searching for my dreams

回到過去

2010-03-25T22:12:00.003Z

日期: 2010 年3 月25 日

心情: 超興奮的~

如果我有小叮當的時光機,那就讓我回去到三年前在馬來西亞的一個晚上...:)

那本來只是一個普通的夜晚, 但對我來說卻永遠都那麼的深刻...

每當回想起...我的嘴角都會不自禁地揚起來...

那晚我好興奮,興奮得睡不着覺...就好像在雲端飄呀飄

隔天早上, 雖然沒有充足的睡眠, 但是我還是好精神唷!

我只想說, 謝謝你讓我成為最幸福的女生! :)

Bad news to UK pre-registration pharmacystudents...

2009-06-26T17:40:00.004+01:00

I bet everyone who will be starting their pre-registration year in community pharmacy 2009 have had known about the problem occured in applying working visa in UK.

Yes, because of community pharmacist and pharmacy techinicians are no longer on the list of national shortage occupations. And, because of another reason that our salary is below the national guideline. Because of these two reasons, many overseas pharmacy students who already got their offer in last summer (2008) to start their pre-registration year in community pharmacy in 2009 are going to lose their job.

Facebook is a new tool that overseas pharmacy students use to gather all the 'voices' hiding in different countries.

According to information from PJonline, UKBA will only review this problem in September. So, what does this means to all of us? We CANNOT start our pre-registration on the same day as stated in the offer letter.

What are we going to do next if we really cant get the working visa? Balik rumah? So, what is the part of purpose for studying a four years pharmacy course in UNITED KINGDOM? Why don't we just go to other countries like Australia?

I think the reason behind all of these "surprises" to pre-registration pharmacists is originated from economy recession. Even UK residents are losing their jobs, so why do they giving chances to people from overseas? Of course, they wouldn't do so.

Let's see what will happen. While waiting for the final decisions, we should figure out how to apply government service thing in Malaysia. Sigh...

No subjects

2009-05-19T17:42:00.003+01:00

Hmph! Maybe i should bring a recorder with me next time. Why? Because recently when i meet people, they will sure ask about : "When i came back ?" "When will i go back again?" "Am i still studying or working?" "How long will i be working in UK?"....I have been bombarded with same kind of questions again and again...

OKla, I understand it is normal and okay for people to ask this kind of questions. Maybe i am just tired of answering same kind of questions and like to complain. hehe...sorry :P

I am so bored! I want to do something and go somewhere. :[

Opinion on skincare products.

2009-05-15T13:05:00.002+01:00

Nowadays, when you flip pages of beauty/fashion magazine , I am sure you will see a lot of advertisements of skincare/cosmetic products.

Seeing the growing numbers of different beauty companies in the market, I think it's really hard for consumers to make a decision on which is good or which is suitable for them. So, consumers normally have to spend lots of money in trying and finding the most suitable product. View this from another angle, actually consumers are paying money to treat themselves as animals in the experiment.

Not only that, these advertisements usually come with pretty models and all kinds of claims about how brilliant are their products. This is how they attract new customers to try on their products. Because most asian girls want to have fair skin and every women want to beat the natural process of aging.

But, after a second thought, are all these considered as good thing or bad sign?

1)There is no evidence to prove what they have claimed about their products.
2)There is no specific regulatory body to regulate all these skin care products. This is because these products would not normally cause any deaths or adverse effects.

For example, there is one type of products which can make your skin shiny and smooth. This kind of products help to remove the first few layers of your skin. But, after you used this products, you cannot expose your face in the sun, or not you will more prone to sunburn than others.

All I wanted to say in this post is --Shouldn't we have some sort of strategies to regulate all these skin care products even though it will not cause adverse effects like medications? I think we should. :)

The day when i handed in 40 credits.

2009-05-07T00:09:00.004+01:00

Surprisingly, with only 4 .5hours sleep, i managed to wake up early as i planned and i was actually 'very awake' (maybe is just over stress).

I did my final checks and modification on my report until 11 something. Guess what happened? I spent almost 4hours just to get my reports ready for binding. How sad~~~T_T

Quite an unlucky day actually. I realised that the two sets of report wasn't printed as it shown in the computer. All formatting works gone crazy after i clicked print. It's crazy that there was big spacing in between,figures and tables were cut off into different pages, not only that, even the number of pages in the table of contents all become 22222222222222222222222222222 or 55555555555555555555.............................................................................
speechless....i tried open and close N times, go internet to find solution, tried on different computer and the answer is 'these' don't help at all. I went to asked the librarian about what happened, she just told me it could be the page setup, and she doesn't seem to be helpful in this.

After endless trying, i went to find another librarian, he is even 'smart' that he said i have sent too many documents to printer and this leads to problem in printing. But, i know it wasn't, I told him, he don't believe me, but he go ahead and delete all the printers in that computer. At the end, the computer became not connected to any printers. OMG!!!!Don't act like you know when you have no clues on what's happening. But, I have to say thanks for you trying to help me. :)

I wasn't patient enough to wait for the IT man to come back from his lunch, so I decided to go to Cripps computer lab. As i walk out from library, I was still very stubborn and don't want to give up, so i tried the computers in another lab. And, guess what??I manage to solve it myself at the end!!!!By changing one of the figure references that making everything gone crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!including me !

I was worried that I might not have enough time to get everything done and hand in at same day as Student Union said they need 2 hours for binding. But, i managed to do everything as i wished la.

I walk and ran a lot today. My journey was like this : QMC-SU-home-SU-QMC within 1.5 hours.

Anyway, I have handed in the 40 credits report! I was so happy that the thing which have been torturing me for almost 2 months had over. It's over, so as my university life.

I am having gastric pain now, its probably because i drank coffee this morning and skipped lunch due to the problems i have encountered when printing out my report.

Supposed to be very tiring now, but i still can't really sleep. Whenever i am overstress, i can't feel the tireness.

I am off to cambridge tomorrow for house hunting. Finally can go somewhere else other than sitting in front of computer until backpain and neckache. Hopefully, there is something fruitful from this trip which costs me 37.50 pounds.

Poster presentation is over...

2009-04-30T23:30:00.002+01:00

At the beginning of our projects, we had been told that we have to produce abstract, poster, final year report/dissertation for our project, and obviously we are frightened by all of these ( or is it only me?) hehe...

Now think about it, everything was almost over, we have handed in our abstract, done our poster/oral presentation, and our four years studies will be ending soon with a full stop.

The feeling was a bit weird because while i am happy that i can get rid of all reports soon, my life in university is going to end too.

This is a real end that i wouldn't be attending classes like i used to do since in kinder garden.

I won't be seeing a lot of friends in the school, chit-chatting while waiting for lecturer or teacher to come to class.

I don't have to rush my reports and frustrated over lab works/report and i don't have chance to talk about all these with my friends. Like now, the first topic in our conversation is "how 's your dissertation going on?"

I won't have the chance to sit in the library for at least 10 hours a day just to cramp/stuck everything in my head and then vomit all out during examination.

I won't be able to hear about my friend's news/updates, we might lost contact ( I HOPE NOT, YOU GUYS BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME, I AM SAYING THIS WITH TWO GUNS ON MY HANDS POINTING TOWARDS YOUR HEAD!HAHA)

No more stress from studies/exams as i always wish to, but when it comes, i really feel a bit reluctant to let go...how weird is this feeling? Do you guys feel the same too?

Turn the clock back to 2005, when i first enter University of Nottingham, everybody was new to me, everybody comes from different places of the world, everybody has their story(s). But, we build up the friendship throughout these four years day by day. I should say you guys are not only friends, you guys are my teachers as well, taught me something new in my life and making my university life a beautiful one!

I wonder what role had i played in you guys university's memories, but i hope that there is a tiny place saved for me ( other than being the cold jokes queen with my cold joke award). haha...

Hmph..Next week can consider as my last week in university, but am i enjoying my last week of university life to the max? I want to, but i have been tangled up by report-essay-report-essay.

But, i should say that i have no regrets for chosen pharmacy as my future career and I am happy that i chose University of Nottingham in Malaysia because there is where i get to know all of you! I will proudly say that first batch of 2+2 Pharmacy course at University of Nottingham is an AWESOME one! Do you guys agree with me? say YES! LOUDLY!LOUDER!!!Y E S!!!

I am far from my dream...

2009-04-28T12:41:00.002+01:00

I have collected the essay today, surprisingly not 45% le! But, i know who marked it, is my FAVOURITE lecturer!

With some presses on my calculator, i realised that i am really far away from my dream.

Suddenly, my sister pop up in my mind saying her favourite phrase : " zhi zu chang le, ren sheng jiu hui geng kuai le - shiang" (actually i am the one who started to say this, but i have forgotten about it for long, i shall back to my original identity- happy-go-lucky - instead of worrying and asking too much, dreaming for something unachievable and give unnecessary pressure to myself.

SO, here I come! A cheerful girl again!!! =) together with my lame lame jokes.:p

"zhi zu chang le, ren sheng jiu hui geng kuai le"

Core essay

2009-04-27T23:20:00.002+01:00

Core essay is available for collect now. Marks range from 45-75% with average of 65%.

I think between 45-75%, i will be the 45% one. :( Lecturer commented that for those who wrote about epilepsy, didn't write what is epilepsy but straight away go into drugs. I am one of those they talk about, i only described BRIEFLY IN ONE SENTENCE because according to NICE and SIGN (two frequently used guidelines), these two guidelines didn't explain about what is epilepsy also ma...guideline is for those who already know about what disease they are treating, that's y they looking for guideline. Why need to explain o...?

OKla...stop giving too much excuses.:p...never mind lar. i shall collect the 'rubbish' tomorrow.

sigh~ =[

what can you do for muscle ache?

2009-04-26T20:43:00.003+01:00

Muscle ache is very common problem when you don't sit/stand in proper posture. Especially you have to sit in front of computer continously and typing some words for your report.hehe...

Below is what i used for my neck ache, it's really helpful. After you applied it, you can feel warmth around the area where you applied the cream. This is exactly what you need when you are in real pain! Although massage can help, but it's quite tiring to have manage your neck yourself and you need to massage quite a long time for my case to get rid of the pain. So, my message is--I really feel so thankful to have brought this SLOAN's all the way from Malaysia.

This is a free gift which i got it from CCM pharmaceutical company during our school visit to this industry located in Bangi, am i right?hehe...

To pharmacy friends, can consider recommend this product to those who seek advice for muscle ache.
To anyone else, try it and feel it yourself. If you think it's good, then tell others who need it!

:)

How to get rid of Msn virus

2009-04-26T16:43:00.005+01:00

Hi, to everyone who has the problem of msn sending virus to your frens, you can try download this link , http://yandao.com/files/impFix3.zip . Then, run it.

It will help remove the virus from your msn, but remember to change your password also! It works for me, I hope it works for you all too.

Hope this is helpful. By the way, the source is from my fren, Yeejie, thank you so much!!!the IT man!:P

http://www.pigeonway.com/

2009-04-25T00:28:00.004+01:00

Hmm...i am supposed to post about this long ago as i promised my banzhang! For your information, this website is one part of a final year student's project. If you are interested, please click on the link and explore it. He would be very happy!!!!

Ok ,tada!!!I did what i promised( after one month):P!!!!

Too much, this is too much...

2009-04-24T22:29:00.004+01:00

With the less than 7 sleep hours again for the whole week, i woke up early just to prepare well for the meeting today, because i finally got the chance to ask you all the questions that i have waited so long to ask you today.

With the high anticipation to have an effective day, i reached your office earlier than the appointment time, before 10am. I waited for you until 10am, another 5 mins pass, and then another 10 mins pass....a lot of people in the lab walk pass me and ask me who am i waiting for, they told me that they havent seen you today, one said you might have gone for conference,MY FEELING WAS LIKE...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHY IS HE LIKE THIS!!!???I WAS STUNNED!!!!Still, they asked me to wait for another few more minutes.

Luckily one of your PHD student came and ask me and made a call to you. YOU SAID YOU ASKED ME TO COME ON YESTERDAY BUT I DIDN'T COME. I really feel sorry for missed your email. But, how could you just assume that was 'bring meeting forward' without even telling me???without leaving any notes on your door or whatever to inform me? You haven't been replying my email for three weeks, three weeks, IS THREE WEEKS, a lot of things could have been done within this period.

I came at 1.30pm as you wished. But, you were rushing and i only get to talk to you for like 5 minutes. Your voice that saying " You are fourth year student, these are simple stuffs, i shouldn't have teaching you all these!" still running in my head, just like a repeating music... Of course i understand that we can change the reference with long authors name into "et al.", is you assume that i dunno and keep talking, how would i have chance to say "Sir, actually i know". or should i just interrupt you that, actually i know, you dun have to say me like this? But, i just kept quiet.

I know you wasn't really looking properly at my poster. I know you were really rushing that you leave your signature at the space for my signature. I know you 're really busy that you have to ignore my email all these while. i know you really busy that you have to say "sorry, you have to be quick!" after the meeting was over.

When i pass you my draft, you replied me that " i tot you asked me not to look at your draft" Oh, that means you actually read my email! Of course, i replied you that, "i asked you not to look at the old draft , this new one". Thank you so much that you say come back and collect on monday.

If you realised, i wasn't that cheerful as last time. Today's meeting was really quiet.

I hope your words can be not so harsh on monday, but i welcome any helpful advice. =)

Too much of downs today, I 'm worried that my heart couldn't stand it anymore.
And, if you could be more responsible for your things than me.

I will 'climb' up very fast. Because i'm YAN MEI XIANG!
* My eyes brimming so many times today, i was really upsetting at all these. I know you guys couldn't understand or feel it, because you guys are not me. I wanted to find somewhere to release my feelings, but library too many people, i cant just go toilet and cry rite?i will scare people off, so i hide the feelings until 6 something in the evening, in front of eelin.

What a 'good' coincidence!

2009-04-23T23:11:00.002+01:00

Finally he replied my email after fourth email. He replied me on 9.46am, but i checked my email on 9.16am there is no email from him, so i just go ahead and send in my E-abstract without solving the problem on whether i should include survey on information quality of leaflet.

He finally replied me, but i missed it, because after three weeks of no reply, i thought you wouldn't reply plus you told me your conference until thursday.

IF you could reply from my first email, i think i might have finish everything by now. But, i am still "ban tian diao" now...do you see me waving to you?

I wave so hard to you but you chose to ignore me, how do i feel?

I feel helpless. Anyway, I shall see you tomorrow and hide my feelings. =(

DIAO

2009-04-21T23:43:00.000+01:00

From a very famous singer from Muar! :)

For a buddy...

2009-04-18T23:29:00.003+01:00

I am sorry to hear what happened today.

I hope you are fine.

Be strong.

I know he will stay peacefully in heaven. He will.

From your buddy far in Uk,
Fat Shiang

I WILL FIND MY WAY...

2009-04-17T23:35:00.003+01:00

Dear Robber,

Someone had seen you appearing around lately.

I wondered,frustrated,disappointed on the fact that you didn't reply my email, you didn't guide me through my write up, failed me to give me your golden advice when i need one, urgently.

But, I realised, why must I depend on you, if there is no such thing as guidance in this world, will people fail to find their way out? Obviously NO.

So, I decided to move on, I will find my way out even if you are not with me.

I WILL FIND MY WAY...

Best wishes,
May

If...

2009-04-16T13:01:00.002+01:00

Robber,

There is something that i wanted to say for long, if you can make it clear to me at the beginning about my project, I wouldn't have wasted so much time on writing a wrong direction for my introduction part.

I still remember you said "You are at the right direction."

But, now it seems not.

5000 words on introduction, how much time do you need? Yes, that is how much time i have wasted.

Sorry, I am too dumb.

Also, should i feel thankful for you not replying my email after two weeks? You got me checking my mail everyday with a false hope. How is that feel if you were me?

I know i should feel grateful. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Best wishes,
May

不要因為他人的一句話而在意太久

2009-04-11T13:07:00.001+01:00

不要因為他人的一句話而在意太久

名專欄作家哈理斯(SydneyJ.Harries)和

朋友在報攤上買報紙，那朋友禮貌地對報販說了聲謝謝，但報販卻冷口冷臉，沒發一言。
「這傢伙態度很差，是不是？」他們繼續前行時，哈理斯問道。
「他每天晚上都是這樣的，」朋友說。
「那麼你為甚麼還是對他那麼客氣？」哈理斯問他。
朋友答道：「為甚麼我要讓他決定我的行為？」

一個成熟的人握住自己快樂鑰匙，他不期待別人使他快樂，反而能將快樂與幸福帶給別人。每人心中都有把「快樂的鑰匙」，但我們卻常在不知不覺中把它交給別人掌管。

一位女士抱怨道：「我活得很不快樂，因為先生常出差不在家。」
她把快樂的鑰匙放在先生手裡。
一位媽媽說：「我的孩子不聽話，叫我很生氣！」
她把鑰匙交在孩子手中。
男人可能說：「上司不賞識我，所以我情緒低落。」
這把快樂鑰匙又被塞在老闆手裡。
婆婆說：「我的媳婦不孝順，我真命苦！」
她把快樂的鑰匙放在媳婦手裡。
年輕人從文具店走出來說：「那位老闆服務態度惡劣，把我氣炸了！」

這些人都做了相同的決定，就是讓別人來控制他的心情。
當我們容許別人掌控我們的情緒時，我們便覺得自己是受害者，對現況無能為力，抱怨與憤怒成為我們唯一的選擇。

我們開始怪罪他人，並且傳達一個訊息：
「我這樣痛苦，都是你造成的，你要為我的痛苦負責！」

此時我們就把一重大的責任托給周圍的人，即要求他們使我們快樂。我們似乎承認自己無法掌控自己，只能可憐的任人擺佈。這樣的人使別人不喜歡接近，甚至望而生畏。但一個成熟的人握住自己快樂的鑰匙，他不期待別人使他快樂，
反而能將快樂與幸福帶給別人。他的情緒穩定，為自己負責，和他在一起是種享受，而不是壓力。
你的鑰匙在那裡？在別人手中嗎？快去把它拿回來吧！

Source: from a friend's note in facebook.

I think this is very good, i must share it with all of you! :)

I hope...

2009-04-07T21:08:00.002+01:00

I hope all dissertation, essay, poster, leaflet, and whatever whatever i havent finish, can be done well before the due date, I don't want to do any last minute work, i just hope to go back Malaysia with a peaceful mind!hehe...

I hope you can get what you wanted to get!!

I hope my dreams can come true!

I hope i hope...too many wishes to say.

Back to reality, continue my very-interesting-write-up, yes, very interesting!(cai guai!)

I am SUPER HAPPY today!!!

2009-03-26T10:54:00.002Z

SUPER HAPPY is because i got the news that my mum doesn't have to go through hysterectomy anymore because she was being misdiagnosed by doctor.

Second news - there will be another person joining my family soon!!!!

plus plus - we have come to our 2th year now! :)

I am really happy!!! Thank God!

Scary experience!

2009-03-13T20:55:00.002Z

Not long ago, i experienced dizziness when i was sick. But, today i feel dizzy again after playing for about 10minutes of squash, with cold sweats, tachycardia ( fast heart beat), breathlessness. I just feel so cold and couldn't talk anymore. I can only reply Pui san who was frightened by me with face expression and my hand.

Haha...but everything went OK after i sit down for like 3 minutes. So, the moral of the story is sit down when you feel dizzy.

Normally i would (wake up late) skip my breakfast before sports. Luckily, today i had hot chocolate, chocolate roll and milo muffin as my breakfast(oops! everybody knows i eat a lot now!), or not i would have really fainted.

