺、世間少有的心肝寶>貝！ 自從親愛的老婆答應跟我交往的一刻開始，我終於體認到甚麼才算是「作夢也會>笑」！

>>「你管管你老婆好不好，天天窩在房間裡，幹嘛啊！客廳有鬼啊！要躲就躲到尼姑庵>嘛。」
>>「不想回家就說啦！何必天天在外面混到天都黑才回來，我一把年紀了，想找個人煮煮 >飯、掃掃地都還要看人臉色。唉，了然哦！」
>>「大嫂又忘了洗我的襯衫！人家明天要穿去聽音樂會的耶，她很奇怪ㄟ！」
>>我這個親愛的老婆實在是不怎麼識大體，連連得罪老媽、老姐和老妹。我白天上班已經 >夠煩夠累的了，她還給我搞一些莫名其妙的飛機，今天再不給她一點顏色看看，她就愈>來愈無法無天了！

>>怒火已經衝到腦門的我，踢開房門就破口大罵：「拜託妳也幫幫忙，哪家的媳婦不是對>婆婆低聲下氣的，都甚麼時候了還裝大小姐…… 」>>老實說，話說出口我是挺懊悔的，尤其是最後那一句回馬槍，殺傷指數應該不淺。我不>說話，等老婆反應。過了半個世紀那麼久，老婆還是低頭沉默，我暗自慶幸躲過一劫，>免去一場無妄之災。

>>老婆很少起床煮早餐的，因為她很愛睡，婚前我就知道。她每天總要睡足八小時才會精>神飽滿，所以通常都是我幾乎出門的時候，她就會頂著鳥窩頭，揉著張不開的眼睛跟我>說聲再見，接著就去梳洗更衣。關於這一點我是沒甚麼怨言的，反正婚前也都是去巷口>買個漢堡填肚子，婚後再去光顧巷口的早餐店也沒甚麼不好。>>老媽跟我唸了很多遍，她覺得 身為老婆就是要幫先生打點三餐，偶而剛睡醒的老婆也會>正好碰到老媽邊上香邊碎碎念，可能是還沒睡醒的緣故，她通常都是抓抓她的鳥窩頭，>快步經過去梳洗。 >>反正也不關我的事，所以我就裝做沒聽到，快快出門。歷史事件告訴我，捲入女人的戰>爭通常都不能全身而退。今天早上，我按下鬧鐘不情願的爬起床，啊！老婆不見了？昨>天沒聽說她早上要開會？ 不對，昨天一回家我就給她下馬威了，她沒機會跟我說。應該>開會去了吧，我想。差不多準備出門，到書桌上抓了兩個銅板去買漢堡。

>>ㄟ …. 有張紙條。「我只想要做回自己。」老婆最近迷上劉墉？沒事寫了這麼一句深奧>的句子。我有點摸不著頭腦，先別管了，上班去吧！>>發現情況不對，是當天晚上。12 點了，老婆還沒回家，一通電話也沒有。我試著撥她的>手機，沒開機，這種事情沒發生過。好啊！八成是上演離家出走回娘家了。算了，想想>昨天自己也有錯，讓她休息一天透透氣吧。我鑽進被窩，少了老婆的被窩，好像有點>冷。 >>一晚、兩晚，已經第五晚了，老婆真的不見了！今天晚上翻了好久，就是找不到那件白>色襯衫，看在明天跟大老闆開會不能失禮的份上，我決定不再鬥氣。撥了通電話去岳父>家。「阿光啊，小菁今天沒過來吃飯，她是不是跟朋友出去？你打她手機好了，對了！>順便告訴她上禮拜她叫我買的那捲毛線買到了，有空過來拿吧！」

>>岳母演得很逼真，看不出有私藏愛女的跡象，不過我也不是那麼傻的，岳母是婦女聯誼>會會長，見過的大場面足以讓她演起任何角色都遊刃有餘。>>我騎著我的的三冠王決定直搗黃龍，老婆我哄過不下百次，這種小事難不了我。>>「阿光，你怎麼來了？拿毛線喔？小菁回家沒？」看著岳母慈祥的臉，我為自己的多疑>感到有點慚愧，不過我的目光還是在岳父家掃射了一遍。情況不對，一點都不像是個共>犯的窩，我不得已的老實說明了我的來意，岳父岳母眉頭皺著，「小菁這孩子，就是跟>?琱@ 個性子。」岳父打破沉默，撥了通電話給小舅子 ……「姐在洗澡啦！她叫我不要說 >ㄝ。。。」果然是姐弟情深，兩個人從結婚前就很 "麻吉 "，現在逃難也逃到小舅子>家。>>岳父看我既然來了，抓著我一起喝兩杯，順便安慰我一番。喝得三分醉意的我，好像也>不太適合騎車回去，所以岳母叫我留著過夜，心想反正很近，明天早點起來再回去洗澡>好了。>>啊… 溫布頓網球公開賽要開始了！我盯著茶几上的遙控器，看著岳母全神貫注的盯著螢 >幕，就是開不了口要把這台怪里怪氣的古裝劇轉掉。如果在家裡，這種穿得五顏六色、>沒啥歷史根據的古裝鬧劇，早就被我罵得體無完膚，我老媽為了捍衛她的個人品味，每>次都會跟我翻臉，甚至差點掀桌。不過，誰叫我是她兒子呢！吵過以後最後勝利的還是>我，搶到遙控器的主導權，繼續上演母慈子孝的場面，電視機前又再共享天倫樂。