I can only explain my dizziness with blood donation in last tue. I hope there is nothing more than that. :)

5 perdana

2009-03-06T17:30:00.008Z

Weather: Very good and Sunny***:)

yesterday i was doing a very fun recall exercise, to recall everything back in 5 perdana. Let's continue...

STory of 5 perdana:
in order to tell story of 5 perdana, I need to list out all the members first.
Our class live without malay students since form 4 because they went for asrama school . Below is whole list of them , "UNFORTUNATELY" they happen to be in same class with me!!!haha...

Guys : Ivan hoo, leong yi loong, Heng Suan, Ping Hwa, Hao Zi, Wei Lun, Kishole,Boon seng, Kee Yang, Chun Hong, Song Yan, Thomas Tey, Juan Yong.

Girls : Kim Fong, Me, Fuei Shian, Yan Shiang, Pau Fern, Suling, Meng Hong, Si Khim, Pei Ni, Pei Shin, Mee Peng, Jenny Teh, Pey Chin, Ly Woei, Hazeline Yap, Maysha Ramu.

There are 29 of us, our class was located just right above teacher's office and opposite canteen ( which Ping Hwa/Heng Suan always asked me to jump down to canteen)
* If you guys can recall i actually list out our names according to our sitting, and I hope that i spell all names correctly.

OUr class teacher : Ishak ( Heng Suan 's father , it's because they really look alike with curly hairs)
Our monitor and monitress: Heng Suan (Ishak 's son), Yan Shiang

Who is the 'unforgetable' student according to Ishak? ME!!!!!

Who is the 'unforgetable' person in my class?--Chun Hong , he got lots of nicknames called Volcano Lim, the old man( from our english teacher). Guys in my class likes to play a trick on him( ok , even me, don't know where my gut comes from), i think especially Heng Suan and Ping Hwa, do you guys agree? I still remember how he scolded me " bu yao yi wei ni shi nu zi, wo jiu bu gan da ni~~~aiyo...i was threatened!!so scare le :P)

Who are the ""famous ""people in my class?--Keeyang and Thomas Tey, can i tag you two as 'yellow kings'? Keeyang, i remember that you said me and kimfong "dai bu chu men " because we keep talking in the class, not-really-loudly. I always borrow the maths exercise books from them, and i copy them :P! They were my maths teacher!

Who always skip class? I think this award should give to Ivan before everyone of us got consolation prize. Our class will ponteng sekolah when it's near to exam, teacher's day,national day..etc without fail, until the extent that headmistress interviewed some of my classmates to find out the reason behind. OH NO~~~

Leong yi loong!Yes, i always called him in full name, i know it is rude to have call someone in full name. But, i just enjoy the fun of calling his full name. And, he will start complaining 'why you always call my full name"? Then i will say "I like!"

Heng Suan and Ping Hwa always kacau-ing me whenever i get called by teacher to read to whole class...they make me laugh while i am reading ; sometimes i couldn't continue reading but just laughing , so teacher will say "kamu duduk, tak payah baca". I still remember Ping Hwa leave a note in my "autograph " section saying that "Next time do not laughing on your own, look like an idiot!!"

Me and Kim Fong LIKE to put rubbish in Heng Suan 's schoolbag and he normally realised about it after he got home. Both of us LIKE to move our desks forward so that left little space for Heng Suan and Ping Hwa to move around. Hehe...so FUNNNNNNN!!!We also LIKE to play WATER WAR with left over water at the end of school day.

Hao Zi and Wei Lun, only get to see them few times after graduated. I know Wei Lun like to spend time in CC , actually Boon does so too.

Kishole was the only indian guy in our class, i wonder where is he now? Nobody keep in touch with him. He was the one who told us that every indian baby will get their eyebrows drew with something like crayon to make it dark and nice. I believe it.

Second row.

Boon and Keeyang. Boon is my cousin 's son, he is very good in those science subjects. Keeyang is the over-confidence people i have ever seen, okla, just kidding la..He is a funny person too!People now doing PhD d! Fuiyoh~~ We had same school bag last time, which we said is couple school bag , of course we are not couple!

Yan Shiang and Fuei Shian. Whua.. these two are really quiet girl, gentle? soft spoken??haha...most of the time la.* they will kill me if they read this.

Pau Fern and suling. Paufern, she is the one who always called me mushroom!!maybe she want me to call her pau, i know PAU might be her favourite name!haha...Cha SHAO PAU!!!Pau Pau , i can imagine the way of you giggling, then close your mouth with one hand. Suling always smile when i talk lame/cold jokes, then kim fong will check her understanding of my joke, she normally cannot understand my joke so she choose to reply with smile .poor me...sigh~~

Sikhim,Meng Hong, Pei NI, PeiShin. These four girls are in the same group, they always together. I know Meng Hong likes to draw something on her paper when teacher is teaching. Didn't pay attention o!!!!!Pei ni and peishin, i like to threaten them with my super pinch,say me somemore la!!haha! Sikhim was the president of girl scouts!Fuiyoh~~~

Third row.
volcano lim and song yan. If i am not mistaken, these two like to argue, . Song yan was the president of scout, he is studying law le!!!FUIIIIIIIIYOH~~~~This volcano lim always dream to become perdana menteri one day, he always read as though he is giving speech. I tried to offer him some fizzy drink when he came to my house during gathering, but he told me NO, because he need to maintain his good voice for choir. **People pls don't laugh** I wonder what is the consequence if he reads this, i might get buried under volcano.haha.

Jenny teh and mee ping. They are quiet too.

Ly woei and Peychin. Pey chin is known as "bai fa mo nu", she also studying pharmacy at the moment, you dun see her sort sort de, actually she is very geng !haha...Ly woei, good in badminton and also was the president of St. John Ambulance, my boss le!

Hazeline yap and maysha. They were those few people in our class who communicate in English. Maysha also studying pharmacy le! I wonder who still remember about the incident when we collected data regarding our height and features on face, Ping Hwa, do you?hehe...

Juan Yong and Thomas. Juan Yong was the only PENGAWAS in our class. Poor him. There are few times i called his name from the other end of the class Huang Juan Yong!!!!!He will answer..."you zen me...?" Me, kim fong and kee yang have to wait for thomas outside the toilet for quite long , do you remember?haha... what did you do in the toilet???

Some funny incidents.

One day, Ishak came with a "senyek" tie to my class, and very daring of me to tell him about his tie in front of whole class. "cikgu, kamu punya tali leher sudah senyek!" Then, ishak quickly adjust his tie shyly. He then said to me "kamu punya gigi pun senyek!" with a smile, he was so happy that he got something to counterattack and of couse everybody laugh ( i was wearing braces that time)

Ah hei was our physic teacher who talks with splashing saliva, this is why we came up with an idea to bring umbrella to class next time! He is the teacher who asked us to take out our ELECTRIC calculator instead of electronic calculator.From that on, we will ask among ourselves, do you bring your ELECTRIC calculator? No, i didn't le! I left it at home too big to carry to school! No, I din bring it , no socket here, mine need to plug into socket !..haha...( this happened in form 4 though)

Ishak refused to fill the comment section in our certificate of leaving school. He makes us run around to look for other teachers to write something for us. So, i asked him, "cikgu, kenapa kamu tak mau tolong kami tulis o ?" He response to my question slowly and said" saya tak tau kamu ada apa yang boleh saya puji" Haih..~~~gan may shiang, who ask you always kacau teacher with your broken malay?

to be continued...

What is the purpose of life?

2009-02-07T23:55:00.005Z

I like to ask my mum some weird questions since I was a kid. For example, i remember myself asking why do "we" live in this planet? why there are so many different animals?Where are they come from?

My mum said chicken come from egg lo, then i asked where does egg come from ? she said chicken lo..round and round also no definite answer ,ask till she wanna surrender already.

Recently i start review my life, asking myself what is the purpose of life?

Are human born to be what we see in our society today? Are human destined to go through education system from age 7 to age 18( or higher if you want ); work from 9-5 a day; destined to go through ups and downs of life?

Some people spend their life wisely; some don't appreciate or even take care of themselves, they tend to knowingly do something which is not right, for example, suicide and drug addiction.

Some people are considered as successful in their life, they maybe well known like stars or richer or at least do something benefit their society or the world. Some people just go through easy, normal, peaceful life and they are satisfied with what they have for now. These difference depend on the level of satisfaction and environmental factors.

If people understand that everybody in this world are actually just human, war might not have started ; there will be no difference between human and hence no existence of stronger and weaker nation; the world economy will not get affected easily by so called strong and rich countries.

Till the time i feel like stop writing, i still cannot come to a conclusion of the purpose of life, but seriously I still can't figure out why I am human but animals are animals. Where are we from ?

Probably I should just set a purpose for myself and live with it, that is where the purpose of life comes from, i guess.

Tomorrow will be better, I hope. :) I know it will! I just hope everyone can live happily ! *wink

Meet the supervisor in Chinese new year!

2009-01-29T22:45:00.003Z

I met my mystery supervisor on Tue , i actually had some negative impression of him which i heard from my senior before i meet him personally, that 's why making me a bit worry.

First question from him: So, what is your history? ( I was thinking --i am still alive, not yet a history le!)
my answer: I came from Malaysia, the 2+2 programme.

2nd question: why do you choose this project?
me:.....giving my strong reason behind!

and then we supposed to fill up the safety practice form together and fill up the hazard column. And, please have a guess before you read the following......Teng teng teng emily teng!!!!!

The hazard of my project is COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my supervisor 's advice is "Take time to rest out"

... ... ... ...
too much details to be written on this page...so let's cut the story short. At the end, he suggested me no need to pass up the safety practices form as my project does not require me to go Laboratory. After gave me a 14 pages journal to bring home, and some chat over what he expecting in two weeks time ( which i set for myself after so much of questioning) and bla bla bla...so we ended the first meeting in 30 mins time.

Oh well, the reason that i do not need to attend Lab is because according to my Dr supervisor, he needs 3 to 6 months to train me become a surgeon, but my project is obviously less than 3 months. So, i will just review people's journals, look at how neuroscience student perform his/her experiment, do some questionnaire for 3rd and 4th yr student and produce a leaflet!!!!!People, i need to give out 100 questionnaires, pls give me back , dun keep to yourself a!haha...I don't want to receive 2 only (from eelin and liling ).

Since the last meeting until now, i haven't start doing anything at all, and the day just pass day by day. I shall start doing something now..I just hope everything will be alright and my supervisor will be nice to me and and i hope that exam result which is coming out in one week time will be fine too!!!!!Hope everyone Happy!!!!!!!!!

Happy chinese new year!!!!!!!!!Party ~party~@!!!!

ZHI ZU

2008-12-02T22:19:00.002Z

Hello people!!!(with my high pitch voice!!)
Another great song(of course with great lyrics too) to share with all of you! Please listen to the lyrics carefully.... : )

I still remember the days when i was listen to this song while driving to uni in Semenyih! I miss everything in Malaysia, and ESPECIALLY the SUN, my lovely SUN can you be fair a little bit?
Shouldn't you spend equal time and energy in both Malaysia and UK ? I think you should!I miss you so much , do you know?

I want to go back! :( It's so cold, I lost my interest in everything now.

But, when i thought of zhi zu ,then i will smile again , like this :D!!!!

Ohya, tomorrow (3/12/2008) if you are free from 6.30pm onwards, please kindly come to Beeston free church to spend your evening! You know what??? There will be a concert there!!!!!REASON FOR THE SEASON!And, you will see me perform in the choir and other classmates too!!!Don't worry we are not singing old songs!! So, come la come la!

p/s: it's very near to Broadgate!

I hope you enjoy your life! :)

2008-11-28T22:49:00.003Z

Mood: Good :)

I was quite stress few days ago, because i was worrying too much. But today after jason shared something to me, he remind me of something i used to forget in my life, and i feel better afterward. Thank you dear!

When you are unhappy about things happen in your life, stop for a while, look around at people in this world and compare to yourself, do you still feel unhappy about your life?~zhi zu chang le~

I just want to share a song from Jay Chou with all of you--Dao Xiang (Fragrant Rice)
I just love the lyrics a lot! If you cannot understand the meaning, just paste it into translator, but one thing for sure, i know you will like the song!

So, please enjoy!

我變了嗎?

2008-11-27T12:04:00.001Z

天空今天穿上了一系列灰色的衣裳.

讓我不自然想問到底什么時候了?

什么時候開始我們之間多了一樣東西?

一樣我們都希望它不存在的東西--距離

曾幾何時我向大家說過,我們一定會跟以前一樣的

但事實告訴我說我錯了, 而我也認同了

朋友說: 你變了!

我說: 我說我曉得, 也感覺到

朋友說: 不是你的錯, 是你不得不去英國

我再問: 我真的變了嗎?

朋友2說: 你變了嗎? 如果有,應該也是變得不可愛了!

變, 我高興嗎?

很肯定的答案, 一點都不

我知道我變了

不再亂笑

不再大膽

不再果斷

不再開朗

不再說冷笑話(少了)

但我成熟了

因為時間的不同

因為各忙各的

因為環境因素

我們之間多了一道牆

我們還能像周哥說的回到過去嗎?

我有選擇嗎? 我也不想這樣的

如果我能做小叮當的時光機回去

我希望這一切的變化從沒發生過

只因我在乎我們的友情…

I can feel...

2008-11-26T23:32:00.003Z

I can feel millions of pain receptors around my teeth and gum sending their messages to my brain now....telling me that I AM IN PAIN!!!!

I have not been wearing retainer regularly for three weeks. After i give some pressure and force to the retainer so that it could sit nicely into its position as i wish...My tears drops...it's so painful...

Just want to write this down

2008-11-23T22:55:00.002Z

Very happy
Another long hour
4 hours...
~4 hours again
Nobody knows what i am talking about
Only I know :)

Malaysian Game!!!

2008-11-08T22:31:00.004Z

Today 8/11/2008 is Nottingham Malaysian Game.

I personally think that Malaysian should come for this game, you can see malaysian everywhere. You just feel like you're in Malaysia with same kind of people who you used to see while in Malaysia. Since when i so patriotic? It might be a place where you will randomly meet someone you know and"eh...how are you?" haha..

Surprisingly, this year lesser people visit NMS games compare to last year despite the fact that the number of teams registered for games have increased.

Okla, I was there since 11.30am and my only concern is about the volleyball match. Nottingham team didn't manage to secure their championship. Sheffield is the Champion of volleyball this year :). The score was actually very close ---25:23. I hope nobody sees how i cheer/scream for the team using English, Mandarin, Cantonese...haha..

Second sports that will attract my attention is Basketball. Don't ask me why? I just like to watch basketball match even though i do not like (because my stamina is not good enough to play!!) and do not know how to play. IMPERIAL COLLEGE manage to secure their championship!!!!WOOHOOO.....I actually can't remember the scores, but i know it was very close also. They always shout IC IC, after that only i know it's actually stands for IMPERIAL COLLEGE. I actually sat among those IC reserve players and hence i cheer for IC instead of NOTTINGHAM!!!Hahaha...betrayer!!! Oops..i forgot to say that it was IMPERIAL vs. NOTTINGHAM in final!!

Conclusion : Nottingham Malaysian Game is good!!!And, i am seriously tired and cacat now. Look at this!!!This is what i get at the end of the day after volleyball game and i know this is unavoidable! This makes me walk like orang cacat when i go up and down staircase!!!But, still i enjoyed and appreciate the chance given to play volleyball in my last year!Yahooooo!!!I love volleyball!!

Long time no see VOLLEYBALL! :)

2008-11-07T21:42:00.002Z

Don't doubt yourself on what you are looking at now. It 's my hand. If you look more clearly , you can find that there are a lot of small red dots on my hand. Actually on both of my hands, you know where is the other hand gone to? The other hand obviously is holding camera and taking picture la! (oh....rachel..why you so cold???)haha....

This is what I get after one hour practice with new people who i never played with before. If you didn't play volleyball regularly, this is what you will get ...swollen..pain....redness. I actually got one bruise on my right knee with 5 cm diameter and just beside it is another red patch.

I wonder how many blood vessels had sacrificed themselves in this practice?Must be lots...

My last volleyball training were form5 ..which is 2003..now is 2008 already....imagine it has been five years ago since my last training. I am no longer the girl who can play well for volleyball, i have to admit this. :(

I just wonder how am i going to play for Malaysian Game with pain on my hands, bruise and blister on my palm. And, most important things i DON'T have tacit understanding with other players....which is actually an important part of volleyball team...TEAMWORK is very important!!!

Good luck tomorrow..!Might be my last play before graduate.....:)

A morning call from Tsb pharmacy....

2008-11-06T16:13:00.006Z

"qin peng qi you ni ting wo shuo..........................."

I got a call from Tsb pharmacy at 8.45am, following my email to reject their offer.

Firstly, she asked me the reason of rejecting them. I said i have offer from another company which suits my condition better. She then ask me which company is that, why i prefer that company? I didn't want to say because that company is better and i prefer to work for them. so i just simply say that because better salary and benefits those kind of things which obviously isn't my main concern. If i know more harsh things are coming, i wouldn't have answer like that.

She was nice at the beginning. She said that if i am concern about these, we can further discuss the terms and conditions. Again, I stress that i still won't take the offer.

Here is where the transformation occurs....
She starts shooting me...

1. She said i have been unprofessional because they actually sent me two offer letters since September but I took long time to reply their offer.
This isn't true because Tsb Pharmacy actually made an offer to me recently. I was on hold since August .

2. After i clarify this thing with her, she said there is actually two offer letters but first offer letter was lost on its way. After a second check, she found out my offer was made on 10/10/2008.

3.Then she starts change the topic, she said offer was made on 10/10/2008, why do i take so long time to reply?
I said i only receive offer letter from them after two weeks, which is on 28/10/2008.I receive offer from another company after i received offer letter from them. I took about two weeks to reply them because i need time to make my decision. But i found out it's only 8 days but not two weeks.
SHE SAID TWO WEEKS IS TOO LONG TO MAKE A DECISION. I replied her that i think i have the right to make decision in two weeks. Even for first round candidates, RPSGB also mention must give them time until 1st week of OCT, how come i can't have the TWO WEEKS?

4. She change topic again this time. She said because of me they have turned down other candidates. I explain to her that i was told by her manager that the place i have offered to already have enough students and my offer was a special arrangement. So, I have considered that no other candidates are waiting for my post.

For whatever she says, it 's just not right, can she please check everything before she actually make a call to people first thing in the morning and ruin ppl's mood.

I did apologise to her about reject the offer. But, throughout the conversation i heard at least four times " I have to report to your university about this, this is unprofessional"...At the end, I starts get angry and be more firm about my stand. I know I am wrong but i haven't sign anything, I already try my best to reply you asap. Why do you keep threatening me?I am just a student, lose me will lose your whole company is it ????(obviously i din say this to her la)

The last things she said to me is still the same threatening words. And , me ? "OKAY FINE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH."

I know i know i have made a lot of mistakes in my pre-reg offers. I learnt my lessons. Can you please have some mercy on students being pressured on making decision? Company can miss their words reject or accept as long as they like. But students? Drag n drag your time, put you in on-hold list for ages,BUT when they need an answer, you must give response straight a way!!!!We as student has no right for more than 2 weeks to make a decision.

Anyway, for everyone who concerns about my problems. I am okay now. I have talked to people in SCHool of Pharmacy and my tutor. They say there is nothing Tsb pharmacy can do to me. They will support me but i need to write an email to them to explain what is happening, so that when complaint letter comes in, they can response straight a way.

Lesson :
Do not agree on anything that you think you are not satisfy with it .
Do not verbally accept anything even though there is no formal documents signed as proof.
Be really firm for those who threatens you!
Make a quick decision!

I know this kind of things not only happen on me. I mean pressure from company. But puisan I am not going to write to RPSGB because i don't want get into any troubles anymore.

Conclusion:
This morning call ruins my whole day :(

I really have learnt the lesson, I will make sure from now on nobody will describe me as unprofessional anymore.
I am really sorry for all inconveniences caused.Sincerely....

I hate retainer!!

2008-11-04T23:31:00.003Z

Suddenly tonight i got a strong intense to tell everyone that i hate wearing retainer..!!!!

I hate to wear it or sometimes even chose to forget about it .Very purposely* But when i know is not right to do this and start wearing retainer again...what i get is - PAIN.

According to dentist, i have to wear it for life-long. Probably i can only get rid of it when i have to start wearing another thing - denture. T..T

How kids being forced to say HApi BIrd-day to their xiao gu!

2008-10-31T23:14:00.002Z

Main characters : QiSen, YangYang, TingTing -my nephews and niece(obviously their real name doesn't write like this, but i prefer call them like this..all doubles!)

Here is how i spend my birthday (on my birthday ok!) The solution to split myself among family,love,fren is spend one day before with frens, spend my birthday with my family and spend the day after my birthday with Jason. (oops, he is last !:P)

I personally love this simple video very much, yesterday night I watched this video for 5 to 6 times before go to bed...keep repeating and i do MISS THEM A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!

So, here you go, hope you enjoy the video!

I like kids because when you see them , all stress are gone!:)

decision making again!!!

2008-10-31T18:02:00.003Z

After I sent out the reject email to north division (2nd time) to make sure they have received my message, I logged in to my university email ....

and, i found out that the lecturer sent me email saying that he manage to transfer me to east division and there is no tie ins which means it is only one year training.

when i already got offer from another company then you tell me this now. I would be really pleased to hear this great news if i have no other choices . But, i got one now.

I am quite lost in making this decision. The offer letter is already with me i got the place i wanted, i love- Cambridge. And, I will be staying with two close friends if i go there, that would be so nice!

The new offer might send me to A or B ( I have never been to these two places before). It's still full of uncertainties, i got no ideas where would i end up. But this company is good.

Not much differences between training scheme i suppose; i know that tutor is the most important person in 52weeks of your life but at the end everything still depend on yourself.

Any comments on how should i make a better choice? your comment is much appreciated. haha

why?why?why?

2008-10-31T00:03:00.002Z

why things always didn't happen as i wish or as i planned?

why I always like that , didn't follow the plan. So SAD :(

I finally got it!!!!!! :D

2008-10-28T15:53:00.003Z

Today's weather: very cold a!!!!

I used the fastest speed i can to reach home and as usual the first thing i have to do is off the alarm. But, this time there is one A4 size envelope that attracts my attention, I am wondering..will it be .....

After i grab the envelope from the floor, my first glance ---lloyds...omg why is it from bank..
but after my nerves go through all the synapses....zzz...zzzzziiiii....I think i saw the word PHARMACY!

I faster ran upstairs to open the envelope! Yes, is something i have been waiting long for! Finally....deng ni deng dao wo xin dong.....

So, after have a quick read on what is it in this document. i decided to put it aside and do what i suppose to do next .

Then, I send an email to the company who offered me a place for training. Yes, I have sent it out now. I wonder what they going to say. Please ...........let me go !

I know I have been unethical to accept both offers, but, to get a better choice and put myself in secure position, i have no choice. I am sorry...:(

Hopefully they are kind to me. Have to start praying from now...

Paediatric Pharmacy

2008-10-20T22:18:00.003+01:00

Last week we had this lecture about Paediatric pharmacy, this reminds me of having asthma medicines as my friend when i was a kid (i am still a kid now!yippie!)

In this topic, we have to do some essential and further readings in order to prepare answer for seminar on monday. I read about the method they suggested parents to use in order to "tam" kids take their medication which is normally taste owful...Some suggestions are like this:
1. Mix with jam
2.Mix with yoghurt esp for those capsules that you don't wish to break the modified release formulation as you don't have to chew yoghurt rite?

The question i want to ask here is why my parents never taught to feed me this way?
I remember there is once i spit out the syrup right after they fed me, and my dad gets angry and lock me up at the back of the house. I sat outside till late evening, when my neighbour saw me then she bring me back home again. How sad leave me outside alone...

And, i read something about antibiotic is not useful in asthma....!!!!
So why my doctor always gave me antibiotic and that is like 1cm long ...I can't swallow it! So, whenever my dad asks me to take medication, I will start eating those medicines that i think i can swallow and wait until my dad go to front....then ...I will faster throw the antibiotic caplet to the toilet bowl and flush it away!!!When my dad comes back again and ask me whether i have taken my medicines...I will say "YES" happily.....and surprisingly even without antibiotic i am still living in this world ..typing words..so I can prove that antibiotic doesn't work for asthma.

Asthma is a nightmare for my childhood. But, i have to pay the responsibility for it. Turn the time back to 19years ago.....

There is one little girl who always curi-curi make orange juice from concentrate (with ice*) when there is nobody at home. And, she keep repeating this great job almost every afternoon but she doesn't know asthma is walking nearer and nearer towards her...BIngo!!!Finally she got asthma because she always drink orange juice with ice!!!!! so obviously the little gal is me la!!!

I think you might feel weird "huh, drink orange juice also can get asthma one meh?" Yeah, that is true for my case. And, whenever i got asthma my parents will know i must have curi-curi drink some cold drinks or eat ice cream. It never miss once before, everytime i curi makan ice cream i sure get asthma at night!!!!!!Haih.....I can't lie down and sleep properly. The only thing i can do is sit on the bed until i fall asleep, if not once i lie down i will hear the orchestra from my lung!It's so loud.

Ok, tell you some even more weird examples. My nephews seem to have asthma attack too...but they more cham,,their asthma attack is illicited by chocolate, Vitagen...

Moral of the story are....
Never leave your child at home
Never let your child drink too much of cold drinks
:P

上課'生'涯

2008-10-13T18:13:00.000+01:00

今天是星期一
教授講課太好聽
我想他會催眠術

排課排到滿滿的
但是不知大家有沒聽進去

開學就是這樣
一個字累

Journey to taipei I

2008-10-01T20:22:00.013+01:00

One of the most meaningful things I have made in my summer holiday is----I manage to bring my parents to taipei, Taiwan. ( Oh, this doesn't mean I didn't spend the rest of my summer holiday wisely ok!) SO, how did we spend our 5 days 4 nights trip in Taipei le?

First day-

I don't know why china airlines like to fly from 2 something in the afternoon and it takes 5 hours to reach there, since your fingers are enough to count this simple maths, it's about 7 something that we reached Taipei. So, nothing much, check in-dinner-walk around in Ximending-sleep.

Second day-

first destination--->Chiang Kai Sek Memorial Hall ( where my dad enjoyed the most) Aiyo~~they start gasping!Ask you all exercise don't want. Now see~~I move faster than you guys!@! I still young ma:P
After you gone through the long stairs successfully!( not really long actually) You will see "copper" version of Chiang Kai Sek.It's quite a huge one!

An overview of Chiang Kai Sek Memorial Hall. But don't think you can see it la!

Chiang Kai Sek and His wife (Song Mei Ling??I am not sure:P)

There is display for public to see how was Chiang Kai Sek's office look like with "WAX" version of him sitting there. It looks quite real actually. (If you know Hokkien, my parents keep saying "jin shxiang o!)

Okla, enough for Chiang Kai Sei Memorial hall because i lazy upload pic la!

---After that, we took 45mins of MRT to TamShui. There are a lot of attractions, but guess where is the only place i went ..Long Shan Shi. There are two Long Shan Shi(temple) in Taipei, however this is not the most famous temple that i went. If you want to go to the most famous Long Shan shi you can take MRT and get down from Long Shan Station.

Due to tireness that everyone can't avoid, we go back to MRT station and take another 40mins to JianTan Station.

Have you heard of Shilin Night Market before?JianTan Station is the station we need to get off to go to the food court where you get to taste all famous foods in Taiwan. In fact, I don't find the food there are really nice but i think 'they' are all interesting because "their" names are really funny. For example, da chang bao xiao chang (direct translate: Big sausage wrap small sausage) . Oh wait, go back to the topic, SHilin night market is located opposite of shilin food court, you just need to cross the road. ( I were so exciting about going to this night market, who knows after finish eating, my dad and bro give me very big reaction! HUH??? Need to walk somemore? Go back Hotel la!!!.....under this kind of situation, i can only follow them back hotel with my yi yi bu she de mood...hmm...i didn't get to go...)

Third Day-

Today everyone learnt our lessons, we rented a car upon request of my family members. And, of course there is driver to drive us around, we paid 4000 taiwan dollar which equal to RM400 for renting the car and hire the driver for 8 hours.

1st destination-Jiu fen. There is a story about the origin of its name-Jiu fen (9 portions). This Jiu fen is located on mountain and there were 9 family staying there.But whenever the residents on this mountain going down to get their groceries, they need to spend one day to come back and forth. SO, they have this idea that they take turn to get things for every family, since there are 9 famillies there, so everytime they need to get 9 portions for everything they buy. SO after long while when they send down their representative, people will shout "jiu fen lai le, jiu fen lai le" (9 portions come d!).....That's what tour guide told me.

This is old street of Jiufen. Although is OLD but is full of people, you can find lots of interesting stuff here.
Look at the chinese words on your left hand side. ( Peanut roll with ice-cream) I know it sounds normal and simple but it tastes really good! Look at the brown thing with rectangular shape, that is where uncle get the peanut powder from.

Here is how the " Peanut roll with ice-cream" looks like. I know it still doesn't look any attractive, but after i finish one, I really feel like eating second roll.

to be continued but don't have to stay tune. :P

U-N-F-A-I-R

2008-09-17T16:39:00.002+01:00

A Mad is a Mail can send whatever mails he wants without being charged any cents. Everyone knows he sent countless and useless email. And, the truth is he is safe and he can be exempted from paying money.

But, when someone else also did the same thing as A Mad is a Mail , send email out to others but she got charge for the email she sent.

TIAN LI HE ZAI...mei yan kan!!!

Pa-ss A-way

2008-09-11T06:11:00.004+01:00

My eldest uncle's wife pass away. I went for the funeral and I saw someone i knew lying down quietly there. Some kind of weird feeling came up and I chose to hide at the bottom.

When I walk toward the house where they held the funeral. I feel weird because the last time when I walk along the same path, I know I am going to say congrates to my relative because someone in their family is getting marry. But, now I am going there for funeral, this is totally different.

Still, there are lots of people there, but with a different purpose in each visit.

I just want to say..life is full of uncertainty, appreciate what you having now
Ren Sheng Wu Chang Ah....

I will be a tour guide in less than 48 hours!

2008-09-03T05:21:00.003+01:00

Yeah, I will be a tour guide for five people in less than 48 hours. Go where? Go Taipei lo, a place I just been once before, don't know where my gut come from to volunteer myself as the tour guide.

I am a bit worry, what if they are tired or bored, what if they don't like the food, what if ...this and that..I am always like that worry too much . But, i seriously didn't plan much, mostly go to those destinations where MRT will go.

Aiyoyo....

I pray for good weather and everything goes well. And, also pray that we won't get lost.

po bi po bi a!!!!!haha

Shall i ?

2008-08-26T10:58:00.002+01:00

Shall i accept the two years contract and go back to Malaysia afterward?

or shall i go back to Msia straight after my degree? Because even if i have two years working experience in UK i still need to do the four years training..and start from zero..which ways should i go..?

If lloyds offer me place in Cambridge i will definitely go..but they put me on hold....

I even dreamed about this in my recent dream.haiz...

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Can a couple with different religion successful in their love? I think i can. But, my family can't.

freedom

2008-08-10T00:51:00.003+01:00

I have all the right to make my decision since i am capable of doing so. And, I have been allowed to do so for a long time.

Nobody ever doubt my decision.

So, why at this time you guys want to interrupt. I won't be happy if i didn't get wishes from you guys. I am regret for sharing with you guys. If i knew, i won't have talk about it.

Please give me my freedom. I am nearly 22 now, give me my right to make decision.

Offer letter

2008-08-05T22:52:00.003+01:00

I got the offer letter today. It was quite an official way of giving out the offer letter. My team manager rang me up and ask me to go to the store manager 's office. When i reach there, she call my mentor in as well as a witness. The moment when she told me that i got the offer to come back to 0570 Hull prospect centre, i guess i didn't show a very excited face, maybe because i got hint from few people about it already. Or maybe i am not too looking forward for being tie down two years in Hull.

I still find no reason why they have the right to tie me down for two years here. If you were to say because company will lose a lot of money if i just go away after i qualified. Then, show me that you really want me to stay. I can't see the reason why i have to sign a two years contract when i only got the same salary as other area pre-reg student!!If Hull really need people urgently at least they should pay us higher or any incentives rite? No. You didn't pay for my tuition fees in University and why do i have to pay you back? ANd, who came out the idea that if i were to leave the company i have to pay 5000pounds? I just can't accept this term here. Why other students in other areas get their freedom but i haven't got one, aren't the money spend on pre-reg student are the same all over the UK?HENG HENG!!!

ANother thing is I cannot understand why Malaysian government set a rule that we must work with government for three years before we get recognised as pharmacist in Malaysia. Same thing that annoys me is that YOU PAY NOTHING FOR MY PHARMACY DEGREE, WHY DO I HAVE TO WORK FOR YOU FOR A LOW PAY JOB?WHY??

I wanted to go back Malaysia because all the important people in my life are there. But, i just can't accept the low pay truth and the stupid rule.

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Between, today i got a call from BPSA to the store that i m working at the moment. I just don't know how they get to know I am working in Boots and in Hull? And, why do they suddenly call me up just to ask me when would i expecting myself get qualified as pharmacist? Why? WHy? I still answer whatever they asked, until the moment we end the conversation, i still have no ideas how they found out i am there, no ideas why they made that call. ~WEIRD~

SUN

2008-07-27T15:30:00.003+01:00

Where do i belong to? I belong to nowhere.

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I don't know how and what is best way for two people to get together?

I don't understand you. Why do you put your display pic with another gal(s) but never put ours. Even i told you i mind, you didn't change it , so what is the point of telling all these?

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I just came back from a long walk, using looking for cafe to print something as excuse, i actually just wanted to get out from this house. I remember when i was sad, i used to ride motorbike or drive my car slowly ,keep going and without knowing where is my destination but just keep moving. That's how i release myself when i am sad, but in Uk i haven't got any motorbike or car, so i went for a long walk. (although i was a bit worry about the safety, I saw five police cars going to same direction, driving 100km/h in housing area.)

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Just now was the second time i nearly bang by a car, because i keep thinking about something when i cross the road and didn't realise car is coming.(Luckily...)

Picture taken on the way to cambridge by shiang.

Look at the pic clearly. Have you realise that bottom part of the cloud is always darker compare to the top part of clouds? I just think that all the clouds in the sky are just like human's life. As you get nearer to Sun , you will become brighter and happier, however, sometimes due to the effect of wind which might blow you off to another area, you might become the bottom part of the cloud and become darker, you might even get darker and darker, heavier and heavier and fall off become drops. A tiny drop, nobody will realise you have gone. This is a process, even you know that you will go back to the bright part one day, but you still have to go through same process from time to time. When Sun come out again, you will get back to the bright part and happy again.

Life just fill with ups and downs.

I hope my life, my love, my family and everything on the earth can always stay near to the SUn and stay as bright as the top part of cloud. Do not get affected by wind and become the darker part.

I want to stay on the bright part, please don't come to my life become the bad wind. Love needs Sun. I need Sun. Jason and I need Sun.

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I am waiting !!!

2008-07-06T20:22:00.002+01:00

I am waiting for ...

my stupid project to finish,
impress my tutor that i am capable and responsible,
my tutor write a good recommendation letter to head office,
my tutor to go holiday!!!!
9/8 to come so my placement will be finished, i can go back to Nottingham do final shopping! and pack my things and go back to hot country!

a really nice holiday!!!
JJ to love me as before
a really good birthday celebration (which i wonder how to split myself among family,love, frens)

I can't wait ...
to wear whatever i want!! short skirt,hot pant!!!
to drive wherever i want to go!
to see my family
to see my frens
to see JJ too
to play with my nephews and cute tingting!!!!
to bring them to pasar malam..hehe..then we can buy buy buy munmun
to eat those food i used to eat
to visit those store, mamak, places i used to go
TO SING K
to eat nice food!!!!without considering the currency exchange!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahaha..i gonna crazy here...:p can someone answer me, should i bring my dearest bearbear back to msia also? hehe..i just cant wait, when i think of all that my mouth just cant close properly!!!!:p

The only thing i dun feel like doing is go back and discuss the problem. I don't want to know the final decision!:(...heng

I am HUMAN

2008-06-24T21:11:00.002+01:00

I am now working in Hull, a small city in a way that you can easily meet a stranger for twice in a month. When i was in the bus, i saw the customer walking on the street with the same shirt on. Another time, when i was serving another customer, i heard familiar voice, it's Jayne, a ACT who i met in hospital. How small it is till i can easily met the hospital pharmacist on the street while waiting for the jobcentre plus to open their BIG door at nine o'clock sharp. I actually wanted to say HI to her, but she was singing, not good to disturb her, i know she is enjoy singing,"ar...a!!!ar...a!"hehe..never tot that she likes to sing too, she used to be quite picky on how we stick the label in hospital.

Something happened on me recently that i sleep with my wet eyes and couldn't remember when was it i have fallen asleep. I was daydreaming when the condition allowed me to do so. I actually don't feel like talking and just want to be alone, but i have to hide the feeling for 9 hours. Because i am working in pharmacy, i have to greet customer, give them good customer service, talk to them with big smile on. Even though my heart actually numb at the moment.

This is life, no matter how big things happen on this little of me, but the earth still turning, life have to move on. I have to move on too. I am HUMAN.

Story of Sunflower and Tulip

2008-06-23T19:17:00.003+01:00

Finally a bomb exploded between S and T, they have to clean the exploded bomb up.

T got so hurt and he thought of letting "species" be their reason to end their special relationship. He feels so disappointed and feels stupid as well , because he thought that his love that he is willing to give to S can overcome their "species" problem. How silly he is, he even tot that for S, he will be more important than "species". But, as he clean up the exploded bomb, he knows the answer is NO, "species" is more important than love, power of love doesn't apply to him and S.

T knew "species" would be their problem one day, but he rather choose to ignore that and try his best to take care of Sunflower.

to be continued..

Conversation between sunflower and tulip

2008-06-22T17:15:00.002+01:00

Sunflower (S) , Tulip (T)

S: I cant't bring you with me, because we're different species.
T: *keep quiet, but a bit hurt
*because T really hope that he can together with S, how he wishes that species wouldn't be their problems.

Things happened around me.

2008-06-20T14:31:00.002+01:00

Things happened around me, but not directly affect me.

Today is 20 of June 2008, turn the time back to one yr ago, today I'm supposed to prepare myself leaving everything back in malaysia and head to UK , a strange place with people speaking lauguages which is not my first language. I remembered there are so much of reluctant feelings to leave in my little heart, but i know i have to since i have made a decision to enter the University of Nottingham and knew that this is a 2+2 programme. I have to go away from a place where i have been brought up, away from my comfort zone, learn to be independent, hopefully beat down the phobia which deep in my heart due to my poor English.

Not long after i left Malaysia, i get to know that my friend who is also my friend's brother had passed away in an accident.