>>雖然岳母對我很好，可是女婿總是要有點分寸，我帶著錐心之痛告別我的溫布頓，走進>了老婆婚前的房間。牆上的她笑得好開心，眼睛彎彎的像月亮一樣，我忘了有多久沒見>過她這樣的笑。 >>我躺在床上，開始想不通，為甚麼我會不敢開口說要看溫布頓，我不是都這麼跟老媽吵>的嗎？岳母把我當兒子，我理所當然可以做出一般兒子會做的事。我乾笑了一下，自己>還真傻，老媽揍完我可以像沒事發生。換作是岳母，只要隨便說我兩句，我不尷尬到死>才怪呢！>>那，親愛的老婆呢？我想起了她，她怎麼可以這麼祥和的存活在我家？>>如果跟岳母比起來，我老媽應該算是嚴謹得多，對於親愛老婆的一言一行無不關心。 >>活潑的老婆在家裡不能蹦蹦跳跳，害怕顯得不夠莊重。 >>安靜的待在房間看書，又有不合群的嫌疑。加班太晚回家，被歸咎於不想煮晚飯。>>假日跟朋友出去，擔心冷落我的家人。

>>婚前瘋迷日劇的她，已經好久沒出現在客廳電視前。 >>假日補眠的習慣，被一家六口的髒衣服喚醒。>>由於對哥兒們的阿沙力，婚前婚後的我一直都是月光族，每逢30 號就得向老婆伸手要 >錢，其實我的錢除了每個月給老媽的家用以外，剩下的全是自己的交際費。有時候覺得>老婆挺了不起的，薪水沒比我高，每個月的儲蓄保險繳完以後，竟然還有餘錢可以救濟>入不敷出的老公。突然間，我好像漸漸明白，老婆在豬肉攤前死命掙扎的一塊兩毛錢，>對於我的重大意義。>>我開始覺得愧疚，到底，這一年半，我給老婆過的是甚麼樣的生活？

>>我試著理出頭緒，這有點像樁懸案，熱愛偵探小說的我，竟然找不出兇手！老媽沒有>錯！ >>隔壁三樓的陳媽媽總是三不五時的指著老媽說：「 哪有人像妳這麼歹命的，媳婦娶回來>就是要給她操，麥歹勢啦！」>>想想老媽是上一代的人，看著陳媽媽沒上班的媳婦，天天提個菜籃買菜做飯，當然心生> 羨慕。對於常常晚歸的老婆，怎麼會有好臉色？更不可能會想到， 可憐的老婆也不過是>為了家裡的經濟在出力。>>老姐、老妹也不像有錯！她們也總是莫名其妙的對我評頭論足，尤其老姐對於我的屌而>啷噹，更是搬出了黃帝開國以來最狠毒的話：「三十幾歲了，還不長腦，天天就知道吃>喝玩樂，真不是男人，去當太監算了！」>>這些尖酸刻薄的話，跟形容親愛的老婆應該住到尼姑庵比起來，好像更加具有爆發力。>不過打死不離親兄弟，被炮轟連攻擊的我，最後還是嘻皮笑臉的跟老姐、老妹對著「我>猜」裡的吳宗憲縱聲狂笑。

>>只是，親愛的老婆似乎沒這麼幸運，老姐、老妹的話在她心底慢慢沉澱，她也只能乖乖>接受。>>至於我親愛的老婆，更加沒有錯！>>婚前沒受過半點委屈的她，面對我家族的龐大勢力，也可以像水過無痕一樣，默默承>受，茹苦含莘。>>有主見的她，在面對每事必躬親的老媽，總是微笑點頭，頻頻稱是。>>即使生活習慣跟我家可謂南轅北轍，結婚一年半以來，除了偶爾兩三句怨言掛在嘴邊，>行為上也總是全力配合。>>婚前開朗愛玩的她，自從嫁給我以後，好像沒遠離過桃園以北， 結婚對她的意義，果然>很像住到尼姑庵。>>我又發現老姐說得很對！原來，兇手就是我！像我這種人不去當太監，真是太糟蹋我親> 愛的老婆了！>>我開始覺得懊悔、慚愧、內疚、自責 …… >>如果我可以多聽聽老婆的內心話，不是漠不關心…… >>如果我可以充當老媽和老婆間的潤滑劑，不是逃之夭夭…… >>如果我可以適時制止老姐、老妹的咄咄逼人，不是冷眼旁觀…… >>那麼，我最最最…… 最親愛的老婆，就可以活得更像自己…