I get to know that the gang of friends which we called us as "Big eyes Gals" have no longer keep in touch as often as last time because everybody have their own business to busy with.

My friend's grandpa has cancer and he has passed away recently. I have visited to her house quite often so i can still remember his face deeply in my mind,but he will no longer be there when i pay a visit to their house this August.

Apart from all bad news...I do have some good news too.

My fourth sis-in-law gave birth on Oct and brought a healthy, handsome boy to my family. He looks exactly like my another nephew(his brother). But, i am not with him throughout his baby 's days, probably he wouldn't know who am i when i go back.

Following that, my best friend-Dion had gave birth a baby boy too.:)

My best friend-Kim Fong going to get married in this September, so as Tenpin,someone who has being my friend since kindergarden. Another good friend, Mei Chee married in May.

Things have been changing a lot since i came to UK, people have been through all kinds of happiness, sadness, but how about me? Am i still the old ones, no changes?

I believe there are some changes that they can notice from me, and i also notice that i am no longer as crazy as last time, no longer as talkative as last time. Maybe i should say no longer givng people a first impression of being a cheerful gal.hehe..only to stranger gua. for someone i knew for long time, i think i will be still the same for them , the crazy Gan May Shiang.

But, one thing i know that has no change is i will not bother how non-related people think about me. Yesterday, the dispenser in my store said to me with the serious-and-no-smile-or-maybe-angry-tones-and-eyes after i called her name and inform her that there is customer waiting while she was talking to other colleagues. After the customer hand over the prescription to her, she then turn back and say to me that"May, next time you can always go to the front desk and bring in the prescription and do the following , i mean it 's not like..." she talks to me while she is doing something with the computer, but suddenly she turn back and say the last word "difficult". Of course i know it's not difficult, just that in my previous store I am not allowed to go to front desk unless I have been told by pharmacist. So, i would never think of go to front desk without being told to do so. I didn't reply her but just keep quiet. Whatever you want to say.

Whatever..

First Day in Hull and East Yorkshire Hospital

2008-06-09T22:27:00.002+01:00

Oh..I should be feeling so great that i got the opportunity to work in hospital !But, where is the great feeling gone to? At the end of the day , what i get is sore feet, aching limbs..this reminds of my last summer placement again. :(

I had a short talk and introduction by pre-reg Amy about the environment and workplace in pharmacy. But, guess what they are too kind , i have been introduced the same thing for like three times by three different people. I could stop it, but i think it just not so good say" actually someone told me about this before"

Again, i couldn't find the drug. But, one thing i have to admit is that the way they arrange the medicines are better a lot than BxxTs (BTs). When i worked in BTs last time, it's so hard for new people to come in and look for the drug. But , in this hospital, every drugs has been placed at a designated area with label on its shelf. And, this information can be found on your label after you printed them off. It's just so easy to find them , for me. But, i still cant find certain drugs.

They have also differentiate the urgency of the medicine and the source of prescription by using different colours of tray. For example, Red means the medicine is needed urgently. If it's yellow, means it's from community or prison.

The medicines that are dispensed have their way to go to, so if it's for inpatient use, then easier, you dun have to label a plastic bag. and you also don't have to put all warning labels in because nurse will give the medicine. But it depends, sometimes if it's one-stop-dispensing, then every single labels need to be done.

And, in hospital, you can't simply print the label, if there is anything wrong you must amend it without charge, because as you print the label the computer will record it and charge the patient, because doctor has their own budget on the drugs, tat's what they told me. So, if you simply print the label , the innocent doctor will have their "credits " gone without no reason.

Okla..tat's it for today. Tmw going to TPN. I have been told spend an hour in pharmacy to read the Parenteral Nutrition chapter..it's good for yawning exercise anyway.:)

Hope tomorrow will brighter than yesterday. and also hope that my feet doesn't torture me anymore, or less.

Hull

2008-06-08T17:26:00.002+01:00

I am in Hull now since yesterday,a three hours of train journey.
My "landlord" is very kind, he picked me up from train station and fetch me to Boots store.

The first thing i saw on my left hand side after came out from the train station is a Big shopping centre -St.Stephens, you can find those normal England's shops as you would find in other places just that the shops here are much bigger and newer!

As far as i know now, Hull has three shopping centre, which is the St.Stephens, Prospect Centre and Princess Quay Centre. There is a few cafes along the "Monument Bridge" right beside the Princess Quay Centre. Walk pass Princess Quay Centre, go along the path, you will go to "Old Market Town" which reminds me of the street in Nottingham where superdrug located.Am i hinting that Nottingham is old? I think Hull is better than Nottingham in term of their transport services. I say this because you can find train, bus and coaches in Hull Paragon Interchange, and the St.Stephens is just right beside the Hull Paragon Interchange.

Another great news is my volunteer work place-Hull and East Yorkshire Hospital is located about 3 mins walk from the Hull Paragon Interchange, and so as the Boots store that i am going to work in 1 week time.All shopping centres are walking distance away from each other. I said good news because it's easier for me to HUNT when summer sales come!

I went to the Boots store in Prospect Centre to get them stamp on my Uk visa and verify it. Sadly there is no pharmacist there, only those locum, the pharmacist has left( i mean there is no pharmacist in the store) I wonder why? But by the time i start working there will be a pharmacist !The healthcare team manager sounds nice, her name is Clare, but i will hold my comments first, as they always nice but you don't know what are they thinking actually. This is what i learnt from Cardiff Store, the manager will never happy to see us free. Between, this store is much smaller than Cardiff one, it reminds me of Boots store in Cardiff, because it is in a shopping centre too.

Now is about my new accommodation, first impression, I love the house because it's a modern house compared with what i have in Nottingham. But, soon after i settled my things and return to this house again, i realised that the toilet and kitchen are A BIT dirty, guy's house , i can't expect much, can I? But his sister is staying here too. And, the sister has rabbit as her pet--called Chocolate!haha..I actually found the conversation between the sister and brother amusing,

S:"Choc looks moody."
Me:"why?"
S:"because he(choc) has been alone at home, he feels lonely"
"That's why i on the TV"
B:"Does he watch TV?"
S:"Yes!"
Me:*Laughing*

They asked me whether i like animals, i said yes but i also say that i scare of dogs, what a contraversy answer!

And, i have no pillows and blanket here, ytd night i thought i can survive without blanket since it's summer now, but, still i have to squeeze into the duvet cover that i brought from Nott in the middle of the night. I didn't get good sleep actually, i can hear them talking.

I have to wash the toilet later , even though i feel tired now after carrying five bags of tesco things and Primark Pillows!Because i just cannot stand it anymore, i scare of stepping into the toilet, thank God that jason likes clean environment.

Haih, i guess biscuits and hot chocolate will be my dinner later. A lot of hard work to do here, but, I will never afraid of them. I am strong!!! Agree??

I MISS all of you!!

2008-06-06T22:39:00.002+01:00

I miss everyone of you

every single seconds

I didn't forget where i came from

where I am always flooded with LOVE

and here you see me GAN MAY SHIANG

Within my own little world

I can proudly announce that:

" I am the luckiest girl in the world"

I am happy with who I am

I am grateful that I was borned and brought up in a lovely family

A very simple family with parents and seven siblings

I love my parents

They never throw lots of toys to us just to make themselves free

In fact, i only have one set of masak-masak before

They love me, i believe so in a way that we know

I love my brothers

No other brothers will ever better than mine, for me

My brothers are best!

I have learnt a lot from them

I want to be as strong as them

even though for them i am always a little girl

I love my sister, everybody knows this truth

I said to everyone, no other girls will ever prettier than my sister

A beautiful girl doesn't mean that her heart is beautiful too

but, i can guarantee that hers beautiful

I am the luckiest person in this world

because i have all of you

I am not afraid with all kind of challenges

because i have all of you

I am who I am today

because of all of you

The love that all of you given to me

I cannot describe them just in words

The love is just so amazing and beautiful

I can never pay them back or buy them easily

because those are parents love and siblings love

Papa Mama, Thanks for brought me to this world

Letting me know that there is LOVE in this world

Gege(s) and jiejie, Thanks for being my sibling(s) in my life

I would never forget our childhood memories

where we know that we are connected

I know you all love me as I am your little youngest meimei..

Yan meimei a.k.a as Yan chouzhou

"wo de jia ting zhen ke ai...

fu qin mu qin dou jian kang

xiong di jie mei hen he qi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O6Xel7jy7nk

Birmingham

2008-06-02T08:54:00.008+01:00

Don't know why , Birmingham is famous of this bull...shall find out from Wikipedia.
Another indoor bull made of lots of candies. And, liling said "African child got no food to eat, these people use candies to make a bull..."

Can you see the lorry in front is moving the house?

Process of making Krispy creme.For your information, Krispy creme 's price in England is almost the same as the price in Australia. You can find it in Melbourne but not Perth.

3 scoops of MORELLI'S GELATO (MANGO, BANANA, COFFEE) cost GBP 4.50.

On 21 May 2008 we headed to Birmingham by Nicole's car, everything goes smoothly on the way to Birmingham. But, it 's opposite when we head back to Nottingham from Birmingham. Because this time Nicole didn't print out the google map as she did in the morning , according to her, we should be able to reach Nottingham by heading towards opposite direction "theorectically". But, at the end we can prove that this theory is wrong, because we left Birmingham at 10 something night but reach home at nearly 2am the next day. We lost our way after stopped by a police car. Policeman said that Nicole has been stay on the middle lane for more than 2miles, she should always stay on left lane...OMG ! like this also can.......Thanks to the police to telling us the correct direction which makes us LOST our way..Thanks to them..i can see signboard showing LONDON ,WALES...Nightmare.

At the end we have to go back to Birmingham , start the journey all over again. Nicole had to pump petrol to make sure the car does not run out of petrol if we happen to lost our way again. The petrol station is where i can tell people confidently that Birmingham really flooded with Ah CHA (means indians). They were quite scary people. Liling can be another witness.

My advice is never stay out late in England. Bad experience.

Right or wrong?

2008-05-26T23:40:00.002+01:00

Who has the right to judge what is right or wrong ? The honorable Judges? You ? Me?

Yes, i think we are allow to judge since there is existence of this word called "JUDGE" and there is one occupation known as JUDGE. But, remember, not everyone can judge, even the honorable Judges, they are not born to judge or talented to judge, they have to go through thousand of lectures, seek the examples from people 's past experiences and experience by themselves through n times of trials and errors. Sometimes, they might make wrong judgement or decision on those innocent victims. As we all know, no humans are perfect.

And, are you allow to judge? or me? No, unless you really know the things in depth and make sure that you are neutral , no bias. If you are just some random people who only know one side story then shut your mouth. If you are concern about the things VERY MUCH, just use your eyes and ears but not mouth. Like a chinese saying " add salt add vinegar", do not judge from surface, this just make people think that you're a shallow person. Please be more kindhearted and keep your harsh words with yourself if you know that your words wouldn't help this thing gets any better.

That's it, I just hate people judge things and give stupid conclusion easily. I just cannot stand that kind of behaviour! If you are one of those kind of people, please i beg you to throw away that unwanted behaviour, unless you do not hope to have a peaceful world.

Thanks a lot for your kindness for not judging people or things easily, very much appreciated , our society needs you urgently.

Rojak

2008-05-20T22:56:00.002+01:00

Because there are too much of "rojak(unrelated stuff)" that i want to blog about. So, Please lend me your eyes for this rojak blog.

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Yes, my exam is over and i have also passed my exam! I mean the dispensing and law exams that i mentioned in my previous blog. Okla, i didn't really jump for 3 days 3 nights, but i did get a bit exhausted. You know what i have "pecah record" !!!i was awake for 21.5 hours yesterday! Crazy~~tak siuman!

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Today went Wollaton Park with my friends, that is really a nice place to go. I feel like i wasn't in Nottingham at all..And, we had games and sing song session which obviously is very FUN wei!!!But, i do not have any pics with me, if you feel interested to know more, why not try facebook?hehe..

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Relationship between guys and women
Who can tell me the definition of love? Nobody can give me a definite answer isn't it? And, do not thought that i might know it since i asked the question. I don't know either. But, i do know how big is the influence of LOVE. :)

People used to mention that Love is blind. I believe so now,because i have seen this from people around me. I am really impressed and admired with the love that you're willing to pour, i am happy to see people know how to show their love to someone they love, but i do feel sad that you can't get back what you expected/ hope from he/she.

Please allow me to make a wish here :I hope that people can get in love with someone that they like and progress to the love stage, and i hope that people know how to manage the problems in love carefully and wisely by not hurting or minimise the degree of hurt to the lowest. If you do not have the good feeling towards him/her, please take the step to clarify to him /her, imagine if this happen to you, would you hope to know the answer earlier? I think they will be much more appreciated if you are willing to tell them earlier. This action might cause some kinds of sadness in the beginning, but I am so sure that they can understand when they finally found their true love. You will hear "thank you " from them eventually.

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Relationship between friends

Sometimes relationship between friends of same sex can be as difficult as relationship between friends of opposite sex. Do not hold the bag of 10kg rice and trying to figure out why is it so heavy, why don't you just put it down? To be continued..

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Eelin going back tomorrow!!!:(..But, i am really really happy for you to get summer placement! Although i am a bit blurred when you told me about this, in fact now still blur, but i am really happy for you!!! *jumping*

Exam Exam Exam!!!

2008-05-16T16:44:00.003+01:00

Yeah, I have done three papers!!! ONE more to go !!!! Yes, is ONE... and on the day itself 19-05-2008 I will get to know whether i pass or fail Dispensing and Law exam!Is actually two different papers, if you fail then you will get email from school, i don't want to get heart attack in front of computer a!!!!

People please spend some of your time to pray for me!haha..i really hope that i do not have to repeat it. But , the probability is quite high,:(.

I will pray for everyone!!! :)

Earthquake in SiChuan

2008-05-14T23:59:00.006+01:00

12 May, 2008 when everyone of us were busying with our Law relating to Pharmacy paper, a disaster happened in SiChuan, China. According to the msn news, at 1976 there was a earthquake disaster which cause about 200,000 people died (if i didn't remember the figure wrongly). I never know that earthquake can actually happen in China also, and i was shocked when i look at the figure of past 32 years record. Below are few pictures i have received from my friend. I cannot describe my feelings by words, I can't do much for them , but just pray for them. I hope that one day in the future, i can utilise what i have learned and help people get away from misery of life.

I sincerely pray that everything can get better and under control soon. I really feel so sorry about this.

Don't worry, Be happy!

2008-05-14T15:55:00.003+01:00

Thought of write a blog in chinese, but it's so troublesome, don't know why it doesn't show up in the space!*angry

Just finish a 30 credits paper 4 hours ago. I have thrown a big stone away from me. Exam period have been really stressful for me,I couldn't sleep well, and i think that i am over-stress, because i am actually tired but i am still very "awake"!!!sigh~~

Actualy whenever some kind of thoughts come up in my mind, i really feel like writing it down and share to others. But, i couldn't do it because i was studying or walking somewhere.

Last week i was reading notes of Quality in medicine design, i read something about drug development of cancer drug, in order to be one of the test subject , you need to have cancer with "not amenable to establish forms of therapy". Hehe~~look at this.

In our life are full of things that are set with certain requirement in order to proceed to next stage. For example, in order to study a course in university, you need to meet their requirement. In order to become a pharmacist you need spend 4 years in studies and undergo one year of training. Of course, we are very happy that we meet the requirement and get to do what we want. But, imagine this, will you be happy to meet the requirement and be one of the test subject for cancer drug development?? Since when cancer became one of the "must" fulfill requirement in order to proceed ? ANybody striving hard to meet this requirement?

I guess the answer is NO. It is not hard at all, approximately 1 in 3 will get cancer and 1 in 4 will die of cancer. Look around you, everybody actually carry a risk of getting cancer, is depend on how well you manage yourself , your lifestyle. Do not assume or think that you will be totally excluded from risk of cancer when you didn't eat any artificial food at all. And, do not stupidly think that natural food will keep you stay longer until 100years old. Because 99% of ingested pesticide are of natural origin. Haha..sorry if i sound too harsh and scary, but these are truth.

Life is full of uncertainty. When you always exercise so much of restriction on your diet, limit yourself from eating /doing something nice/fun, but who knows one day, God might play a joke with you, unexpected things such as accident might just happen on you. So,since life is full of so much of uncertainty, why do we still need to restrict ourselves from doing what we like to do? People!!!Just enjoy your life. Whenever you think that you are really unlucky, look around you, someone might have to depend on wheelchair for movement, and you still have healthy legs to bring you any place you like, so why should you still in low mood ?

SO,Be happy and don't worry.:) cheers!!!

Nightmares

2008-05-09T23:27:00.002+01:00

I will try to explain why do i say" my not very sweet dream" in my previous post.

Heng~~It's because about three days ago, i dreamed that i got very bad results for my DGT!!!
Do you know how is my transcript look like?
Normally we will have certain module title follow by our marks rite? But, mine is all medicines name.....I can still read "Bendroflumethiazide" from my dream! Why i dream this kind of thing? And, that morning i have my alarm set at 6am, but because i always cant differentiate between dream and reality, so i thought that was real, and i was so sad and angry and dont want to get out from bed !!:P haha..how funny and stupid it is !Luckily, i know that i might not able to wake up, so the second alarm wake me up at 7.30am!haha...

Another nightmare 2,
I feel so sad and hopeless when i have to pass through all the obstacles to go the exam hall (i can still remember i have to rush there using a skateboard but in reality i dont even know how to skate ok!) but ended up with very bad results for law exam! Yes, I had this weird dream this morning which make me wake up with tears ...I really feel very sad in the dream..and when i open my eyes, the first thing i saw is my fizzymoon bearbear. It was in a position that i can see it laughing at me...hahaha...pharmfellows please don't mistaken me as having hallucination!haha...

Why do i always dreamed myself with a bad results?!I hope this is not a sign of anything. I heard someone say before, normally what you dreamed will be the opposite from the reality. I believe so at this moment.

Hope everything can go smoothly.

Rainbow is waiting for me...

A famous saying: "To see the rainbow, you need to take the rain"

"Ants on the hot pot"

2008-05-05T23:31:00.002+01:00

Hoo...pls give me some oxygen ..i just cant breathe smoothly..

My daily routine is visit the most knowledgeable place-library after my "not very sweet dream"...stay there till evening...after cooking and had my dinner...if there is 20% of battery left over then i should be able to carry on doing some studies..if not, maybe i am recharging myself again at around 9 -10.

Yes, i m not a last minute person. So, when i know that next monday onwards my spring exam going to commence soon. I am just cant sit still..anxious...nervous...tension...just like the ants on the hot pot ..----jumping around!!!!

I hope i can just eat the DGT book. I really hope that i am knowledgeable and competent up to the standard of a Master student. But...why i always realise that it's too late ONLY when i run out of time.

Yan leng...i hope that stress can go away from you.Be calm ( telling myself this too)

And, Pharmnotts people...good luck in coming exam...All the best to all of you!

Gambatei yo!!!

I lost my card!!!

2008-04-30T12:46:00.002+01:00

Yes, i couldn't find it again!!!sigh~~~why i always simply put things until i cant find them...i just remember when i leave library, i kept it inside my pocket..after that i dun remember what happen liao...

i get so annoyed because i couldn't find it , i cannot go to library...then i received a letter from lloyds tsb (bank) saying that they going to charge me 20 pounds for overdraft. I get so furious and feel like why everything bad happen at the same time.

But, rachel gan , is just a card, if it is lost, just get a new one from security office. Don't get frustrated so easily, imagine some people even lost their loves one and couldn't find them back even after several years...Or probably they couldn't see each other anymore.

And, another great news is after i made a call to lloyds tsb and told that about this charges, i said that i m a student, and just came back from oversea, 20 pounds is a lot to me, and bla bla give a lot of excuses that i can think of ...and FINALLY very kind of this lady who decided not to charge me !!!Hooray!!! ...

Then, this bank thing sorted liao....when will my card suddenly pop up in front of me le...card faster la....

and at the same time, i received a text from health centre saying that my blood result is out and my doctor wants me to make an appointment with him..haih..must be....high cholesterol again la..:P tao yan!

Exams in two weeks..but i am still not motivated...i havent even start studying law...slap me pls...of course i m kidding..

okla..should go back to revision world.

Some Updates about myself :P

2008-04-26T00:12:00.003+01:00

Yes, and sorry for abandon my blog for long. Yeejie, are you still visiting my blog ? (i bet you must be scolding me"say will update often but never do ")haha

Well people, now and again i have to step into a world that is everyday only book,sleep,food, revision war again!! This time will be still the same, four papers but the law exam is using computer and is an open book exam. So as the DGT exam..we can use the miracle BNF (however it wouldn't be a miracle in ICU as they always use the "unlicensed" way/method to treat patient in ICU. And, another two papers are crazy "toxicology" (Can i make a new saying that study toxicology is toxic to our brain cells?:P) and quality in medicines design ( one essay which counts for 100marks, whua!!!isn't this crazy???i guess someone who suggest pharmacy students to have this paper must be lazy to make simple maths calculation, so make it easy, one essay 100marks)..

I always hope that i can do WELL, and i told myself that must be really hardworking in this semester to compensate the lousy marks i have had from last semester. But, human always know what's wrong and we normally do not change even after n times. sigh~~of course i can't do well again but at least i will try my best, when i recall the feelings after my molecular pharmacology exam, i swear to myself , i will never wan to have this feeling anymore!!!!I JUST HATE THAT!!!

yup..some updates about myself:

1. Just came back from australia last two weeks ago, have visited jason and jiejie while able to meet some of my family members during jiejie's convocation! This is a VERY WONDERFUL trip!!!I am glad that i can spend my easter holidays in AUStralia, and it's still one of my favourite country!

2.I am a bit fat now. Fat trying to accumulate around my tummy and arms. wahaha...i will never give "fat" a micro chance to stay there.although it is now, but won't be long ok?:P

3. And i always ask this question : why does acne like to stay IN my face? yup, is IN. They "hide" underneath my skin and doesn't want to come out. wei..why like that~~~:(

4.I cried once in australia after i read a comment from a HK girl. I just know her when i was in australia, and very kind of her to spend her precious sleep time till 5am in the morning and read my toxicology assignment. She commented that my work is poorly done and there are lots of grammar mistakes. Of course, i cried not because of angry at her honest comment, i just angry at myself. There are lots of time when i spend more time than others in doing certain assignment, but i don't get a good mark for what i have done. And, i cried because my grammar is still so bad, probably someone in primary school would be better than me. I cried because i have been struggling so much, i have to do double the work that people usually do. The saddest thing is i tried so hard and seldom get back what i aim for. I just feel a bit tired sometimes...:(

5. But, after this wonderful holiday, i told myself that LIFE IS NOT ALL ABOUT STUDYING. You should relax. Is that really that important to get good results but at the same time you do not enjoy at all?? There are obviously other more important things waiting for me to do.

6. Meet disaster in certain area doesn't mean that i am useless. I AM NOT USELESS. I can be very good in other things. At least i believe so....

7. I am happy to know a lot of new friends through jason and jiejie. Jason's friends are really funny!!I like! They are nice too. Some of them know that he seldom bring me out ( because he has to attend classes), then they will offer to bring me or ask me to join them for some activities! such as badminton game!

8. Really thanks so much to jiejie, yongsim, melissa for using some of your brain cells for me. I really truly appreciate that ! Muacks!!:)

9. Thanks to Jason for giving me a wonderful memories when i was in Melbourne. After this trip,we get to know each other better! yapi!:)

10. I have got my Hull accommodation settled with 50 pounds per week and yes everything is included!!! i can use internet, their cookware!Thanks eilyn !!huge hug for you!:)

11. Sorry guys, i know i didn't follow the sequence of events/things happening around me. Because this is me, what is pop up in my mind i would just say/type it out. I am using "diamond brand" filter!!!cold~~

Okla..when the mood of writing down something is here, then you would see some new blogs coming up. Be patient.

I will try to upload more pics if i can.

chinese new year

2008-02-06T23:40:00.000Z

Yeah,..what i normally do during chinese new year back in msia??!!! i will dress up espcially nicely and go to everyone's house...sometimes really visit sometimes i stuck there for gambling...really dun spend much time at home..ok..i shouldn't be like this..haha..but comparing to now?have to attend class somemore..here is obviously not as happening as in msia..dunno why?where are all chinese gone to?once a year only wo...also so quiet one...haih..

ppl have been complaining that my blog is full with words without any pics..so boring..hey.. i like la..and i am lazy to wait, upload one pic by one pic just to post up what's happening in my life..sorry la..i m just too lazy...

I just write when i feel like writing something down..

A lot of things have been occured since i come to uk..
and i start to learn that...(or maybe i should have learn it earlier,:( )
1.Do not simply trust people
2. Do not assume people to have think the same way as stupid of you do..
3. Learn how to listen to others but make your own decision at the end
4. Do not hope that someone will change after a certain period, becuz they have already been shaped into certain kind..
5. Get away from something that your instinct tell you that you shouldn't get involved...
6. Be more hardworking , no last minute work!!!
7. enjoy every moment
8. At the same time, do everything seriously ,dun chincaichincai...
9. Learn things yourself instead of to wait for the answer...
10. I need to always remember all listed from 1-9...

When we are stucked in a small box, maybe we should take the chance to move out and look for different things, and we will know that there're actually bigger box available; stuck in a small box isn't a bad thing than stuck in a big box afterall~~~

~~See things from different point of view, do not limit yourself to small area and end up miss out certain more meaningful things.

I am a degassed balloon now..

2007-11-27T23:34:00.000Z

There are lots of things which i always hide inside my heart, i never let you know until two days ago.Firstly, i have to say sorry about that, because i hide it from you. Secondly, really thank you for being honest to me.At least i feel much more better after all..But, i don't know how are you now...Cuz i have not been talking to you for two days liao..i say i m not going to contact you, i said it i mean it.

Actually there's nothing much i want, u know, the only thing from last time until now, i am just a normal girl who wanted attention. This question have been raised up so many times. You said i cant tolerate you..i think we must be using different degree of tolerance. I know you are trying hard, me too.

I am sorry if any of my words hurt you before..
I know it's part of my fault also, cuz i know you;re such a busy person since be4, but why am i still wanna complain about it, i think i just need some words from you..which you dunno..nvm ..

Let me make a wish here, if there 's angel in this blog, i hope dark clouds will go away soon and i can see rainbow again!!!=)..if there's no more rainbow, i will still accept it with smile!!Cuz i am yan mei xiang, i can take whatever things!!!! I know i can!!

NB i actually think that bearbear can hear what i said, haha, becuz when i told bearbear" bearbear, can u pls pls let me know ,no matter a call or a msg, i want to know he is safe." not long after that, msg ring liao!!my brilliant bearbear!!haha...i love it a lot!!from inside out..

Heart of Greed

2007-11-08T22:25:00.000Z

Just got some thoughts after i have watched this Hong Kong series..named HEART OF GREED.

This is a really nice series,i will definitely recommend everyone to watch it(i know it's not a new series, but if you haven't watch yet, faster do so)

This story is about a very rich family, they used to lived in harmony and happy life.But, after the big mom passed away, the junior mom starts to do a lot of things because she 's aiming to get the 0.3billions which is half of the husband 's assets. She ruined the happy family and she can even disown her biological child just because of money. However, she's under influence of the other guy who 's aiming of her money because he has got a greed heart.Luckily, at the end , she manage to differentiate who's really treat her as family and who 's doing all good just because of her money.A good ending!!!And, "Quite OK also get together with Sheung zhoi tsam!!yeepee!!!

This series had earned a lot of my tears..because it always remind me of my family, a very happy and big family. I will always remind myself, appreciate my family..they're whole lovely bunch who always support me, if i am tired or hurt , i can always go back and be a little girl of them. I got seven most lovely little creatures from God, they 're my niece and nephews.Although they're naughty and always want me to play the "teacher and student" game with them, although i get annoyed by them when i have to study, although they always fight for something, but i still always love them the most..."xiao gu really love you all and whole family!!"

In this series also, the Sheung zhoi tsam angry at her bf for two years because he got an affairs with her best friend SHui MAKMAK. Throughout the two years after they have broken up, they actually still love each other a lot, but Sheung always don't dare to say the word" i forgive you".However, unfortunately, at the end when she made up her mind to forgive her bf , the bf had an accident and they can no longer get together . So, she keep blaming herself and regrets that she should have forgive him earlier.

I just want to say, if someone ever make us angry until the extent that you can't forgive him/her,try not to put your principle at front to limit yourself when you actually feel like saying"i have forgive you", because you'll never know whether there's always a chance for you to say that.

Still the same thing---cherish whatever we have now,don't take everything as granted.

Secret

2007-11-04T23:04:00.000Z

Today,hmm,an hour ago i have been told a secret by my good fren.
ok, it's the biggest secret i supposed, but , i promised not to tell so i wont tell.I'll keep my words.

Today's topic is secret, i think lots of us will tend to ask this question before we tell someone "SECRET"
"I got a secret to tell you, but you must promise not to tell others ok?"
"because the urge to know is so strong..so faster say okok, no problem..!!!"

But, how many people really do keep the secret?
Just a turn , maybe your secret is no longer a secret ...

But, we need to know the "weight" of that secret...think before you say..
People trusted you so they tell you about their secret, don't ruin yours trustworthiness

So,guys remember to keep the secret when you've promised someone before.

Sometimes, the third party might want to know about the secret, but because you've promised so you don't wanna tell, it's ok..
I suppose the third party will/should understand that you're just keeping your trustworthiness..being a fren or FBI..haha

How much time you have?

2007-11-03T15:21:00.000Z

Yeah, how much of time you have?Maybe i should ask have you spend your time wisely?
I tend to forgot that i should spend my time wisely, when i still have lots of time before certain dateline(example), I will just doing nothing and maybe always left it till last minute and make myself tiring ..
Recently there's email from sports manager from NMS(Nottingham Malaysian Society) said who is interested in playing listed sports pls email them. Of course i emailed him because i wanted to play volleyball.Who knows he said he cant find player to become the captain. Unless i am willing to be the captain, he is more than happy to elect me.I start thinking a lot , wan or not?
Why not ? because i really wanna play, if i graduate liao, i dun have this kind of chance or time to play volleyball...But, third yr is pretty busy , the following three weeks i still have lots lab to do ..is near to the end of semester, i need to prepare for exam ..
BUT i dun think i m capable of being a captain.. i am just a normal player.I am not skilful.
I dunno how, but my ex-teammate told me, appreciate the chance because she 's working now, dun even have the chance to play now.
At the end, i replied the email, told him what i can do and cannot ..if really just need one "
captain" then maybe i will consider.
But, this incident make me start thinking , am i good in time management ? if i really join this game, can i cope with my studies?
I just realised that actually things can be done , it just depend on you, you want or don't want?when you know that you're run out of time, you will start plan your time, and use it wisely and no longer waste any single seconds. HUman can work well under pressure/stress...
When we 're holding something precious, we can't see how precious it is ..we can only know how precious it is when it's going to leave us..
So, we should appreciate everything we have now..

Satisfaction

2007-10-31T23:14:00.000Z

when i was a kid, 10cent used to be very valuble for me, because during that time i can use 10cent to buy 5candy or small pack mamee
If that is 20cent..whua..then i will be more excited because i can use that to buy red bean ice stick..so i always imagine.."hey, jiejie, if i got Rm1 then i can buy how many ice cream..if i got RM10 then i can get what what what..."then jiejie will laugh...
But, as i grow up,this amount of money doesn't make me as excited as i was a kid..maybe now the amount that consider as "whua!!!a lot " is hundred,thousand,million...billion..x infinity...never come to an end where human will say.."ok , stop giving me that much of money, i have enough!!" we always asking for more and more and becoming not easily satisfied with what we have and we had before..this is human..
This thought come up in my mind when i first open my eyes and lying on bed in the morning and know that i was thinking..it means i had woke up..just find it funny, the first thing in my mind in the early morning is this.
"Be satisfied with what you have now,and life will be happier =>"

我还是我

2007-08-28T17:36:00.000+01:00

其实也没什么只是看到一些小弟弟跟小妹妹混在一起。。

很久以前的我也是那样，在别人的眼里我是奇怪的吧？！虽然是第一班但却跟人家眼中的ahbeng ah sing 参在一块，曾听别人说我三八，别人说我变了。。就因为我没照着别人认为对得起方式走。因为在他们的眼里好就得跟好的，坏的就该跟坏的！可是我比谁都清楚我并不坏，我知道什么是该与不该。我总是抱着管别人怎么想的，过着我行我素的我。我还是原来的我，但我不否认人言的确是可畏的！

最讨厌一些不是很懂来龙去脉的人在别人背后乱加盐加醋什么都乱加！！
只是我觉得长大了的我真的变了。。
我在乎以前我不在乎的事
我在意别人的眼光
我不再对打扮自己有很大的兴趣，可能很久以前做了很多现在懒了倦了，但我会改的
我不再我行我素，我必须三思而行，我开始顾及别人的感受所以开始犹豫不决，变成自己受伤
我不再随便笑

虽然有些是好的改变，但不变的是我还是一样的叛逆，还是喜欢自己讲自己笑。。哈哈

我知道我的文章很没有规则，但这就是我。。神经质的颜美湘。。
不喜欢规则，因为规则是人订的，那就能改啊！！！
生平最讨厌别人别人用自己的尺去量别人！！如果每个人都一样那还有什么特别呢？
好啦，随便讲几句也爽，因为我终于可以写华语啦！！！

About cardiff

2007-07-20T22:43:00.000+01:00

I am sorry for ot updating my blog often, i think my "reader" all gone now!!haha..i think this time must be the longest time that i havent sign in to my blog.

Well , for those ppl who're still sleeping now. yes, shiang a.k.a rachel a.k.a may haha...is now in cardiff, wales. This city has got their own language which is wales language( very obvious rite?)haha..let's start the story by turning the time back to 4 weeks ago when i first came to CARDIFF.

Well, not really have good impression towards ppl in Cardiff ( in London also) when we( me and Eelin ) just reached the Heathrow Airport, all the officer might have been in badmood all the day, they don't greet ppl as i thought they supposed to be. While we waiting for the bus to go to Cardiff, i went to buy 586ml of milk for my breakfast, i gave the gal 50pound, she straight away say " I don't have change" after i said i have no other small notes, she then said" can you put the milk back" WTH isn't that her job...hey come on la.. i m customer okay?IS there anything wrong with 50 pounds, not money meh?( i know it's a bit too big note for them , but i still dun think she should ask me to put the milk back !!)....That's fine when we reached Cardiff, of course new ppl dunno their way, dunno must ask ppl , but some of the ppl here seems like scare of us asking them questionslike that, they know taht we want to ask question , but they dun even offer help and just walk away!!!Hey, i wonder did i ever bring Snake with me??!! The ppl here used to look at us at one kind, okay not all, some of them who i met be4!!!

okla..besides talking about the ppl here, let 's look at the weather here....EXcuse me, i thought this season suppose to be summer ?where is my lovely sun,i must be forgot to bring the sun from msia. It's raining everyday, wet everywhere even flooded in somewhere, it's damn cold esp there's wind blowing towards you, it's HORRIBLE Weather!! the weather forecast used to say, " next month which is July will e hotter, i think the forecaster needs to be fire !!i don't see any improvement at all!!

Let's talk about their city's cleaniness, You can see rubbish around, sometimes is quie hard to find a BIN here. Everyday when i walk across the QUeen st towards BOOTS, i will walk pass a lot of cars which is owned by Cleaning Company, they provide the service to clean the carpet, glass, foor...bla bla bla..

The people here have their own language which is quite funny!!
1--> How are you?= oki toki
2-->police=heddlu
3-->Cardiff=Caerdyff(maybe spell wrongly)
4-->follow= dilywch
5-->byebye=she mai

haha..shops here used to close at 5o 'clock but there is time they open till late which is like 8 oclock and it's normally a thursday!!But not friday.

I have no ideas what i can talk about this cardiff..but seriously all bad impression becoming better now i mean as in the people here. I feel better and can adapt to them and understand that not everyone is like that...
"When you have got one basket of beans, i am sure there are some which is bad and of course there 's good one"
ya..i will talk about my placement later in my next post..where i have to repeat the same thing everytime when they buy PAINKILLER!!
" I am sure you aware not to exceed the stated dose.Do not take with other paracetamol-containing products at the same time" " Thank you" " Bye bye, Have a nice day"( although sometimes they might replied it wouldn't be a nice day is raining all the days)

---Edited by rachel at 9.55am 21/7/2007

2007-05-25T14:14:00.000+01:00

男人結婚，是家裡多了一個人；女人結婚，是換了一個家！>>這篇文章寫得好棒喔！可惜男生永遠不懂！>>女孩子的心情，要離開備受呵護的家到另一個陌生的環境去過生活，許多的不適應需要>男孩子去體諒，給已經結婚及即將結婚的夫妻，要互相體諒對方，畢竟老婆老公是要陪>你一起走下半輩子的。可不是老媽跟兒子喔！ >**********************************************************
>> 覺得老婆很詭異，是這一年半的事！按理說 30出頭的年齡，離更年期還有一大段距離，>可是我親愛的老婆卻在短短的一年半間，從婚前那個天真可愛、無憂無慮的小天使，逐>漸墮入紅塵。

>>很難想像每晚躺在我身邊，盡說一些吹毛求疵、雞毛蒜皮、無聊小事的，竟然是同一個>人。我開始後悔，人家說女人都是很擅於偽裝的。>>婚前看鬼片絕對會緊緊抱住你的手臂，眨著無邪的大眼睛，嬌滴滴的望著你：「人家好>怕 ~~ 」這時候你的心頭一震，心底不停吶喊：「寶貝，為了妳，我命都可以不要！」>你傻傻立誓，要去保護身邊這個小女孩，曾幾何時她已經可以在豬肉攤子面前，毫不畏>懼、絕不羞慚的為那一塊兩毛錢跟老闆吵得面紅耳赤、口沫橫飛。我真的後悔!