>>當認命的我躺在鍘刀之下，準備就地正法之際，天外飛來一句「刀下留人」，看來兇手>雖然罪該萬死，可是冤案似乎還有內情。>> 換上革命先烈們不可或缺的中山裝，我捲起衣袖，右手奮力高舉激憤的吶喊：「是時代 >的錯！是制度的錯！」>>兩種生活習慣完全不同的人，硬是被擠在一個狹小的空間裡，摩擦怎麼能免？>>最慘的是， 親愛的老婆在大家眼裡，畢竟是半個外人，爭執想要雨過就可以天晴，似乎>異想天開。

>>經過在岳父家漫長沈思了一晚，我終於找出問題的癥結。騎著我的三冠王，這是近一年>來首次接老婆下班，回想婚前總是等不及下班飆去陪老婆吃飯的我，又一次心生愧疚。>>在老婆公司樓下等了一會，看看手錶八點半了，老婆應該要下來了吧！才剛想完，看起>來很疲憊的老婆步出大門沒看到我，繼續往公車站走去。>>我緩緩的跟在後面，盯著老婆的背影，開始為老婆覺得難過，到底在我天天喊累喊煩的>同時，老婆又比我輕鬆多少？ >>如果我不是在大街上，眼淚可能已經掉下來了。啊！發甚麼呆，老婆要上公車了！我大>步擋在老婆面前，親愛的老婆顯然是嚇傻了，楞楞的看著我。這種眼神在我Ｎ年前出現>老婆家門口，抱著一大束玫瑰給老婆生日驚喜的時候見過。

>>老婆果真受到巨大驚嚇，一句話都說不出來…我深深的吸了一口氣，用前所未有的堅定>語氣 ………>>「做回妳自己吧！我們去找屬於兩個人的小窩。」透明閃爍珍珠般的淚滴，從老婆的眼>睛裡掉了出來，我心一驚… 老婆笑了！笑得好無邪、好可愛！我的小女孩終於回來了！ >>可以腦筋轉彎的男生或是將心比心的男生是少還是多呢？我想都要憑運氣吧！>>女生們！眼睛張大一點喔！>>真的，兩人的關係，要靠兩顆心去經營，不然感情再好的情侶終究還是會分開，沒有誰>對誰錯。>>只是兩個人看不透是自己改變了對方而不自知罷了！

NB Copied from one of the email i received from my friend. I think it's quite true. If you're a guy, then you can understand how your future wife's feelings better.

updated version story of jj and i ..

Due to my fren's demand so i m now sitting in front of laptop and enter some stuff to my blog.=)
Ytd 6/4/2007 was my first date with him.How could we not meet each other for two weeks for couple who have just started a new relationship, very weird rite? cuz he is busy with his stuff and when he is free, i will go back hometown.hehe..oka..whatever at least we manage to meet up and have real fun !!
~i like it when u already planned where to bring me for lunch, such a nice place.give u four stars..hehe..Ok..that is my first time.

.......

ytd again haha..is 12/4 , our second date..someone asked me out as compensation. (is really funny when i read ur msg...)i have to make appointment with him first. Cuz, he is busy and busy..okla..watever.but, i cannot complain too much la..cuz i will be damn busy also for coming weeks..

jj, actually i really glad that u can understand me for not going out during my study break.( actually he suggest first, cuz someone really worry that he might affect my studies, =p u got so big influence meh?..haha)..

someone also promise to treat me like princess during the last month be4 go uk. okla..i know our fate..is really up to you to decide. i understand what u said after u told me ur story.but, i just hope that we can try be4 giving up. hope u wont regret in the future. i will just go away from you because u decided it, u might not able to get me back, u know it. No second chance given.Again, no angry but just disappointed. anyway, i do understand our situation and i will accept it la..i will be fine , dun worry =>

if the couple can go thru all the long distance obstacles, this mean that they're meant to be together.isn't it?

okla..dun think so much but just appreciate the time we left.

and today is my uni's prom night, hmm...dunno how to describe the feelings but this is the first time i bringing someone with me..hehe...

okla..i shall go back and do whatever i supposed to do. see u guys in prom night!!

hello..everyone!!! i am actually quite surprised when i know tat so many ppl actually leave me comments.(cuz normally one or two only ,so sad:( )heeh..maybe most ppl like prefer good news rather than sad stories gua.

ya..btw, apologized for have been bored u all with all the sad stories. ( i'm no longer MONA LISA)..sorry sorry..=>

thanks for all the wishes i get from all of you. sweet *-*

hng..someone go play basketball until no time to "entertain" me..This just show how important am i compared to a basketball !!!hng hng ...jealous a ball so stupid...hehe...but, i m just kidding la.i din tell u first so is not ur fault. But, luckily someone send msg to 'tam " me back..so sweet when i read the msg on 6 something in the morning. ~~cute bb sleeping~~

hmm...only left two months in m'sia..i got exam in another one month(die la ..i havent start studying)..which also mean that i left around one month to spend with u ... :(

okla..i should go back and do my dissertation first!!i hate using computer to draw diagram..so memafankan.