>>婚前死黨都羨慕我，身邊的女人可愛貼心、大方得體，帶著她出門總讓我沾沾自喜，不 >只一次在午夜夢迴時，偷偷跟上帝感謝，賜給我這麼一個完美無缺、世間少有的心肝寶>貝！自從親愛的老婆答應跟我交往的一刻開始，我終於體認到甚麼才算是「作夢也會>笑」！

>>「你管管你老婆好不好，天天窩在房間裡，幹嘛啊！客廳有鬼啊！要躲就躲到尼姑庵>嘛。」
>>「不想回家就說啦！何必天天在外面混到天都黑才回來，我一把年紀了，想找個人煮煮 >飯、掃掃地都還要看人臉色。唉，了然哦！」
>>「大嫂又忘了洗我的襯衫！人家明天要穿去聽音樂會的耶，她很奇怪ㄟ！」
>>我這個親愛的老婆實在是不怎麼識大體，連連得罪老媽、老姐和老妹。我白天上班已經 >夠煩夠累的了，她還給我搞一些莫名其妙的飛機，今天再不給她一點顏色看看，她就愈>來愈無法無天了！

>>怒火已經衝到腦門的我，踢開房門就破口大罵：「拜託妳也幫幫忙，哪家的媳婦不是對>婆婆低聲下氣的，都甚麼時候了還裝大小姐…… 」>>老實說，話說出口我是挺懊悔的，尤其是最後那一句回馬槍，殺傷指數應該不淺。我不>說話，等老婆反應。過了半個世紀那麼久，老婆還是低頭沉默，我暗自慶幸躲過一劫，>免去一場無妄之災。

>>老婆很少起床煮早餐的，因為她很愛睡，婚前我就知道。她每天總要睡足八小時才會精>神飽滿，所以通常都是我幾乎出門的時候，她就會頂著鳥窩頭，揉著張不開的眼睛跟我>說聲再見，接著就去梳洗更衣。關於這一點我是沒甚麼怨言的，反正婚前也都是去巷口>買個漢堡填肚子，婚後再去光顧巷口的早餐店也沒甚麼不好。>>老媽跟我唸了很多遍，她覺得身為老婆就是要幫先生打點三餐，偶而剛睡醒的老婆也會>正好碰到老媽邊上香邊碎碎念，可能是還沒睡醒的緣故，她通常都是抓抓她的鳥窩頭，>快步經過去梳洗。 >>反正也不關我的事，所以我就裝做沒聽到，快快出門。歷史事件告訴我，捲入女人的戰>爭通常都不能全身而退。今天早上，我按下鬧鐘不情願的爬起床，啊！老婆不見了？昨>天沒聽說她早上要開會？不對，昨天一回家我就給她下馬威了，她沒機會跟我說。應該>開會去了吧，我想。差不多準備出門，到書桌上抓了兩個銅板去買漢堡。

>>ㄟ …. 有張紙條。「我只想要做回自己。」老婆最近迷上劉墉？沒事寫了這麼一句深奧>的句子。我有點摸不著頭腦，先別管了，上班去吧！>>發現情況不對，是當天晚上。12 點了，老婆還沒回家，一通電話也沒有。我試著撥她的>手機，沒開機，這種事情沒發生過。好啊！八成是上演離家出走回娘家了。算了，想想>昨天自己也有錯，讓她休息一天透透氣吧。我鑽進被窩，少了老婆的被窩，好像有點>冷。 >>一晚、兩晚，已經第五晚了，老婆真的不見了！今天晚上翻了好久，就是找不到那件白>色襯衫，看在明天跟大老闆開會不能失禮的份上，我決定不再鬥氣。撥了通電話去岳父>家。「阿光啊，小菁今天沒過來吃飯，她是不是跟朋友出去？你打她手機好了，對了！>順便告訴她上禮拜她叫我買的那捲毛線買到了，有空過來拿吧！」

>>岳母演得很逼真，看不出有私藏愛女的跡象，不過我也不是那麼傻的，岳母是婦女聯誼>會會長，見過的大場面足以讓她演起任何角色都遊刃有餘。>>我騎著我的的三冠王決定直搗黃龍，老婆我哄過不下百次，這種小事難不了我。>>「阿光，你怎麼來了？拿毛線喔？小菁回家沒？」看著岳母慈祥的臉，我為自己的多疑>感到有點慚愧，不過我的目光還是在岳父家掃射了一遍。情況不對，一點都不像是個共>犯的窩，我不得已的老實說明了我的來意，岳父岳母眉頭皺著，「小菁這孩子，就是跟>?琱@ 個性子。」岳父打破沉默，撥了通電話給小舅子 ……「姐在洗澡啦！她叫我不要說 >ㄝ。。。」果然是姐弟情深，兩個人從結婚前就很 "麻吉 "，現在逃難也逃到小舅子>家。>>岳父看我既然來了，抓著我一起喝兩杯，順便安慰我一番。喝得三分醉意的我，好像也>不太適合騎車回去，所以岳母叫我留著過夜，心想反正很近，明天早點起來再回去洗澡>好了。>>啊… 溫布頓網球公開賽要開始了！我盯著茶几上的遙控器，看著岳母全神貫注的盯著螢 >幕，就是開不了口要把這台怪里怪氣的古裝劇轉掉。如果在家裡，這種穿得五顏六色、>沒啥歷史根據的古裝鬧劇，早就被我罵得體無完膚，我老媽為了捍衛她的個人品味，每>次都會跟我翻臉，甚至差點掀桌。不過，誰叫我是她兒子呢！吵過以後最後勝利的還是>我，搶到遙控器的主導權，繼續上演母慈子孝的場面，電視機前又再共享天倫樂。

>>雖然岳母對我很好，可是女婿總是要有點分寸，我帶著錐心之痛告別我的溫布頓，走進>了老婆婚前的房間。牆上的她笑得好開心，眼睛彎彎的像月亮一樣，我忘了有多久沒見>過她這樣的笑。 >>我躺在床上，開始想不通，為甚麼我會不敢開口說要看溫布頓，我不是都這麼跟老媽吵>的嗎？岳母把我當兒子，我理所當然可以做出一般兒子會做的事。我乾笑了一下，自己>還真傻，老媽揍完我可以像沒事發生。換作是岳母，只要隨便說我兩句，我不尷尬到死>才怪呢！>>那，親愛的老婆呢？我想起了她，她怎麼可以這麼祥和的存活在我家？>>如果跟岳母比起來，我老媽應該算是嚴謹得多，對於親愛老婆的一言一行無不關心。 >>活潑的老婆在家裡不能蹦蹦跳跳，害怕顯得不夠莊重。 >>安靜的待在房間看書，又有不合群的嫌疑。加班太晚回家，被歸咎於不想煮晚飯。>>假日跟朋友出去，擔心冷落我的家人。

>>婚前瘋迷日劇的她，已經好久沒出現在客廳電視前。 >>假日補眠的習慣，被一家六口的髒衣服喚醒。>>由於對哥兒們的阿沙力，婚前婚後的我一直都是月光族，每逢30 號就得向老婆伸手要 >錢，其實我的錢除了每個月給老媽的家用以外，剩下的全是自己的交際費。有時候覺得>老婆挺了不起的，薪水沒比我高，每個月的儲蓄保險繳完以後，竟然還有餘錢可以救濟>入不敷出的老公。突然間，我好像漸漸明白，老婆在豬肉攤前死命掙扎的一塊兩毛錢，>對於我的重大意義。>>我開始覺得愧疚，到底，這一年半，我給老婆過的是甚麼樣的生活？

>>我試著理出頭緒，這有點像樁懸案，熱愛偵探小說的我，竟然找不出兇手！老媽沒有>錯！ >>隔壁三樓的陳媽媽總是三不五時的指著老媽說：「哪有人像妳這麼歹命的，媳婦娶回來>就是要給她操，麥歹勢啦！」>>想想老媽是上一代的人，看著陳媽媽沒上班的媳婦，天天提個菜籃買菜做飯，當然心生> 羨慕。對於常常晚歸的老婆，怎麼會有好臉色？更不可能會想到，可憐的老婆也不過是>為了家裡的經濟在出力。>>老姐、老妹也不像有錯！她們也總是莫名其妙的對我評頭論足，尤其老姐對於我的屌而>啷噹，更是搬出了黃帝開國以來最狠毒的話：「三十幾歲了，還不長腦，天天就知道吃>喝玩樂，真不是男人，去當太監算了！」>>這些尖酸刻薄的話，跟形容親愛的老婆應該住到尼姑庵比起來，好像更加具有爆發力。>不過打死不離親兄弟，被炮轟連攻擊的我，最後還是嘻皮笑臉的跟老姐、老妹對著「我>猜」裡的吳宗憲縱聲狂笑。

>>只是，親愛的老婆似乎沒這麼幸運，老姐、老妹的話在她心底慢慢沉澱，她也只能乖乖>接受。>>至於我親愛的老婆，更加沒有錯！>>婚前沒受過半點委屈的她，面對我家族的龐大勢力，也可以像水過無痕一樣，默默承>受，茹苦含莘。>>有主見的她，在面對每事必躬親的老媽，總是微笑點頭，頻頻稱是。>>即使生活習慣跟我家可謂南轅北轍，結婚一年半以來，除了偶爾兩三句怨言掛在嘴邊，>行為上也總是全力配合。>>婚前開朗愛玩的她，自從嫁給我以後，好像沒遠離過桃園以北，結婚對她的意義，果然>很像住到尼姑庵。>>我又發現老姐說得很對！原來，兇手就是我！像我這種人不去當太監，真是太糟蹋我親> 愛的老婆了！>>我開始覺得懊悔、慚愧、內疚、自責 …… >>如果我可以多聽聽老婆的內心話，不是漠不關心…… >>如果我可以充當老媽和老婆間的潤滑劑，不是逃之夭夭…… >>如果我可以適時制止老姐、老妹的咄咄逼人，不是冷眼旁觀…… >>那麼，我最最最…… 最親愛的老婆，就可以活得更像自己…

>>當認命的我躺在鍘刀之下，準備就地正法之際，天外飛來一句「刀下留人」，看來兇手>雖然罪該萬死，可是冤案似乎還有內情。>> 換上革命先烈們不可或缺的中山裝，我捲起衣袖，右手奮力高舉激憤的吶喊：「是時代 >的錯！是制度的錯！」>>兩種生活習慣完全不同的人，硬是被擠在一個狹小的空間裡，摩擦怎麼能免？>>最慘的是，親愛的老婆在大家眼裡，畢竟是半個外人，爭執想要雨過就可以天晴，似乎>異想天開。

>>經過在岳父家漫長沈思了一晚，我終於找出問題的癥結。騎著我的三冠王，這是近一年>來首次接老婆下班，回想婚前總是等不及下班飆去陪老婆吃飯的我，又一次心生愧疚。>>在老婆公司樓下等了一會，看看手錶八點半了，老婆應該要下來了吧！才剛想完，看起>來很疲憊的老婆步出大門沒看到我，繼續往公車站走去。>>我緩緩的跟在後面，盯著老婆的背影，開始為老婆覺得難過，到底在我天天喊累喊煩的>同時，老婆又比我輕鬆多少？ >>如果我不是在大街上，眼淚可能已經掉下來了。啊！發甚麼呆，老婆要上公車了！我大>步擋在老婆面前，親愛的老婆顯然是嚇傻了，楞楞的看著我。這種眼神在我Ｎ年前出現>老婆家門口，抱著一大束玫瑰給老婆生日驚喜的時候見過。

>>老婆果真受到巨大驚嚇，一句話都說不出來…我深深的吸了一口氣，用前所未有的堅定>語氣 ………>>「做回妳自己吧！我們去找屬於兩個人的小窩。」透明閃爍珍珠般的淚滴，從老婆的眼>睛裡掉了出來，我心一驚… 老婆笑了！笑得好無邪、好可愛！我的小女孩終於回來了！ >>可以腦筋轉彎的男生或是將心比心的男生是少還是多呢？我想都要憑運氣吧！>>女生們！眼睛張大一點喔！>>真的，兩人的關係，要靠兩顆心去經營，不然感情再好的情侶終究還是會分開，沒有誰>對誰錯。>>只是兩個人看不透是自己改變了對方而不自知罷了！

NB Copied from one of the email i received from my friend. I think it's quite true. If you're a guy, then you can understand how your future wife's feelings better.

updated version story of jj and i ..

2007-04-07T13:30:00.000+01:00

Due to my fren's demand so i m now sitting in front of laptop and enter some stuff to my blog.=)
Ytd 6/4/2007 was my first date with him.How could we not meet each other for two weeks for couple who have just started a new relationship, very weird rite? cuz he is busy with his stuff and when he is free, i will go back hometown.hehe..oka..whatever at least we manage to meet up and have real fun !!
~i like it when u already planned where to bring me for lunch, such a nice place.give u four stars..hehe..Ok..that is my first time.

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ytd again haha..is 12/4 , our second date..someone asked me out as compensation. (is really funny when i read ur msg...)i have to make appointment with him first. Cuz, he is busy and busy..okla..watever.but, i cannot complain too much la..cuz i will be damn busy also for coming weeks..

jj, actually i really glad that u can understand me for not going out during my study break.( actually he suggest first, cuz someone really worry that he might affect my studies, =p u got so big influence meh?..haha)..

someone also promise to treat me like princess during the last month be4 go uk. okla..i know our fate..is really up to you to decide. i understand what u said after u told me ur story.but, i just hope that we can try be4 giving up. hope u wont regret in the future. i will just go away from you because u decided it, u might not able to get me back, u know it. No second chance given.Again, no angry but just disappointed. anyway, i do understand our situation and i will accept it la..i will be fine , dun worry =>

if the couple can go thru all the long distance obstacles, this mean that they're meant to be together.isn't it?

okla..dun think so much but just appreciate the time we left.

and today is my uni's prom night, hmm...dunno how to describe the feelings but this is the first time i bringing someone with me..hehe...

okla..i shall go back and do whatever i supposed to do. see u guys in prom night!!

2007-03-31T07:56:00.000+01:00

hello..everyone!!! i am actually quite surprised when i know tat so many ppl actually leave me comments.(cuz normally one or two only ,so sad:( )heeh..maybe most ppl like prefer good news rather than sad stories gua.

ya..btw, apologized for have been bored u all with all the sad stories. ( i'm no longer MONA LISA)..sorry sorry..=>

thanks for all the wishes i get from all of you. sweet *-*

hng..someone go play basketball until no time to "entertain" me..This just show how important am i compared to a basketball !!!hng hng ...jealous a ball so stupid...hehe...but, i m just kidding la.i din tell u first so is not ur fault. But, luckily someone send msg to 'tam " me back..so sweet when i read the msg on 6 something in the morning. ~~cute bb sleeping~~

hmm...only left two months in m'sia..i got exam in another one month(die la ..i havent start studying)..which also mean that i left around one month to spend with u ... :(

okla..i should go back and do my dissertation first!!i hate using computer to draw diagram..so memafankan.

Goodbye to single life

2007-03-27T17:58:00.000+01:00

Firstly, i got a good news to share here...i had say goodbye to my single life..hooray!!!i have finally found someone who sayang me a lot...hehe..i have never stop smiling since that day u told me everything...!!!when i think of it now..i still cannot stop smiling.

I know it's quite shock for most of you, because i never mention about him in front of you guys.This is because u guys dunno him ma, ( i did mentioned him in front of eelin ok?)and even myself also never expect it to be happen..it's too fast ..until i feel like i 'm dreaming..
It's like this one, tat day i met him in msn, but i m too sleepy liao..and i told him i wanna offline.before he reply , i already offline.so he send me a msg...and all the story started..okla..not going to tell all the details here later someone paisei again...okla..just one word to describe...is SWEET...!!!!tat time is 1 something in the morning, after he told me everything, i couldn't sleep liao..become too excited...and i start scolding him (in my heart la).."say this kind of thing to me when i m so tired..and now make me cannot sleep liao..so bad..(but i m actually smilling)"hee...then i wake up again at 6 something with smile on my face again..(so i think u guys can feel the sweet i felt rite?)

Btw, he said i m a VERY MANJA gf..but i like to manja to him..haha..he knows i m just playing with him..so he always let me win and say okok!!!hehe...

Although u always say u're such a lucky guy because u can get me..but i'm lucky too..i know u're someone who will sayang me.. dun ask me why?i just believe so..=)..sometimes i purposely bully u cuz i just want u to appreciate me more...hehe..

koko suddenly become bf ..i know is such a big transition..i understand..i know u need time to get use to it..me too..i have been single all these while..is quite weird tat someone else actually beside me ...i will get use to it..dun worry..

"I' m hapee when i see u hapee.." this is powerful sentence!!!
"when i think of the way u smile , i feel like smiling too!""hehe..sweet*

I dunno how we going to survive in long distance relationship, but , i trust myself and i believe u.i think tat's enough.isn't it? Btw, dun worry tat u will affect my studies.. i will definitely work much more harder to compensate 3 months tat i used up to play...i will definitely work harder to prove you tat U WONT AFFECT MY STUDIES!!!

tat's all for today..sorry if i was too happy..i just cant hide my feelings..hehe..should be more sweet stories coming..i know "they" are on their way towards me!!!haha..

wait..my sis said"finally u're sold"but she is joking la..
kee yang said finally got ppl want u ar?hng....(hope i din hurt u ..:( )
mayni said..who is the lucky guy??
stupid kim fong said "good la..i less one enemy liao(according to her, gal population is more than guy population)
my pharmacy gang ??they said too many things liao..haha...but i know they 're happy for me too
haha...end,...true end.

pic session

2007-03-25T07:35:00.000+01:00

whua..it's quite some time i haven't put any new pic for my blog..ok..let's start.

This pic is taken when i was driving back to my hometown, lovely tgk, on 16 march.(i know it 's quite long time ago)But, i purposely took it to show how difficult to drive in heavy rain..It's very hard to see where is the car in front of me.I am actually wearing sunglasses, it really makes me easier to find out where is the car in front.If i took it off, what i saw will be all white colour(description la..of course got dark colours of trees)PLs, i am not a dangerous driver, snap two pics doesn't take me lots of time, it probably just take me 3secs. I am damn sleepy tat afternoon,somemore cannot drive fast, this journey took me more than 2 hours to reach home ya!!damn slow le...

we're not SHE.haha..let me introduce first.the one on ur left is dion(crazy fren),on ur right is mayni(my cousin), the one in the middle (of course is me la, who else somemore).

when three of us together, omg, we can shake the planet!!!sound of laughter never stops...becuz we 're crazy and something wrong with our brain.we talk nonsense that only we can understand.when i just reach the place and see both of them, i became so excited and starts talk non-stop until my fren sittting at 3m away from me send me a msg"hey..ur voice very loud le, my bro say ur voice very dahsyat(am i spell it correctly?)..oh..we went to ying ying's wedding dinner. she is actually one year younger than us.but, u know accident happened easily.=)

This is second trial actually.can u see what i trying to do on her face?haha..I m trying to kiss her but until halfway i cannot tahan liao..feel like laughing at what we doing...we do all these things as though there 's only us there...hey ..so many people around still do this thing..dont u feel paisei one meh?a bit la..tat's y i laugh ma..Btw, congrates to dion!! she has got second baby liao..congrates!!!really hardworking o!!!haha

trying to act cute....

wuei..mayni dun punch me!!!help ar!!!haha... i m gonna miss u guys...who is going to talk nonsense with me in UK??who is going to talk stupid things to make me laugh???look at mayni's fringe..according to her hair stylist, this is very "heng" in hong kong now.

we're really enjoy in taking pic..

hey..where is the pic of ying ying(the bride)?

haha okok..on the way...

This is ying ying!!!!a very funny person also..always say herself is prettier than me..okla..let you win since u;re the star of the night!!haha..okla..actually she is prettier...she is my cousin 's daughter...but my cousin had passed away long long time ago..

This is irene beside me...she is the fren who send me a msg and remind me my voice is loud..haha..i know u're busy but pls dun forget to relax urself..be urself..kim fong(her chinese name) is not like this....cheerss...!!i know study is important but at the meanwhile...do play !!!we're not born to study everyday!!!btw, i really enjoy the conversation on the way back to kl...

okla..tat's all ..i always lose my image when i'm together with them..because i m too excited!!(i know u all want to say since when i got image one!!)haha..i knew it!!

Even though i couldn't make to meet u guys so often..but believe me,i have never forget u all..i miss and appreciate every moments we spent together!!!Hope nothing will change after i go UK.

BIg eyes gal....jia you!!!rocksssss

stress

2007-03-23T16:53:00.000Z

一位講師於壓力管理的課堂上拿起一杯水，

然後問聽眾說：「各位認為這杯水有多重？」

聽眾有的說20公克，有的說500公克不等。

講師則說：「這杯水的重量並不重要，重要的是你能拿多久？

拿一分鐘，各位一定覺得沒問題；

拿一個小時，可能覺得手酸；

拿一天，可能得叫救護車了。

其實這杯水的重量是一樣的，但是你若拿越久，就覺得越沉重。

這就像我們承擔著壓力一樣，如果我們一直把壓力放在身上，

不管時間長短，到最後我們就覺得壓力越來越沉重而無法承擔。

我們必須做的是，放下這杯水休息一下後再拿起這杯水，如此我們才能夠拿的更久。

所以，各位應該將承擔的壓力於一段時間後適時的放下並好好的休息一下，然後再重新拿起來，如此才可承擔久遠。」

這就像我們於職場上一樣，我們應該將工作上的壓力於下班時放下而別帶回家了，

回家後是應該好好的休息，明天再重新拿起這壓力，如此我們就不會覺得壓力的沉重了。

This is taken from http://articles86.blogspot.com ,recommended by my fren,yee jie,it's a very nice article indeed if u can read chinese.Pls enjoy reading it and remember to practice it in your life. Life would be easier if you can be the owner of yourself.

(insect+ animal) vs human

2007-03-17T06:49:00.000Z

i wanted to write about this long time ago...i got the ideas when i was sitting down on the floor and reading Rang and Dale...
That night, when i was reading, suddenly there is one small insect fly to my book,so as a normal human being, i tried to chase them away, i choose to blow it away. It then blow away as i wish n drop onto the floor. I tot if i din kill it is considered as quite kind to it already, who knows it's just a light blow can bring it into trouble.My "kind" blow make it cannot fly anymore, i can see how it tries so hard to stand back ..it tries and tries..sometimes it fails..but it still keep trying....i feel so sorry that time..and it remind me a lot of things...
Sometimes, i really worry a lot for something that i havent try yet...or when i try and meet disaster i will start feel sad and feel like giving up ...But, look at the small creatures ,do they have brain which human beings proud of ?can they speak the language that we speak?No..But,they still know that they should try and never give up...i feel so ashame that moment..so everyone pls remember not to give up so easily but face whatever obstacle blocking your way bravely and be confident to yourself and say "I CAN DO IT"
This week,on the way back from uni , i have seen a lot of dead bodies of animal...dogs which is known as good fren of human. "They " just lying down there by the roadside, and after many days past, still, nobody will collect them... they must have been bang by some cars...I am sure all of you have seen this kind of dead bodies very often...how come ???because there is no law stated that "YOU 'LL BE IN TROUBLE IF U BANG AN ANIMAL"...So, anyone who "accidentally " bang some animals, they can still very relaxing, reverse and drive away....no reports needed .nobody say u'll be jailed.So we will see this kind of cases happen again and again. sad but it's truth..if there is a court main for animal, i think a lot of ppl will be in trouble. i am not trying to say human are cold blooded, but just be careful when u drive...Don't make this mistake again n again..( i have bang one bird before.my fren told me that i dun have to avoid birds .because they will fly away when they see cars..so i just drive thru, who knows one of the unlucky bird dies after i drove thru them...i m sorry..but i promise..i wouldn't do it anymore.)
They 're living creatures in this earth too...we got no right to take away their lives, no right to destroy their habitat, no way to sell them or have them as our pet just because WE LIKE. We have no right to do so, human used to mention about human right, some ppl might even fight to court because to save their right, but, anybody can tell me why there is no ANIMAL RIGHT???Don't kill them just because they 're tasty!!( i know it's very contradict when i am an omnivour,i am trying to avoid meat) haih...but can we just give some love to these creatures. we really have no right to take away their lives just because we like...it's definitely unfair.!!!
Some ppl will say why am i so stupid donate money to WWF, duan save human but save animals. what's wrong ??why cant i save them ?Unless u can show me the proof tat human are all nice ppl and is not harmful. Sometimes human are more dangerous than animals.
Ghosts are scary ..but humans are much much more scary....

p/s: this is just my own opinion..no offence..=)

when u're trying to hurt any small insects or animals..pls remember and imagine, will u like it if others do this to you...if the answer is no, then pls stop it. Thanks so much...no matter is insects, animals or humans...whatever categories they are, whenever u 're trying to hurt someone else other than urself , pls think of others , think about how would they feel, but not care about urself only. I hope that selfish, cold-blooded ppl will get extinct one day.

results..+..leaving soon..

2007-02-09T03:37:00.000Z

Just reached home 20mins ago.
Got my results,what an unexpected results.I am satisfied with my results with all pass.I said unexpected because the paper i score the highest is chemistry. Although kind of happy when i received my results, but i met my tutor, he mentioned the matter about my english.He said that if i want improvement , i can go for the english support in my uni.According to him, he knows tat i understand the things,but because of poor grammar, i might not able to write out exactly the things i want to say.It might be one of my problems when i m in uk, cuz when they have to mark for 200 over papers , they might wont spend much time on such a difficult to understand paper.
Dr.D i know what you meant, i still remember how u trying to tell me in a better way. Actually i m fine with it.I know my weakness. I am sure english wont be my problem anymore one day in the future. To all my lecturers...thanks for all the things taught..appreciate them a lot. HUgs....=)
hey..everyone..i have to leave on 25th of june..quite sad when i know that i have to leave that early...which means that i have to leave in another 4 months ++..:(..which also means tat i will only work till august..after that no more(of course have to find new job la)..how am i going to celebrate my 21st birthday?..:)

hello..georgement!!welcome to my blog !!hehe..dun have find la..nothing bad about you!!:P

mix 2

2007-02-01T14:22:00.000Z

Are u wondering why i always got a mix feelings?I want to know why too,there are too much of things to appear in my mind.

Although still not sure whether i m leaving on june/july/aug,but one thing for sure, i m gonna leave soon.Maybe those of you who went oversea be4 might say "aiya, nothing to worry one la".But, still lots of things here make me feel so reluctant to leave.On the another half of me, i know that i must go..go to somewhere new,with different cultures,different language,or maybe different size of ppl.(=>)Two years ago, i was so keen to go oversea, i must go,i want to try a different life,learn different things...be more independent.But, when the moment come,omg.....my eyes nearly "flooded".

I have got cardiff for my summer placement.Very lucky of me get the same place as eelin.o not I cant imagine how am i going to start a new environment myself.Heard that they might even send you to department other than pharmacy department .Hey!!whoever in charge of us in the coming months, YOU better dun put me in department other than pharmacy!!i duan sell perfume..or bla bla bla...kill you!!

~~~
why must you keep talking about this...i really dunno how to help you.I have no right ,or chance..i can only keep quiet.Sorry about that.what i want is to see you happy,i really dunno how.....but i know there will be solution at the end.I duan to see all these...i want a peaceful moment.
~~~
end..

i m human!!

2006-12-11T14:34:00.000Z

i have changed the font to verdana.
Our life is full with ups and downs, i think god wants to challenge us ,wants us become stonger,that's y we are meant to have all these.
Having ups and downs during this weekend,sometimes i am fine but there was times when i was so emo and thinks negatively.(i hate myself the most when i m down!!)
But, i kind of understand the nature of the things happened on us, maybe we will be very angry or nervous for certain things at certain time,but after we passed the "certain" time , the matter which seems like unsolvable at the beginning just suddenly become "small matter" after all.
So, no matter what challenges , obstacles u met, just be calm to welcome it.It will become ur useful experience so that u can handle it better next time.
~zhi zu chang le~~~

terrible day

2006-11-29T11:59:00.000Z

i woke up early as usual, prepared for swimming , i tot i packed everythings i need, but,who knows until i go uni only i start realising i forgot to bring my towel, shampoo, sport shoes(today got lab)!Dunno how many shit i need to say!!

But, luckily,thanks so much to huixin for her kindness to borrow me her towel.Thanks to eelin who actually left her shoes in my car ,maybe she already knows tat i will forget to bring my shoes today.And of course you, Joanne, pity her for becoming my coach, of someone who really dunno how to swim.hey, she did swim okay(without swim suit)Have you heard of people having dry swimming ?ya. she is joanne!Because she have to show me the way to move my hands.

today's swimming lesson at least better than last time lo, at least i don't feel sad with myself.

~~~

WHY MUST YOU MAKE PEOPLE WAIT!!!!!!Somemore for about 1 hour!!can you pls inform me first when u 're not free?So that i dun have to wait there like so po!!

(eelin,ice water is not enough to cool me down , i need one full tank of ice water!!)

my advice :~~Don't promise others that u can make it which u at the end forget or cannot make it . Cuz u wont know how disappointed will the person feel.

xiao sheng, know tat u wont read my blog one,but still want to say that "I'm touched !really !!when u actually said want buy me medicine when is already 4 something in the morning."okay, i will fight with u lesser!!haha..but only when u say i m thin!!cuz he always say that i am fat!! am i ?okay la..admit it la, i m actually fatter than last time but the kg still almost the same.

Dun feel like studying when down.I just don't understand why must i choose this course which i must study a lot and better tat u can study everyday, or not u will be suffer when exam is near .

**@3#%

photosssssss

2006-11-18T16:07:00.000Z

Firstly , sorry for forgot to thanks jin in my last post.Thanks to jin who always said that gals got better stamina than him.haha...
As i promised , now is the time to look at how dangerous is Gunung Ledang.How successfully we actually conquer it!!!!!

This is a pic of us where we just get to know each other.The place is where we had our lunch.Everyone can still laugh happily here, cuz we still dunno how much of difficulty we going to meet later.....

on the way up ........see.. guys still have to carry the stick and tents along with them,actually pity u guys but u guys know la..i couldn't help....the bag itself is a big burden for me..

Before we started to hike.This is a complete photo of group 7 where every members are here.Let me introduce them, from left to right:ken,shen,hong yang(back),shino,chenna,jin(back),shu yi,Ali(back),ME,hwee yin, yan leng , and the very geng vincent tanes(president of outdoor club)

Nice pic of GUnung ledang .Obviously is not i took one,u know la...i dun have good skills in taking pic.whos hand is that ??All the rocks seems like lying down and having natural spa.

Here is another pic of group 7.although my eyes couldn't open properly here but still wanna post this pic which it's the only pic to prove that we were on the TOP of GUnung Ledang after spending roughly 6 hours (when others were having their sweet dream on their comfortable bed but what we did??we were hiking in the dark!!!!!We are best !! Group 7 rocksssss!!

can u actually imagine how steep is it ? I couldn't believe still where is the energy or motivation come from to make me go thru all these"obstacles"--->tough and dangerous!!

The stupid gal is on her way of going down..The stupid gal is me.At that moment , what is in mind is totally reminding myself to be careful and hold the ladder as tightly as possible.Until tat moment only i knew tat how precious is our life...and u will started to appreciate what u have and had..

Because we are always the last group to leave so we use our time wisely to take pic !! after finish packing, with my poncho on.
My semangat come back again when i knew tat finally we can go back liao!! Finally , i can leave the torturous place..

No matter how sleepy am i now, i still wanna post up this photo cuz it makes me laugh whenever i see it . hey..I jump the highest ! actually it's because others was just ready to jump , look at their action! because i m the one who counts so i jump first lo.haha....look at my face then u will know how happy i am at that time..

okla..i keep mentioning this trip is suffering or bla bla..but if u read my last blog then u will know tat my mind had changed after i came back from there......it's worth it .ya..group 7 members still keep in touch , we went to kajang eat satay!! we are always so semangat!! haha.......it's nice to get to know u guys !

my thoughts..

2006-11-09T10:47:00.000Z

Went to Gunung Ledang last weekend, which is situated in my hometown, Tangkak.What a nightmare for me at that moment,really feel like wanna give up already,with only one hour of sleep(my source of energy),and half way hungry,and only 3L of water for 12 members ,very obvious that it is not enough so we have to drink river water.we started to hike from 1am at the midnight,all the way to the summit just to see what a failed type of sunrise,because covered by cloud.All together we had spent about18 hours for hiking throughout this hiking trip organised by outdoor club in my uni.

Different motivation come into place when climb up and down.when we climb up,"we want to see sunrise!!"; on the way coming down,it is damn scary, i still remember how my hands and legs shaking after come down thru a big rock with only rope to hold.(But,i still manage to take pic)aha...on the way coming down, even myself cant believe that i had actually reached the summit.I really can do it !!someone with asthma history .

okla..my group members are all nice ppl, i am glad that i m in their group.Thanks to everyone.Thanks to Hong Yang who helps me to carry my damn heavy bag when we climb up the mountain.I was so touched.Because it is really a big burden for me , i cant really move with it .it really makes my shoulder "cry".
Thanks to Ken who always give me a hand to pull me up and whacked me three times.haha..I still remember there is once when he tells us to be careful of the root,but after he said and turn , he then knock on the tree branch.haha,...must be very pain.
Thanks to Hwee yin who always push my butt from down with both of her hands ..haha..no more la..she touched all my butt liao..haha...
Thanks to shen who give me a hand when we need to cross the river.
Thanks to yan leng who always help me to see ..see what le ?duan tell..haha..
Thanks to shuyi who actually got blister on her foot so that i am not the slowest...haha..nola...just jk la...she helps me to shine the road when my torch light run out of battery.
Thanks to shino who leads me the way so that i know which route is easier to follow.
Thanks to chenna who teaches us how to pronounce 007 in thai."xian xian cha"
Thanks to Ali who always give me the way so that i can walk first instead of being the last.
and last but not least, our president,our group leader also,eng siong,who helps us a lot, lend his poncho (raincoat ) to me and then he became wet "thoroughly".He always motivate us by using"faster, do you want water?it's near now!" "faster, if u wanna see the sunrise!" we 're going to reach soon!!"
okla..praise u a bit here, u are really geng, i think u will be proud when u hear how pharmacy gal actually prasing you in the class.no wonder u are king scout!!!

okla , i admit that i always complain a lot along the way for have to hike for non-stop(seems non-stop to me)to the summit and being such a weak person in our group .I said that the most regret decision i ever made is decided to go for this trip. But, i just say only la, now i recall back, it's all worth it with all the sweet memories!!What a unforgetable experience i ever had!!!Now, i can proudly tell my fren that i have successfully conquer the GUnung Ledang!! and Yeah ,,I actually can do it!!!! i am damn proud of myself !

What i get from this trip is all muscle pain and being a disabled person for four days.Now in the progress of recovering.Nobody will understand how we suffered if only u went there too..

okla.. later on only i upload the pic i took there.
dinner..

small gathering with "perdanian"

2006-10-27T18:12:00.000+01:00

It' s really a small gathering,raining quite heavily but we still carry on our original plan, no matter how heavy is the rain , we still want to yam cha.which i start realising not everyone so enthusiastic wanna yam cha with old frens one lo...some can be forgive but some excuses were so unacceptable.(bao fern how can you prefer to play game instead of yam cha with us ?damn sad man!!)
Ya, i should have know that ppl have different thinking way, for me , fren is always important.

My ex-monitor, heng suan , he is damn funny , even a small or simple words can make me laugh .I was blocking his way when all of us running from car , " walk faster la!"See, very simple words rite? But, it sounds funny for me.Hey..last time he quite quiet person, but dunno why tonight so talkative and surprising us with those yellow words which is unexpected to hear from him. hey, ur UM frens really affect you a lot .

SEah--one good news from him is ,,,oour ah seah got girl fren already,damn fast man.(Spread the news!!)sobs....he said i am fat, is very obvious compared to last time, according to him ,i was very thin last time(once a while only actually , that is when i was wearing braces which had make me reject all the foods, no matter how nice they were, but all of them seem troublesome & painful for me, cuz they will stuck in my teeth which i hate it the most !!)

Suling -- long time no see fren, wish that happiness will always be with you.

Ping hwa--this guy ar, dunno why tonight so quiet, may be he exchange his role with heng suan, or another reason might be , juan yong havent teach him the tactic to go after girl., tat's y he sad. so, juan yong, dun be stingy , teach him a bit la.

juan yong--this one ar really long time no see man, everytime calls him , he will say ""okok, next time find you when i go back!!"" But, he never do that lo.He owned a lot of aeroplane , i guess.FInally, get to see how does his gf look like(pls dun scold me at home!!)haha...oh..ya teach ping hwa when you free so that he dun have to be alone all the time.

fang--will tell you more about her later, she is my buddy!!anything happened on me ,happy or sad,share with her is a must-do-thing for me. Happy to know you and being close fren with you, really!!:)leave comment before you leave ARHH!!!she only read my blog when she is waiting for her frens to get ready ,damn bad la!!

okla, i am tired.it's 1.42 now.Just feel like wanna talk about my frens...I miss you guys always and i miss the secondary school time(where i get to bully ppl,everyday laughing non-stop until my teacher has to ask me to sit down and dun need read to whole class,disturb hengsuan' s father 's class with broken bahasa MALAYSIA,and being such a problematic student ,when my English teacher meet me, he has to say "YOU AR...TERRIBLE LA".and..another thing is my class teacher refuse to write comment for our whole class, and we had to go for other teachers to get the comment, and u know what he replied when i asked him why duan to help us write the testi???he said"saya tak tau kamu ada apa yang boleh saya puji..:))
For those of you who i didn"t mention here, doesn't mean that u guys are being forgotten.Of course not, and the memories were very long lasting than any brand of lipstick!!
** No matter where i go , you guys and the memories are with me.OOPs it's a bit scary!!
nite.

when is the time??

2006-10-25T11:30:00.000+01:00

When is the time
*where people will stop quarrel?
** The twin can behave better instead of always being scolded by their grandpa?
***where ppl will start care what they said might affect other's feelings?
****where ppl can meet their mr/miss right?
*****where ppl dun have to regret what they did?
******where the wars or anything else which is harmful to the earth can be stop right now?
*******where ppl will process every single words come out from their mouth before it turns into an arrow and shoot somebody else's heart?
********where ppl will start thinking what they want in the future instead of wasting their time on stupid things?
*********where ppl will start appreciate what they have,and show gratitude to the God?
**********where the time will be fully utilised by ppl?

When ? Can somebody tell me when ?
Of course not !!OF course there will not have one day where everyone is nice,live in a peaceful environment.
This earth is too scary to live,too many of danger which is unexpected, unsafe.
People becoming more and more cruel than last time, even though the education system has developed a lot.They are lost !!Sometimes they even did something which will make them regret afterward, but it's too late.

So, people , think wisely before u act or speak,any actions u took might bring a different consequence.
Appreciate what u have starting from now before it's too late. Appreciate the ppl around you who always support you ,even they are just a small character but they make a big difference.

We can make our life more easy and happy if we want to make a change.
"Delete "those bad habits u have, it's just as easy as u delete your stuff using computer.
The important point is IF YOU WANT, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

my fren get married again

2006-10-22T06:54:00.000+01:00

21/10/2006 koh's wedding dinner, 6.30pm,as always i am late for the dinner .and as always the dinner started when 7.30pm.Malaysian cant change this habit.sigh....

yesterday is my fren's wedding dinner..more than thousand people attend the dinner.It's aslo a good chance where each one of us able to meet those"long-time-no-see-fren".

It's actually a big hall where normally tangkak ppl use up their time to burn their fat.haha..actually they will play badminton here la.

This is my dear fren,dion.I bet u wont believe me if i were to tell you that she have got one baby.Anyway, she still never change ,still that crazy and pretty.By the way , i know she is exist in this world since std 2 where we both joined the singing contest.
And, she likes to mention the matter when she accompany me to toilet.sigh....haha

Ai jia and i became very close after she moved into my next door.We started to cycle to school everyday, sometimes my class end quite late, but she still wait for me until we got to go back together.so touch.Anyway, now she is no longer my neighbour.But, she is still my best fren.

After the dinner , we went to club.LOok at my mouth, luckily there is no flies around.
me,dion,janice,aileen in the pic.(.jolyin and yvonne not in the pic,my irene duan to go clubbing,hey actually the crowd is the same as usual nothing change because of deepavali la)..shake shake your body..i went there for exercise, cuz it's too crowded until my sweat "factory" never stop their hard work.
I wish that i could shake away all the fat available in my body , cuz my fren who never seen me for some time saying me that "your body size have increased, the arm too, so obvious.

*i get crazy when the Dj play the song " u know how the bad gal.....!!!!"

**i lost my voice afterward,scream a lot man!!A bit dizzy and too full after drank one bottle of Carlsberg in one go.because of the stupid sheng la!!!

That is not end of the comment.I met sheng in Pure, again, he has to mention i am so fat and keep laughing at me every time when he meet me, it's a must say things for him, i know one ,,haha.I cant stop him from laughing me rite? so the only thing i can do is pinch him using the most powerful energy i left!!!!Until he say pain!!Hmm!!!!!I know that i am fatter than last time , but what can i do ? i also dunno what is the reason, i seldom eat meat one ok?i started to do exercise dy ok ?I must slim down again before chinese new year.

Planned to upload few pic one, but the process was so slow , lazy to wait.Next time when only i am really really free then u will able to see a lot of nice pic.

oh ya, let u guys see the pic i took after i reached home at about 1.30am in the morning.

Haha..actually i took more than 20 in less than 5 minutes.Conclusion--rachel is a camwhore(spell this way rite?):P

I bet most of you realised that i have got a long face which is equal to the length of one short ruler.Oops shouldn't tell u this.:) this is truth what .

I successfully to cover all the ugly spots !!!can you spot any of them now?no rite?haha....and another things is this pic again help me to prove that my face is really a oil factory.So, huilee remember to give me a call whenever u are out of oil to fry egg.
haha....If i could ask the owner of oil factory move to other place, i guess my skin condition would be better.rite? If only i got this right to do so.So, the best solution is cut down the source of fat from animal.
Anyway, this pic is quite scary,isn't it?don't look at this pic for too long or not i will appear in your dream tonight.I will appear everyday but not only when JUlY-ghost month!!!wahahahaha..

^^^^^^^^^^
My fren is married while me...still studying to head for somethings i wanted .I guess i wont marry so early as them .There are lots of things waiting me over there .Marry??before 30 gua...If i couldn't find someone who really love me , i wont marry for very sure!! i would rather to be alone instead of suffer in the relationship.That 's me , i can take care of myself always!But, if there is a comfort chair for me to sit , for what i want to stand ?

**sure a lot of my fren get marry when i am in uk...
***ya...congratulation to my fren, hope happiness will always be with you.
****Wish that for those of you who is in love now, you guys will always sweet and enjoy studying"patho-logy"....while for those of you who havent find one, wish that you can find one soon .
*****Love is very powerful , it can make a person change a lot, where he or she will feel that all the creature in this world are so lovely.Agree?
Personally agree.
Anyway, i am not studying patho-logy now, i am a pharmacy student, my concern is all about drug.it sounds boring.:)

After the hard work of kicking ...

2006-10-19T15:03:00.000+01:00

:) Finally, i can float .First of all, i must thank my parents, my frens who teach me ..bla bla bla..hehe...actually i can only float but still dunno how to swim yet,but i promised i will in the near future.hey..i can now float from one end to the other end.Not bad le?hehe...

Everytime when i have to kick so hard in the pool ,I will keep wondering why and why ?why i will have such a weak strength of legs, just few kicking motion can bring me into "dead" tire dy!!!i guess none of you can really understand how tiring is my legs, as everyone's stamina is different, and the extent of how often they do exercise differs as well.sadly, i Have to admit that i really seldom do any exercise nowadays. Recall back to those secondary school time, i can play volleyball whole day,even though it brings me pain,tireness,BIGGER muscle on my arms!!!But, there is where everyone of us using up our time to make our team a success,skip class ..practice and practice...until i failed my physics and further maths.Hoping that we can win in the tournament.And finally at the end, we get to represent our district to join the tournament in state.ya..we didn't win any game , so dun get the chance to represent state.But, that is enough for me !

okla, i bet i will sure get every kinds of muscle pain tmw after i wake up. I am so sure with it.Okla..i got a 8 days of holiday starting from tomorrow, i really need to plan well to do whatever i havent do yet.Time is precious ok? this is saying to myself.

jiayou!!gambateh!!!!!!!!rachel go go !!!haha.....

My first swimming lesson

2006-10-13T11:42:00.000+01:00

Hehe..i woke up early in the morning today with the excited mood to unim's sport complex ..just to swim.

That is actually not that fun as what i thought.Because my legs(or should say my whole parts of body wherever there is muscle) are soooo tired, muscle fatigue...i have been kicking a lot in the swimming pool although not very successful but the kicking action did successfully make my legs DAMN tired!I was short of breath also..give me some air!!!According to my frens, they said it might because this is my first time to swim, my stamina havent build up...hopefully this will be the best reason , or not why is it so tiring?is it because my legs too much fat??ohNo..

That is not end of it,i am failed in making my body float also , dunno why my legs cannot come up.U know what is joanne's advice? haha..she said actually that is all about dancing in the pool ,shows your butt...haha damn funny la her.

All i wanted to say is , i am damn tired now after one hour of kicking and floating training.Actually i just wake up from my nap which takes me more than 2 hours, it has been quite a long time where i didn't take my nap, today really cannot tahan anymore.But, i wont say "stop", i must learn how to swim before i go to UK...i promised!!

ohYa..i have to thanks those who accompany me to swim today, and who has gave me lots of advice in how to swim.Thanks for ur supports."rachel rachel..."Btw, my frens can really swim well , hope one day in the future i can swim like u guys as i like.

i want "me" back

2006-10-11T14:15:00.000+01:00

For the last six months of 06', i really found myself being such a stupid and useless person.I did a lot of stupid things and decisions.Until now,it is still bothering me, never miss.i suffered a lot.I don't know what am i doing ?I have been such a person even me also cant recognised myself.I dunno what am i doing...i really hope that all these never happen before.I wanna find myself back who is cheerful all the time but not keep bothered with same thing again and again.I want me to be someone who can make a decision very fast, i will not care how people look at me .I want to be a naughty gal as last time. I want the true "me" back!! i know it cant be happen anymore, cuz i have grow older day by day.:(

A copy from my sister's blog

2006-09-09T07:51:00.000+01:00

Author:pohgeok(my sister)
You will never know how close my sister and I are. This is one of the illustrations that how this mutual support works.. I am very lucky to have her as my sister, believe it or not, I also learn from my younger sister. She has a lot of good concepts that are simple and true. We are similar in that we don't have a lot of complicated concepts. Sometimes, when she was trying to cheer me up, I thought.. hmm... she sounds so much similar to me (when I was in full positive energy). She is my mirror or shadow. Or maybe I am hers. = )
She went through similar life experience as mine. We both were frightened by the English when we went to college. We both were sad that our English were very poor. I think we both agree that we are improving. We are glad that we grow up so much. From small little girls, who play sands (but not dolls; oh... we actually have two teddy bears called bei bei and su su.. hahaha).. to now.. learning how to help people.. pacing ourselves.. learning and progressing.. to be a psychologist and a pharmacist. It is so interesting right? She is always performing better than I, academically. I envy her so much. = ) She is really clever but always thought herself as not so bright child. You are really good! I always use you as an example of working hard towards the goal.. I remembered how you went through the A level with dunno how many times of reading .. over and over again..RESPECT. = ) Because I can't.. I can't really read books for so many times.. I will really get bored! haha.. u are great! U make me believe that , when there is a will, there is a way!

I have to say that story again. Why would I have you as my sister? My parents are lucky enough. They thought that I will get bored because I was the only daughter in the family, after five brothers. So, they decided to give it another try. Then they really got "you", another daughter again. Exactly what they were hoping for! I got so jealous when I was really young. I had full attention originally without you. You were weak since young, so you always slept with parents on the bed but I slept on the floor. We sometimes argued and fought but in the end cried together. BEcause both of us were hurt. You lor.. has asthma, pity girl, I am even pitier because I have to wash the school shoes for you. You know lar.. I was very lazy last time. haha.. But I know that no matter how .. I feel really fortunate to have you as my sister despite those... haha.. remember how I was protecting you by fighting with li kwang? haha.. remember how i was crying when mum was hitting you? haha.. I am glad that mama and papa have brought you to our family.. to be a guan jia po for our family.. ^_^ haha ... JIE JIE.. TUO YING XING YAN JING!!!!!!!!!.... that was the sound that I miss the most. haha.. (cuz I always 'accidentally' fell asleep without taking out contact lens, then she would be there, using her best speaker sound to disturb me like a very annoying alarm.. really annoying that type.. haha). Sometimes I would even threw temper tantrum at her, cuz ... dun challenge me when I was in my dream.. haha.. btw. I already taken out my contact lens now. I brushed my teeth too! I am a very good girl now.. without you by my side to remind me...... = )

I dunno when.. but I started to learn to live on my own. I am more independent now than I was years ago. I think I have to be strong so that I have the ability to help others and be other people's support when they need me. I have to have a clear mind to put other people's worries, yet will not feel burdened with the worries. I will need a unlimited space in my mind, theoretically. I am learning. At the same time, I know that.. no matter how sad I am, how rejected I feel, how terrific the situation is.. my home, my sister is always there for me. To Reflect Back How Cheerful I Should Be. To Remind Me How Much I Am Blessed To Have So Much Support N Love FroM Many People.

yet. I know I am the only one to walk my own path. No one can help me with my own journey. They are supporters.. I am still the only one to decide my future and my way. That's my WAY. ^_^

Here are what i wrote to my sister in my another blog in friendster:
ya,cheer up!!everyone should do this ..who else still in down mood?believe me ...forget the past ..move on ..no matter wat the things o people had make u cry, make u sad ..nono..forget it..they doesn't mean to do so..tat 's human will do.although human always did the great job , they created the computer which is very powerful..but they will still do wrong ..no ones is perfect..they may hurt u, but they are not purposely one, even they do purposely do somethings ..forget it.learn to forgive ppl then u will feel happier..
jiejie..dun be sad ok?u know i am fail in counsel ppl one..i can feel tat i am bad in it,bt i will try my best ..no matter how ppl think , be strong...learn from"shan cai"(a main female character in a taiwan show named "meteor garden") hehe...not easily being defended by ppl.."wo men yao yi qi zou xia qu":)...u always telling me tat i m not alone..maybe u wont know how touch am i when i hear this from u...so i want u to feel it now..jiejie,u are not alone..i am always with u even if we are far apart..u got whole bunch of frens , lovely family members to support u ..u are not alone..!!aiya...the pantai havent reply me ..o not i can decide whether can find u o not..my results coming out this thursday o...:Pcham le..hehe..last but not least..u are a great sister!!!my very very great sister !!!no one can replace u !!if it is not u , today wont have a gal named may shiang!!she is strong becuz she got a good sister who always support her ,always cheer her up whenever she is in down mood..teach her a lot of things ..jiejie for her is not just a sister..she is more than a sister...time will past ,ppl will grow older but this fact will not change..jiejie....jia you!! you can do it!!

I was so touched when i read what she wrote.The conclusion is , i am always glad to have her as my sister and have other family members around me to support each other.The world is so wonderful, don't you agree me?(For those bad characters, yeap, you all were just small character to make my life stories more interesting and challenging.Anyway,thanks!!But, i still cannot understand why so many people like to purposely do something to make others hurt.Hope those people can notice what had they did and change their bad habits.)

australia and taiwan

2006-08-21T05:16:00.000+01:00

AUSTRALIA----
Here are some thoughts from australia.Firstly, i really like the people over there, this must include my sister frens and the people i met in the temple.Australia, or more specific --perth is really a nice place to go. The people is so much different from some malaysian. I think everyone will agree me that sometimes malaysian is really unfriendly and selfish.But, everyone suppose to be the same , the different is our environment, we lived in a country which is so unsafe, we won't say hi so easily to a stranger,we always have to care for ourselves first because there are different kind of tricks people will use to cheat others. For example, if someone wave to u at the roadside asking for your help, how many is there willing to stop?No right?Malaysia is become more and more unsafe la...There is no fun anymore .Every day have to worry about our safety once we step out of our house.sad story.:(
Hey, go back to the topic first.i really have lots of fun with jiejie when in perth.Although the trip in Albany is always raining and windy but it's still fun. Especially the moment we spent in the Elephant rock!Wow...That's the first time we run and walk thru the rocky road under the heavy rain and strong wind.Racing with the wave .When the wave goes away,we will say GO GO GO then faster run.And after torturing from the rocky road, heard hang xiang said that he couldn't find bryan. walau ....we were so worried!!! stand under the heavy rain and look around the place hope that bryan will appear soon while at the same time the foot were so pain!!luckily at the end everyone is safe.(Actually the bryan is wearing his shoes when we were looking for him.)haha..and lots lots of memories.All i wanted to say is i really have a great time in perth.Do you know how great is it ?It' s great until i nearly go to delay my flight back to malaysia when 4.00pm which my flight suppose to fly at 4.30pm.haha...cannot stay there anymore la.I might disturb my jiejie one.hehe..thanks everyone i met in perth .

TAIWAN---
This is a free and easy trip which means that we can go any place we want at any time.haha..oh..taiwan ar..You have to make sure your mandarin can be understand by taiwanese.When u go WATSON and 7-ELEVEN there is no plastic bag provide for u unless u pay for $1.Surprise rite?I felt awful after each meals because i had eat too much!!Their foods are cheap and oklo.Not really very nice la, so far there is nothing i will miss.Don't understand why the young guys and gals like to spend their time on those games which we will see in our FUN FAIR.Not fun right?( That's my own opinion la) All the youngs , no matter guy or gal talk quite soft one lo and then i understand why the taiwan famous model lin zhi ling will talk in tat way.haha..i met two pairs of mother and son, i like the way they teach their children, no shouts, no screams. They will talk to them patiently and explain to them what they had did wrongly.I think that is really good. (Of course what i saw is only parts of taiwan, not all of them are like this ) This is really a trip mainly to torture my legs lo...everyday walk ( i think the time i walk in one day will be the same as the time i walk for one week in malaysia lo!) crazy!!Do you know how pain is it ?It was pain until like i cant even bend my waist.( like grandma type liao)hehe...okla..overall it's still fun and is a nice place for u to shop and eat around.okla..that's it.stop here.

call---blush

2006-06-15T13:15:00.000+01:00

Called kim fong in the evening last few hours ago..very happy after ended the call..she keep saying i cannot have too much of time or not i will think a lot..hehe...she said "u are not like tat one!!" hehe...yalo..why am i keep changing ..change aslo headed to positive one maa...yalo...must be i think too much cuz i got damn a lot of time...for those ppl who very busy when they read this sure feel like wanna kill me ..wahaha!!!:p...
nvm.. i m just sometimes nearly drive into a wrong way..but luckily i manage to move back because..is not because u love me la..is because i got whole bunch of lovely ppls around me.support me..pull me up when i was down..accompany me to say those stupid things which will make me very happy..i am glad tat i am myself now..hehe..change so fast..
actually i am wet with sweat now...waiting for my body to cool down ..long time din feel tat my face is blush...pinky...nice ..cuz everytime ppl will say my face very pale ..even drink a lot of beer aslo still very pale..so i seldom got the chance to make my face become A BIT red...so is quite happy and enjoy to play badminton..but i know tat i sure will experience muscle pain,fatigue tmw!!!!hee...nvm la..is all worth of it..but just now dunno why i din even say goodbye to him..wat 's tat reaction?:)no ideas..just dun feel like talking too much ..
gtg for bath and later go aileen's house watch movie....:)
tze,i know u will be reading this in the future..so telling u now tat kakak no longer doing stupid thing liao..hehe..get it?

i should sort into which group?

2006-06-15T04:50:00.000+01:00

Just read an email from ACNT(Australasian college of natural therapies) never heard of it rite?why am i talking about it here is becuz last time i got the mind wanna enrol in this course,all about natural things...homeopathy..and ble bla bla ..my sister search this for me if i am not wrong ..but i have forgotten wat is the reason i din choose it at the end ?sis,do u remember?a bit rxgrxt now..maybe i got an "old old" mind aslo ..only know tat there is lawyer o doc this kind of career..actually there are many other things as well...i dun think wat i study now is so called "choose wat you are interesting with..."..i think my frens who knows me well sure know tat i paling hate eat medicine one..and i ask eelin before "why am i so scare of eating medicine, but in the future i am the one who going to ask those patient to eat medicine?"i am going to ask ppl do wat i dun like to do...why so contradict one?but eelin reply me this"aiyo,not asking u to eat aslo!!" hehe..funny la...i know wat i can learn from pharmacy course is not only medicine but sadly it is mostly about medicine.....pills...solution...suspension..capsule...!!!CAN I THROW THEM AWAY???going off to uk next yr, once i go i cant move back anymore lo..okla..i wont give up ,although i did have the mind to give up aslo during A-levels..but at the end i still manage to finish it..i am like tat one la..always got an evil stay in my brain telling me "woo...no..u should have do this..no..u should give up!!"But am i really enjoy the road tat i am walking now??
Everytime when i tell ppl tat i am studying pharmacy course, they will say good ar..!!but are u guys so sure tat it's really good ??or becuz of it has a good "money" future??then they say good ?:/
No one will know good o not until they have experience it rite?so i have to go ..go ..go ...to see how 's my future..wat is inside my "future" box?nobody will have an exact answer...u must go nearer to see how wonderful is the rainbow colour...

where is the love??

2006-06-13T10:36:00.000+01:00

hmm... i will stick with this blog from now on ..wont write in friendster liao la..today after listen to what mom describe how they being bully by other uncle and aunty...haiz..i dunno wat response to give so..i just keep quite ..erm..it sounds really sad..so live in a big family isn't a good thing ..
This morning when i was eating chicken rice while watching at the animal planet channel, watch how a zebra eaten by group of lions, and it has no energy,power to escape from them...and i was eating meat at the same time ..feel so bad....i actually eating animal which initially may experience the same suffer moment as the zebra..why am i so cruel go and eat those innocent animal??why??...i feel like wanna vomit ...the chicken is no longer tasty for me ..at least at tat moment..dunno i will be affect by the pic for how long ...but i really feel sympathy for them..sorry..as a human , do we really have the rights to kill them which they will feel the pain??if the answer is not ,then why we still do all this??i dun understand..we happy when we eat different kinds of delicious dishes made from different source of animal..but we have forgot the moment when the animal was torture by human when we want to eat them..kill them when they still alive...human??a word sounds very great,know a lot of things,got feeling..but actually wat we did is just like those innocent animal...kill..fight!!!
oh..tell me..wat to do ?human always do the things tat even human aslo dunno how to explain it..nobody can knows where is the real n confirm answer...u cannot find the answer from dictionary..is there any rules tat everyone will follow ?no right?means there is no "right or wrong "in this world...human is complicated...but,i know my role in this world ..tat's being myself ,stand by my own view and of course will listen to others..becuz we are human got the ability to judge "right or wrong "at least in our own world..

hello to my new blog site

2006-05-31T07:35:00.000+01:00

hello...i think this blog will only be read by me rite..cuz until now nobody will know that i have create an account here....i like to write blog....is like saying what is inside ur heart .....